{"id":20685,"date":"2016-06-15T12:52:50","date_gmt":"2016-06-15T11:52:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20685"},"modified":"2016-06-15T12:57:46","modified_gmt":"2016-06-15T11:57:46","slug":"om-det-har-ar-en-bra-dag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20685","title":{"rendered":"Om det h\u00e4r \u00e4r en bra dag…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Jod\u00e5, det fanns en tid n\u00e4r jag ville bli rockstj\u00e4rna. “Se mig” skrek allt inom mig. Ja och det fanns en tid n\u00e4r jag som den fysiker jag \u00e4r ville ha Nobelpris och bli ber\u00f6md f\u00f6r min g\u00e4rning. Som beviset p\u00e5 mitt v\u00e4rde. Bara det. Men s\u00e5 gick \u00e5ren och man f\u00f6r\u00e4ndrades s\u00e5 sakteliga. Allt det d\u00e4r folk s\u00e4ger och tycker om en betyder inte s\u00e5 mycket l\u00e4ngre. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r n\u00e5r man en punkt d\u00e4r man inser att det d\u00e4r “se mig” egentligen \u00e4r det sista man \u00f6nskar sig. Man kan till och med t\u00e4nkas sig att betala f\u00f6r att f\u00e5r bli osedd och f\u00f6r att bli l\u00e4mnad i fred.<\/p>\n

Ja jag sitter ute i tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rden och \u00e4ter min lunch under ett blommande \u00e4ppeltr\u00e4d och t\u00e4nker s\u00e5d\u00e4r. Jag kan n\u00e4mligen inte ha det b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n jag har det d\u00e4r. Maten smakar bra, kaffet likas\u00e5, det \u00e4r soligt varmt och sk\u00f6nt under det rikligt blommande \u00e4ppeltr\u00e4det som sl\u00e4pper sina brudkl\u00e4nningsvita kronblad i mitt h\u00e5r n\u00e4r bl\u00e5sten virvlar till i dess krona. Nej fan. Jag har inga stora summor p\u00e5 mitt konto, bokslutet f\u00f6r f\u00f6retaget \u00e4r precis klart och visar p\u00e5 minus 67000, bilen \u00e4r gammal, huset \u00e4r i stort behov av renovering, de flesta kl\u00e4der jag \u00e4ger har minst ett h\u00e5l. Ja det skulle allts\u00e5 g\u00e5 att klaga. Ja till och med deppa. Om man nu var av den sorten.<\/p>\n

Men de r\u00f6da siffrorna \u00e4r ingen \u00f6verraskning. Uppfinnare tj\u00e4nar s\u00e4llan pengar. Jag g\u00f6r \u00e4nd\u00e5 det jag g\u00f6r och kan forts\u00e4tta att g\u00f6ra det. En tr\u00f6ja med h\u00e5l i g\u00e5r att b\u00e4ra \u00e4nd\u00e5. Jag tr\u00e4ffar s\u00e4llan n\u00e5gon och g\u00f6r jag det bryr de sig inte om s\u00e5dana bagateller. Ja g\u00f6r de det s\u00e5 g\u00e5r de bort ur mitt liv\u00a0 i alla fall. Bilen tar mig fortfarande mellan a och b, f\u00f6r det mesta. Ja och s\u00e5 vidare. Livet \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 pj\u00e5kigt. Jag kan sitter d\u00e4r under \u00e4ppeltr\u00e4det och m\u00e5 bra helt enkelt. Ok\u00e4nd, oupph\u00f6jd, men oftast lyckligare i hj\u00e4rtat \u00e4n man egentligen f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar. Att g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got man tror p\u00e5. Ja att tro p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e5 starkt att man g\u00f6r det. Det kan vara en bel\u00f6ning i sig. Att inse det kommer som bonus till det.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 resonerar jag d\u00e4r under \u00e4ppeltr\u00e4det. Om sis\u00e5d\u00e4r tio \u00e5r, som sjuttio\u00e5ring, om man lever, vill jag kanske bli rockstj\u00e4rna igen. S\u00e5nt d\u00e4r vet man aldrig. Man f\u00f6r\u00e4ndras allts\u00e5. “Se mig” igen.\u00a0 Den andra sanningen att h\u00e5lla sig fast vid j\u00e4mte j\u00e4mvikten. Men vi tar det d\u00e5.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jod\u00e5, det fanns en tid n\u00e4r jag ville bli rockstj\u00e4rna. “Se mig” skrek allt inom mig. Ja och det fanns en tid n\u00e4r jag som den fysiker jag \u00e4r ville ha Nobelpris och bli ber\u00f6md f\u00f6r min g\u00e4rning. Som beviset p\u00e5 mitt v\u00e4rde. Bara det. Men s\u00e5 gick \u00e5ren och man f\u00f6r\u00e4ndrades s\u00e5 sakteliga. 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