{"id":20627,"date":"2016-06-03T08:15:24","date_gmt":"2016-06-03T07:15:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20627"},"modified":"2016-06-03T08:19:56","modified_gmt":"2016-06-03T07:19:56","slug":"jag-dansar-inte","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20627","title":{"rendered":"“Jag dansar inte”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\n“Jag dansar inte” Jag brukar s\u00e4ga s\u00e5 n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon fr\u00e5gar. Jod\u00e5 det h\u00e4nde(r) faktiskt ibland. Att oerh\u00f6rt vackra kvinnor fr\u00e5ga(r\/t). Jag har nobbat dem alla.<\/p>\n

\u00c4nd\u00e5 dansade jag en g\u00e5ng. Det var inte av fri vilja dock Det fattades danspartners p\u00e5 en gammeldanskurs och st\u00e4llde vi inte upp s\u00e5 blev vi av med replokalen. Motvilliga musiker som antagligen aldrig haft det roligare \u00e4n s\u00e5. F\u00f6r kul var det. S\u00e5 minns jag det.
\n“Musiker dansar inte”. Ingen jag k\u00e4nner i alla fall. Det m\u00e5ste s\u00e5klart finnas undantag. Sj\u00e4lv tycker jag nog jag kan det d\u00e4r med takt och rytm, men n\u00e4r kroppen ocks\u00e5 skall uttrycka den s\u00e5 blir det liksom fel. K\u00e4nns fel. Ja det k\u00e4nns s\u00e5 oerh\u00f6rt f\u00e5nigt alltihop f\u00f6r jag ser det fr\u00e5n en position uppifr\u00e5n taket ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att ge mig h\u00e4n och d\u00e4r \u00e4r nog hela problemet.<\/p>\n

Skall man dansa s\u00e5 skall man vara n\u00e4rvarande. Som att \u00e4lska ungef\u00e4r. Min teori bara s\u00e5klart, jag som inte vet ett skit om dans men som \u00e4r en gubbe som g\u00e4rna tror och tycker om saken \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n

Men jag \u00e4r oerh\u00f6rt avundsjuk p\u00e5 alla dem som ger sig h\u00e4n i dansen. Som uttrycker saker med sina kroppar. Ja jag kan titta p\u00e5 bra dans med stor gl\u00e4dje och f\u00e5r n\u00e4stan alltid st\u00e5p\u00e4ls. Hoppen som \u00e4r fj\u00e4derl\u00e4tta, liksom tyngdl\u00f6sa, synkroniciteten, eller bara en vacker f\u00f6ljsam r\u00f6relse som liksom f\u00f6rtrollar. Ja jag kan inte f\u00e5 nog av det d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n

Men jag dansar inte.<\/p>\n

Fast jag tror. F\u00f6r m\u00e4nniskor som f\u00f6rlorat sin sj\u00e4lvrespekt. Och alla oss andra som har lite kvar men gott kan skaffa lite mer. Att dansen \u00e4r v\u00e4gen tillbaks. Fram\u00e5t, Kan man ge sig h\u00e4n i dansen s\u00e5 kan man ge sig h\u00e4n i livet. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r skulle det vara f\u00f6rbjudet med s\u00e5dan som mig. Som s\u00e4ger, “jag dansar inte”. Vi skulle tv\u00e5ngsutbildas i jazzdans, pardans och hambo minuterna efter att vi uttryckt det d\u00e4r. Tills vi t\u00f6rs sl\u00e4ppa loss v\u00e5ra kroppar i febrig, hypnotisk dans. Den vi vaknar upp ur med ett “vad h\u00e4nde?”. Den vi utf\u00f6rde med h\u00e4nf\u00f6relse utan en endaste tanke om varf\u00f6r eller hur. Meditation med kroppen. Vi skulle bli lyckligare s\u00e5. S\u00e4ga ja ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r nej n\u00e4sta g\u00e5ng n\u00e5gon fr\u00e5gar “vill du dansa?”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“Jag dansar inte” Jag brukar s\u00e4ga s\u00e5 n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon fr\u00e5gar. Jod\u00e5 det h\u00e4nde(r) faktiskt ibland. Att oerh\u00f6rt vackra kvinnor fr\u00e5ga(r\/t). Jag har nobbat dem alla. \u00c4nd\u00e5 dansade jag en g\u00e5ng. Det var inte av fri vilja dock Det fattades danspartners p\u00e5 en gammeldanskurs och st\u00e4llde vi inte upp s\u00e5 blev vi av med replokalen. Motvilliga […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20627","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":39031,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39031","url_meta":{"origin":20627,"position":0},"title":"En sista tango med brorsan","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2021-06-04","format":false,"excerpt":"Mustasch hj\u00e4lper mig igenom den sista timmen h\u00e4r p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. 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