{"id":21996,"date":"2016-11-03T13:29:12","date_gmt":"2016-11-03T12:29:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21996"},"modified":"2016-11-03T13:29:12","modified_gmt":"2016-11-03T12:29:12","slug":"slutet-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21996","title":{"rendered":"Slutet"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-17743\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/05\/endoftheroad-1024x957.png?resize=580%2C542\" alt=\"endoftheroad\" width=\"580\" height=\"542\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Jag trodde aldrig jag skulle bli sextio. Men s\u00e5 blir man det. Men blir man nu sextio kan man i princip leva hur l\u00e4nge som helst. S\u00e5 t\u00e4nkte jag i alla fall innan femtio. Vi f\u00e5r se hur det blir. I den h\u00e4r \u00e5ldern g\u00e5r man inte s\u00e4ker. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r tar det slut och man tackar f\u00f6r sig. F\u00f6r mig \u00e4r sextio \u00e5r i alla fall en ansenlig \u00e5lder. Skulle jag beh\u00f6va tacka f\u00f6r mig idag s\u00e5 \u00e4r jag r\u00e4tt n\u00f6jd. Jag har haft ett l\u00e5ngt och ett rikt liv. Allt h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n \u00e4r bonus.<\/p>\n<p>Men det \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 en bra punkt f\u00f6r f\u00f6r f\u00f6r\u00e4ndringar. B\u00f6rja tr\u00e4na och g\u00e5 ner i vikt kanske? Klippa sig och skaffa ett jobb? Hur m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger har jag inte best\u00e4mt mig f\u00f6r att g\u00f6ra det de senaste \u00e5ren.\u00a0 G\u00e5r det s\u00e5 g\u00e5r det. F\u00f6r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker man s\u00e5 fungerar det till slut. Ocks\u00e5 det. Jag lyckades i alla fall sluta r\u00f6ka. Till slut. D\u00e5 kan jag sluta med allt. Vad som helst. Jag vet ju det.<\/p>\n<p>MEN h\u00e4r, precis h\u00e4r,\u00a0 \u00e4r v\u00e4gs \u00e4nde f\u00f6r bloggen. Slutet. Bloggv\u00e4rlden f\u00e5r klara sig utan mig och mitt svammel. PO Tidholm blir i alla fall glad. Ja s\u00e4kert n\u00e5gra till ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n<p>Jag \u00e4r tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 m\u00e4nniskorna.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>F\u00f6r vem kan argumentera med dem som bara l\u00e4ser rubriker?<\/li>\n<li>Vem kan prata om n\u00e5got vettigt med honom som med stolthet ber\u00e4ttar att han fuskat sig genom h\u00f6gskolan?<\/li>\n<li>Hur skall en liten r\u00f6st som min n\u00e5gonsin kunna h\u00f6ras n\u00e4r den som pratar h\u00f6gst \u00e4r den som lyssnas p\u00e5?<\/li>\n<li>&#8230;och osv. Det \u00e4r bara att se sig omkring. Fixstj\u00e4rnor. Ytlighet. Ingenting!<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Det \u00e4r i alla fall s\u00e5d\u00e4r v\u00e4rlden ser ut fr\u00e5n mitt perspektiv. Ja och tro mig. Jag har verkligen f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt f\u00f6rflytta mig f\u00f6r att se alltihop p\u00e5 ett annat s\u00e4tt, fr\u00e5n ett annat perspektiv, verkligen anstr\u00e4ngt mig f\u00f6r att vara f\u00f6rl\u00e5tande.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 en stuga ute i skogen d\u00e4r ingen bor vore det jag \u00f6nskade mest. Bort fr\u00e5n allt det d\u00e4r. Jag h\u00f6r inte hemma i den h\u00e4r tiden. Det \u00e4r f\u00f6r enkelt. P\u00e5 tok f\u00f6r enkelt. Eller ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r det bara jag som \u00e4r konstig. Troligen bara det.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 jag t\u00e4nker s\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag skriver h\u00e4r att det h\u00e4r, ja, det skall bli det sista blogginl\u00e4gget. Slut p\u00e5 bloggandet. L\u00e4gg ner bloggen. Men sen kommer den d\u00e4r skrivlusten \u00f6ver mig igen.\u00a0 Det d\u00e4r som andra f\u00e5r ur sig i fikarummet men som jag spyr ur mig i bloggen. Ja, kanske inte \u00e4nnu d\u00e5 allts\u00e5. Nedl\u00e4ggning allts\u00e5.\u00a0 Sen. Snart. Den lever p\u00e5 \u00f6vertid redan den h\u00e4r bloggen.<\/p>\n<p>Jag m\u00e5ste nog skriva mer. Eller inte. Fast troligen. En s\u00e4kerhetsventil \u00e4r det allt. En toalett att spy ur sig i. F\u00f6r vad \u00e4r en som skriver utan de som l\u00e4ser. Det \u00e4r inte samma sak att skriva f\u00f6r mappar p\u00e5 en h\u00e5rddisk. Fast det \u00e4r klart. Nog har jag gjort det. Nog finns det ord s\u00e5 det r\u00e4cker d\u00e4r med. Alldeles f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga. Till ingen nytta.\u00a0 Japp, som aldrig kommer att bli l\u00e4sta. S\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n<p>Men lusten. Den som fortfarande finns d\u00e4r inne i mig. Den tvingar mig nog att forts\u00e4tta blogga ocks\u00e5. I alla fall ett tag till. Man f\u00e5r ta det en vecka i taget. Mer g\u00e5r det inte att planera.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jag trodde aldrig jag skulle bli sextio. Men s\u00e5 blir man det. Men blir man nu sextio kan man i princip leva hur l\u00e4nge som helst. S\u00e5 t\u00e4nkte jag i alla fall innan femtio. Vi f\u00e5r se hur det blir. I den h\u00e4r \u00e5ldern g\u00e5r man inte s\u00e4ker. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r tar det slut [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21996","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17978,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17978","url_meta":{"origin":21996,"position":0},"title":"En del d\u00f6r f\u00f6r unga och elharpan som bara samlar damm","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-05-28","format":false,"excerpt":"Poeten l\u00e5ter sig omslutas av havet och v\u00e5gor fr\u00e5n Ryssland. 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