S\u00e5 st\u00e4ng igen. Sl\u00e4ck, Fyll pellets. Kryp i s\u00e4ng. Beh\u00f6ver en extra timme s\u00f6mn ikv\u00e4ll. Sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n s\u00e5 \u00e4r det inte. En enda f\u00f6rhoppning s\u00e4nder jag till han\/hon\/det\/gud om just det. Allts\u00e5 att jag f\u00e5r vakna upp till en dag till. En dag i taget. Det \u00e4r allt jag beg\u00e4r.<\/p>\n
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