{"id":21512,"date":"2016-09-14T21:06:57","date_gmt":"2016-09-14T20:06:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21512"},"modified":"2016-09-14T21:11:17","modified_gmt":"2016-09-14T20:11:17","slug":"fyra-timmar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21512","title":{"rendered":"Fyra timmar"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21513\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160824_0920041\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160824_0920041.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Jag g\u00e5r som vanligt varvet runt Kyrksj\u00f6n det f\u00f6rsta jag g\u00f6r d\u00e4r i Ljusdal. K \u00e4r p\u00e5 m\u00f6te, kulm\u00f6te. Det som skall ta tre timmar, men som tar fyra. Finns det m\u00f6ten som n\u00e5gonsin blir kortare \u00e4n vad det \u00e4r t\u00e4nkt? Men allts\u00e5 timmar som jag har att f\u00f6rdriva. Hitta syssels\u00e4ttning under. Inga problem. T\u00e4nka g\u00e5r alltid. Det finns mycket att fundera \u00f6ver. Jag har inga problem med det. Bara det inte h\u00e4nder f\u00f6r ofta. K s\u00e4ger\u00a0 att jag redan nu t\u00e4nker f\u00f6r mycket.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 f\u00f6rst d\u00e5 allts\u00e5 varvet kring Kyrksj\u00f6n. En timme. Om man tar det lugnt. Det tar jag. Lite os\u00e4ker idag. Har varit lite f\u00f6rkyld. Japp igen och igen och igen detta f\u00f6rkylnings\u00e5r. Men man har en p\u00e4rla d\u00e4r Ljusdalsborna. En fantastisk runda \u00e4r det. N\u00e5got som m\u00e4rks p\u00e5 alla som anv\u00e4nder promenadstr\u00e5ket.<\/p>\n<p>N\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r f\u00f6rbi alla husen som ligger p\u00e5 primel\u00e4ge vid vattnet. De som ger sken av v\u00e4lartat och lyckligt liv s\u00e5 vet jag ju att det i de flesta hus \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte \u00e4r s\u00e5. Det finns s\u00e5 mycket olycka och el\u00e4nde och gr\u00e4l och l\u00e4ngtan till annat bakom f\u00f6nstren. Den nya bilen p\u00e5 uppfarten eller det stora huset som ligger d\u00e4r s\u00e5 perfekt vid vattnet \u00e4r ingen garanti f\u00f6r lycka. Man kan inte forts\u00e4tta p\u00e5 den tr\u00e5den alls. Inte f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge. F\u00f6r att inte b\u00f6rja misstr\u00f6sta \u00f6ver m\u00e4nniskosl\u00e4ktet. Var bord de lyckliga?<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21514\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160914_084951\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_084951.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Och dom d\u00e4r tallarna, f\u00f6rkrympta, stackarstallarna, dom som st\u00e5r d\u00e4r vid v\u00e4gen. Nog \u00e4r de lite som m\u00e4nniskor. Hade de inte varit annorlunda, just f\u00f6rkrympta och tuktade p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r s\u00e4ttet de \u00e4r, s\u00e5 hade man inte tittat extra p\u00e5 dem. Inte sett dem.\u00a0 Men nu g\u00f6r man det. Japp som med m\u00e4nniskor. Det kr\u00e4vs n\u00e5got mer hos dem ocks\u00e5 om man skall se dem, bry sig om dem. De r\u00e4cker inte med str\u00f6mf\u00f6ljare, slentrianm\u00e4nniskor, vara-lika-som-alla-andra-m\u00e4nniskor. Det kr\u00e4vs lite defekter. Vi uppskattar inte v\u00e5ra defekter efter f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nst helt enkelt. Det \u00e4r det jag vill ha sagt. Det kan man l\u00e4ra av de d\u00e4r tv\u00e5 tallarna.<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21515\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_090417-576x1024.jpg?resize=576%2C1024\" alt=\"20160914_090417\" width=\"576\" height=\"1024\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_090417.jpg?resize=576%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 576w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_090417.jpg?resize=169%2C300&amp;ssl=1 169w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_090417.jpg?w=581&amp;ssl=1 581w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 576px) 100vw, 576px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Och alla de d\u00e4r belysningsstolparna som st\u00e5r d\u00e4r med n\u00e5gra meters mellanrum. Man skulle kunna skapa ett h\u00e4ftigt realtidsspel h\u00e4r runt sp\u00e5ret. Lite bluetooth, lite lampor, r\u00f6relsedeckare och en display p\u00e5 varje stolpe. Uppkopplat s\u00e5klart. Sen &#8220;Let the game begin&#8221;. Men stoppar s\u00e5klart den tanken innan den sl\u00e5r rot. Jag har nog med det jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med.<\/p>\n<p>F\u00f6rresten kostar man p\u00e5 v\u00e4ldigt mycket mer p\u00e5 belysning till folket i storstaden \u00e4n man g\u00f6r h\u00e4r ute. Kanske \u00e4r de m\u00f6rkr\u00e4dda. Eller ocks\u00e5 tror de styrande att vi h\u00e4r ute inte \u00e4r det.<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21516\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160914_091732\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091732.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Tr\u00e4bryggorna \u00e4r vackra<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21517\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160914_091740\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091740.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>En guldklimp i tr\u00e4.<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21518\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160914_091746\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091746.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Ja verkligen.<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21519\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160914_091752\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091752.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Ingen tvekan om saken<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21520\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802-1024x576.jpg?resize=580%2C327\" alt=\"20160914_091802\" width=\"580\" height=\"327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802.jpg?resize=1024%2C576&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802.jpg?resize=300%2C169&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802.jpg?resize=768%2C432&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802.jpg?resize=500%2C281&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_091802.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Men fisk i sj\u00f6n verkar det inte finnas. Verkar held\u00f6tt.<\/p>\n<p>Men efter en stund p\u00e5 tr\u00e4d\u00e4cket, en bit till efter asfalten. Belysningsstolparna triggar fantasin fortfarande. Men h\u00e4r har jag ont i armen, axeln, hela h\u00f6gerpaketet. Bra eftersom jag skall till Ortopeden imorgon. \u00d6s p\u00e5 bara. S\u00e5 jag kommer ih\u00e5g att det g\u00f6r ont.<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-21521\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_092643-576x1024.jpg?resize=576%2C1024\" alt=\"20160914_092643\" width=\"576\" height=\"1024\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_092643.jpg?resize=576%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 576w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_092643.jpg?resize=169%2C300&amp;ssl=1 169w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/20160914_092643.jpg?w=581&amp;ssl=1 581w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 576px) 100vw, 576px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Tar en minnesbild innan K\u00f6pingen tar vid p\u00e5 allvar. Snickargl\u00e4dje och balkongs\u00e4kring att minnas. Ja och sen \u00f6ver \u00f6verg\u00e5ngsst\u00e4llet. In p\u00e5 Coop. Vill ha ett wienerbr\u00f6d. Best\u00e4ller det. Men det jag trodde var ett wienerbr\u00f6d \u00e4r n\u00e5got annat. En fl\u00e4ta av n\u00e5got slag. Men det g\u00e5r bra. Kaffe till. T\u00e4nker Cappuccino. Men trycker tydligen p\u00e5 fel knapp f\u00f6r jag f\u00e5r n\u00e5gon slags chokladkaffedryck. Men det fungerar det ocks\u00e5. Allt fungerar. Jag gillar \u00f6verraskningar. Hatar dem inte. Nej. Livet f\u00e5r g\u00e4rna g\u00f6ra lite krumbukter. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan det \u00e4r s\u00e5 noga. I litet som i stort.<\/p>\n<p>Ja och gubbg\u00e4nget \u00e4r d\u00e4r. Jag har ju suttit h\u00e4r n\u00e5gra g\u00e5nger nu. De har alltid suttit d\u00e4r vid samma bord. \u00c5tta pension\u00e4rer och en ung man med l\u00e5ngt h\u00e5r och en blick som fastnat i fj\u00e4rran. Sj\u00e4lv s\u00e4tter jag mig l\u00e4ngst in. Kollegieblock, penna och en bok om LUA. Dyker ner i mitt och tuggar fl\u00e4ta. Sk\u00f6ljer ner med s\u00f6tt chokladkaffe. Konstig kombination. Men som sagt, det som sticker ut&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Efter en stund g\u00e5r det s\u00e5klart inte att l\u00e5ta bli att lyssna p\u00e5 gubbarna. Jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r att de sitter h\u00e4r varje dag. De pratar om det.\u00a0 Det m\u00e5ste bli tre timmar eller mer. Varje morgon. De har l\u00e4rt k\u00e4nna varandra. Klyschorna avl\u00f6ser varandra. &#8220;Negrer&#8221; \u00e4r si. Ryskor \u00e4r s\u00e5. Thail\u00e4ndskor k\u00e5ta. Han som tog \u00f6ver bilverkstaden en tjuv. Brandmannen i Bolln\u00e4s \u00e4r d\u00f6d. Fast jag s\u00e5g honom f\u00f6rra g\u00e5ngen jag var dit. Od\u00f6d d\u00e5. Men h\u00e4r d\u00f6d. Stend\u00f6d-\u00a0 Delsbostintan g\u00e5r det d\u00e5ligt f\u00f6r. Jag blir tvungen att kika upp p\u00e5 telefonen. Kolla. Japp f\u00f6rlust. Kanske investerar man h\u00e5rt? Dragon gate \u00e4r galenskap. Kanske har de r\u00e4tt d\u00e4r? Kanske har de r\u00e4tt om mer saker? Vad vet jag? En av m\u00e4nnen skall b\u00f6rja sin str\u00e5lbehandling n\u00e4sta vecka i G\u00e4vle. Patienthotell. Flera veckor. L\u00e5ter helt lugn.\u00a0 Beundrar honom f\u00f6r det. Prostatacancer? Annan cancer? Det skojas lite om d\u00f6den d\u00e4r bland gubbarna. Men sen blir \u00e4mnet\u00a0 bilar. Flera har tydligen Amerikanare. Gamla bilar som kr\u00e5nglar. Nya bilar som kr\u00e5nglar. Man var i Lobon\u00e4s i l\u00f6rdags och s\u00e5g en gammal bil man s\u00e5lt. K\u00e4rt \u00e5terseende.\u00a0 Ja och man vet allt om v\u00e4rlden, vet saker med s\u00e4kerhet, och jag avundas dem alla f\u00f6r att de g\u00f6r det. Jag skulle vara tacksam f\u00f6r en enda dag i mitt liv med deras \u00f6vertygelse om sakernas tillst\u00e5nd.<\/p>\n<p>Ja mellan lyssningarna skriver jag ner lite saker i mitt block. Jag g\u00f6r ofta s\u00e5. Tankef\u00f6rtydliganden. Jag l\u00e4ser det s\u00e4llan igen. Det bara hj\u00e4lper mig att klarna i huvudet.<\/p>\n<p>Efter tv\u00e5 timmar avl\u00e4gsnar jag mig. Gubbarna sitter kvar. Jag handlar det som skall handlas. Har inte f\u00e5tt SMS fr\u00e5n K. T\u00e4nker allts\u00e5 tre timmar. Vandrar runt och v\u00e4ntar en halvtimme p\u00e5 parkeringen. K syns inte. Hoppas in i bilen och k\u00f6r runt en halvtimme. Ingen K. Men ett arv till sen s\u00e5 st\u00e5r hon d\u00e4r. Vill hem. Vill jobba. S\u00e5 vi far hem. F\u00f6r jag vill ocks\u00e5 jobba. M\u00e5ste jobba om det h\u00e4r skall r\u00e4knas som en full dag.<\/p>\n<p>Imorgon Hudiksvall. Axel. Jag skall klaga. F\u00f6r jag har ont. G\u00e5r det g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got? M\u00e5ste man g\u00e5 och ha ont?\u00a0 Vore roligt om man kunde h\u00e5lla i en hammare igen. V\u00e4xla med en hand i bilen. Ja, eller ligga p\u00e5 h\u00f6ger sida. Favoritsidan.\u00a0 Utan Oxy&#8230; tabletter allts\u00e5. S\u00e5dana jag inte l\u00f6ser ut och inte vill ha. 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