Den bryter igenom molnen, fullm\u00e5nen strax innan tolv. Jag vandrar runt med tandborsten i munnen p\u00e5 v\u00e4g till s\u00e4ngen och boken. Jag st\u00e4ller mig framf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. F\u00f6nstret som vetter ut mot skogen och ingenting. Eller snarare mot det liv vi inte ser. \u00d6sterut. M\u00e5ste st\u00e5 d\u00e4r en stund. Fullm\u00e5ne och sn\u00f6t\u00e4cket ligger. Jag blir inte besviken. Bl\u00e5ljuset finns d\u00e4r. Tr\u00e4den l\u00e4mnar markanta, inte helt svarta, snarare m\u00f6rkbl\u00e5, skuggor i o-ljuset. Gnistrandet, som av miljarder och \u00e5ter miljarder \u00e4delstenar, finns inte riktigt d\u00e4r inatt dock. Min skatt. Inte som den kommer fylla natten l\u00e4ngre fram i vinter. N\u00e4r man bara st\u00e5r d\u00e4r och h\u00e4pnar. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r kallare. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r mer och l\u00f6sare sn\u00f6. F\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen jag s\u00e5g det var f\u00f6rsta vintern efter att vi flyttat ut hit till skogen. Att se vinternatt utan inverkan av artificiell belysning fick mig att h\u00e4pna m\u00e5nga n\u00e4tter. En stj\u00e4rnhimmel s\u00e5 tydlig och klar, o\u00e4ndlig och m\u00e4ktig och s\u00e5 bl\u00e5ljuset d\u00e5. Svartaste natt n\u00e4r o-ljuset \u00e4nd\u00e5 lyste upp allt som om det var p\u00e5 dan. Magiskt.<\/p>\n
Sen dess har det varit m\u00e5nga andra n\u00e4tter n\u00e4r jag st\u00e5tt h\u00e4r och rofyllt ser ut \u00f6ver bl\u00e5natten. \u00c4lvors och andra varelsers v\u00e4rld. Bara ett f\u00f6nster som skiljer en n\u00e4stan naken o-cool gubbe fr\u00e5n en annan v\u00e4rld utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. Jag \u00e4r n\u00f6jd \u00f6ver att f\u00e5 st\u00e5 h\u00e4r en stund. Upplyft av det jag ser. Upplyft av det jag kan ana mig till. T\u00e4nderna \u00e4r rena och jag kan g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig igen.<\/p>\n
M\u00e5nen lyser in genom en springa mellan gardinerna i s\u00e4ngkammaren. En liten punkt av koncentrerat m\u00e5nljus, intensivt vitt, p\u00e5 min del av s\u00e4ngen. Som om universum tar i med h\u00e5rdhandskarna och s\u00e4ger “l\u00e4gg dig ner och sov i natten gubbj\u00e4vel”. Och som gammal o-cool losgubbe lyder man s\u00e5klart universums r\u00f6st.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Den bryter igenom molnen, fullm\u00e5nen strax innan tolv. Jag vandrar runt med tandborsten i munnen p\u00e5 v\u00e4g till s\u00e4ngen och boken. Jag st\u00e4ller mig framf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. F\u00f6nstret som vetter ut mot skogen och ingenting. Eller snarare mot det liv vi inte ser. \u00d6sterut. M\u00e5ste st\u00e5 d\u00e4r en stund. Fullm\u00e5ne och sn\u00f6t\u00e4cket ligger. Jag blir inte […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24,25,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2155","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser","category-status-fran-just-idag","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1781,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=1781","url_meta":{"origin":2155,"position":0},"title":"Bl\u00e5ljus","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2012-10-28","format":false,"excerpt":"Halv fyra S\u00f6ndagsmorgon. 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