{"id":21568,"date":"2016-09-19T07:07:39","date_gmt":"2016-09-19T06:07:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21568"},"modified":"2016-09-19T07:07:39","modified_gmt":"2016-09-19T06:07:39","slug":"mitt-paradis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21568","title":{"rendered":"“mitt paradis”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"paradis-19\"<\/p>\n

Jag s\u00e4tter p\u00e5 kaffe och g\u00f6r mig klar. Det ligger en obruten vecka framf\u00f6r mig. Jag beh\u00f6ver det och jag gillar det. Och kanske f\u00f6rblir den ocks\u00e5 obruten med lite tur.<\/p>\n

Det \u00e4r s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r m\u00e5ndagar jag kommer ner p\u00e5 kontoret ser mig omkring och t\u00e4nker “mitt paradis”. Jag antar att det \u00e4r ungef\u00e4r vad en livstidsd\u00f6md m\u00f6rdare t\u00e4nker n\u00e4r hen ser sig runt i sin cell efter femton, sexton \u00e5r. Men faktum \u00e4r att det k\u00e4nns s\u00e5. Lite “macken” k\u00e4nsla faktiskt. Men h\u00e4r sitter jag och f\u00f6r\u00e4ndrar v\u00e4rlden. Sk\u00e4ms inte f\u00f6r det. Nej inte ens f\u00f6r att jag t\u00e4nker s\u00e5.<\/p>\n

J hemma under helgen. Det \u00e4r en speciell k\u00e4nsla att ha b\u00e5da barnen, de som defacto inte \u00e4r barn l\u00e4ngre, hemma. Men han har sitt och \u00e4r redan hemma i Uppsala igen s\u00e5klart. F\u00f6rel\u00e4sningar och handledarsamtal v\u00e4ntar. R med s\u00e5klart. Dom har sitt liv d\u00e4r. Vi h\u00e4r \u00e4r utflykten, avbrottet, precis som det skall vara.<\/p>\n

Ja kaffe p\u00e5 morgonen allts\u00e5. Jag \u00e5ngrar det till lunch. Antagligen. Det blir f\u00f6r mycket. Jag borde inte dricka kaffe alls. Jag blir f\u00f6r hypad av det. I alla fall om jag redan har snurrat ig\u00e5ng f\u00f6r att jag \u00e4r sugen. Men gifter. Ett g\u00e4ng. Man skall pl\u00e5ga sig. Antingen med gisslet eller med gifterna. De flesta av oss v\u00e4ljer v\u00e4l gifterna idag. Blodiga ryggar \u00e4r s\u00e5 j\u00e4kla ute liksom.<\/p>\n

Inne i en roligare del av programmerandet. P\u00e5sar knyts ihop. Tv\u00e5 m\u00e5naders oerh\u00f6rt tr\u00e5kigt infrastruktur jobb skall nu f\u00e5 sin bel\u00f6ning. Det \u00e4r som att bygga fundamenten f\u00f6r en bro och sen \u00e4ntligen f\u00e5 l\u00e4gga p\u00e5 bron. Har man t\u00e4nkt och gjort r\u00e4tt s\u00e5 passar den. Det \u00e4r ingenj\u00f6rens bel\u00f6ning. Det \u00f6gonblick n\u00e4r ens tankar konkretiseras till verklighet. Blir n\u00e5got man kan ta p\u00e5 eller g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got med.<\/p>\n

“skalll skall sakll sakll sakll sakll sakll skall skall skall sakll sakll skall skaall sakll sakll sakll skall sakll sakll skall skall skall sakll sakll saklll salkl”<\/p>\n

ser det ut om jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker skriva “skall”\u00a0 snabbt ett g\u00e4ng g\u00e5nger snabbt. Varf\u00f6r det? Fel p\u00e5 fingrar, huvud eller tangentbord?<\/p>\n

Det g\u00e5r utf\u00f6r.<\/p>\n

Men \u00e4r h\u00e4rligt att leva.<\/p>\n

\u00c4r det inte en ynnest att ha f\u00f6rm\u00e5gan att t\u00e4nka s\u00e5? Japp f\u00f6rm\u00e5gan. Inte turen.<\/p>\n

Men sugen nu. Oerh\u00f6rt sugen. S\u00e5 bloggandet f\u00e5r anses vara avklarat. Klockan \u00e4r tio \u00f6ver \u00e5tta. En arbetsdag ligger framf\u00f6r mig. H\u00e4rligt!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag s\u00e4tter p\u00e5 kaffe och g\u00f6r mig klar. Det ligger en obruten vecka framf\u00f6r mig. Jag beh\u00f6ver det och jag gillar det. Och kanske f\u00f6rblir den ocks\u00e5 obruten med lite tur. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r m\u00e5ndagar jag kommer ner p\u00e5 kontoret ser mig omkring och t\u00e4nker “mitt paradis”. Jag antar att det \u00e4r ungef\u00e4r vad […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21568","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":18146,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18146","url_meta":{"origin":21568,"position":0},"title":"Lev gott kamrater","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-06-19","format":false,"excerpt":"Visst jag skulle kunna t\u00e4nka mig att sitta p\u00e5 en brygga l\u00e5ngt ute i sk\u00e4rg\u00e5rden. 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