{"id":20812,"date":"2016-06-24T14:14:05","date_gmt":"2016-06-24T13:14:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20812"},"modified":"2016-06-24T14:14:05","modified_gmt":"2016-06-24T13:14:05","slug":"midsommarafton","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20812","title":{"rendered":"Midsommarafton"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"koltrast.6-e1447228268180\"<\/p>\n

Midsommarafton. Man smakar p\u00e5 det. Koltrasten ger hals. Pavarotti. En annan koltrast st\u00e4mmer in i s\u00e5ngen en bit bort, men tystnar snart. Kullens kung, han som nu \u00e4r Pavarotti, vinner. Deras strider \u00e4r inte mina strider. Jag \u00e4r mottagaren. Sitter d\u00e4r och njuter. Tar in och kan inte f\u00e5 nog.<\/p>\n

Koltrasten f\u00f6rsvann en stund i \u00e5r. N\u00e5n vecka. H\u00f6rdes tidigt och f\u00f6rsvann igen. Tills ig\u00e5r faktiskt. Tillbaka med full kraft. Tack s\u00e4ger jag med\/av hela mitt hj\u00e4rta.<\/p>\n

Det \u00e4r lugnet som bor h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen denna midsommar. Lite god mat och sova lite l\u00e4ngre. Det \u00e4r det som g\u00e4ller. Jag tr\u00f6tt, in i sj\u00e4len tr\u00f6tt, fast jag la mig vid tio ig\u00e5r och somnade en kvart efter\u00e5t. Hj\u00e4lper inte. Jag testar att ta temperaturen, men den \u00e4r som den brukar, strax under 37, som vanligt, men n\u00e5got rumlar om d\u00e4r inne i gammelkroppen. N\u00e5got som beh\u00f6ver en del av min energi. Mycket av den.\u00a0 Heja, heja f\u00e5r man passa p\u00e5 att s\u00e4ga \u00e5t sina stolta krigare. Immunf\u00f6rsvaret. Hur m\u00e5nga priser har inte det att h\u00e4mta fr\u00e5n dignande prisbord. Man hoppas p\u00e5 vinst f\u00f6r mitt g\u00e4ng denna g\u00e5ng ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n

V\u00e4nnerna firar tillsammans. Titusenfyrahundrafemtio bilder p\u00e5 fejjan. Man gillar. En och annan. Eller “likear” eller n\u00e5tt. Tr\u00f6ttnar efter en stund. St\u00e4nger ner.<\/p>\n

Imorgon kommer sonen hem med flickv\u00e4n. Roligt s\u00e5klart De stannar ett tag. L\u00e5ter sig bitas s\u00f6nder av knotten. \u00c4r inte r\u00e4dda f\u00f6r s\u00e5 sm\u00e5 varelser alls. Fast de kommer fr\u00e5n den bl\u00e5siga Uppsalasl\u00e4tten. \u00c4r dess barn.<\/p>\n

Sj\u00e4lv skall jag g\u00e5 upp och sl\u00e4nga mig en stund p\u00e5 soffan med min bok. Antar att jag somnar efter en stund. Som brukligt. Men denna midsommarafton kan jag icke annat g\u00f6ra. Det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r. Jag \u00e4r som jag \u00e4r. Bara en till gammal gubbe i v\u00e4rlden.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Midsommarafton. Man smakar p\u00e5 det. Koltrasten ger hals. Pavarotti. En annan koltrast st\u00e4mmer in i s\u00e5ngen en bit bort, men tystnar snart. Kullens kung, han som nu \u00e4r Pavarotti, vinner. Deras strider \u00e4r inte mina strider. Jag \u00e4r mottagaren. Sitter d\u00e4r och njuter. Tar in och kan inte f\u00e5 nog. Koltrasten f\u00f6rsvann en stund i […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20812","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":16523,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16523","url_meta":{"origin":20812,"position":0},"title":"Koltrastkr\u00f6nika","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-02-14","format":false,"excerpt":"Vi har haft en koltrast i m\u00e5nga \u00e5r h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen d\u00e4r vi bor. 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