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Fem grader ute. Sjunkande. Det b\u00f6rjar bli kallt. Funderar p\u00e5 att flytta in i ett av de mindre rummen. Enklare att h\u00e5lla varmt. Fast det \u00e4r s\u00e5klart besv\u00e4rligt. Inte f\u00f6r mjukvaran. Men f\u00f6r h\u00e5rdvaran. Den tar plats. Vill ha ytor.\u00a0 Men det h\u00e4r \u00e5ret s\u00e4ger spara. Inte sl\u00f6sa. Fast det \u00e4r h\u00e5rdvaran jag drar in mina f\u00e5 pengar p\u00e5. Balansg\u00e5ng p\u00e5 vansinnets rand allts\u00e5. Detta eviga backande. Funderar f\u00e5r man.<\/p>\n
Intensivt h\u00e4r nu. Har rivit och byggt upp igen. Oerh\u00f6rt frustrerande att f\u00f6rst\u00f6ra saker som har fungerat tidigare. Ja det \u00e4r mjukvara s\u00e5klart. Man f\u00e5r plocka ihop igen. Styra med tungan. Det blir nog bra fram\u00e5t jul n\u00e5gonstans. K\u00e4nner mig envis.<\/p>\n
Hinner inte s\u00e5 mycket mer \u00e4n det h\u00e4r just nu. Allt jag har i projektet. Orkar inte mer.\u00a0 Att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00e5 saker p\u00e5 plats. Det tar ett halv\u00e5r. Mer kanske. Japp \u00e4nnu ett halv\u00e5r av ett liv. Kommer jag \u00e5ngra det h\u00e4r n\u00e4r jag ligger d\u00e4r och skall dra mitt sista andetag? Kanske. Just nu k\u00e4nns det i alla fall r\u00e4tt. Ingen vill lyssna p\u00e5 min musik. Ingen vill l\u00f6sa det jag skriver. Ingen vill betala f\u00f6r att anv\u00e4nda mina grejer. N\u00e4r jag programmerar t\u00e4nker jag inte p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r. Beh\u00f6ver inte det. Se d\u00e4r ett v\u00e4rde. En hj\u00e4lp att \u00f6verleva. \u00c5tminstone det. Fast det l\u00e5ter s\u00e5klart v\u00e4rre \u00e4n det \u00e4r. Som vanligt. Jag g\u00f6r allt med gl\u00e4dje \u00e4nd\u00e5. Ingen skall tro annat. Flinar. Galet det med s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n
Narrative<\/a> kastar in handduken. Ig\u00e5r. Har br\u00e4nt 100 miljoner. Tittar man p\u00e5 siffrorna<\/a> s\u00e5 kan man ju undra. Hur l\u00e4tt 100 miljoner kan skjutas iv\u00e4g ut i \/dev\/null. Tror jag hade kunnat f\u00f6rr\u00e4nta de d\u00e4r pengarna b\u00e4ttre. Fast vad vet man? Det \u00e4r ingen konst att g\u00f6ra av med pengar. Kanske inte ens 100 miljoner. Alla projekt som inte lyckas \u00e4r s\u00e5klart synd att de g\u00f6r det. Bara en uppbl\u00e5st idiot p\u00e5st\u00e5r annat. Hoppas upphovsm\u00e4nnen\/mannen kan forts\u00e4tta p\u00e5 n\u00e5got vis. Man l\u00e4r sig p\u00e5 att g\u00f6ra saker. Synd att kasta bort erfarenhet.<\/p>\n Alla angriper landsbygden just nu. Det g\u00e5r \u00e5t helvete. Jaha…. Den som lever f\u00e5r se.<\/p>\n En timme till. Sen bok och sova. Os\u00e4ker om jag redan l\u00e4st boken jag l\u00e4ser. Gammelmanstecken!? 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