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Regnet det bara \u00f6ser ner. “Varning f\u00f6r stora m\u00e4ngder regn” skriker de lokala rubrikerna ut. H\u00e4lften av det passerar v\u00e5r k\u00e4llare i sin v\u00e4g ned f\u00f6r kullen. Det finns behov av dr\u00e4nering och det behovet har s\u00e4kert funnits tjugo \u00e5r innan vi flyttade hit.<\/p>\n
Det \u00e4r alltid kris, varning, stora ord f\u00f6r allt som h\u00e4nder nu f\u00f6r tiden. Det regnade f\u00f6rut ocks\u00e5, och stormade men krigsrubrikerna kom m\u00f6jligen efter\u00e5t. Inte en dag f\u00f6re som nu f\u00f6r tiden. Dramaturgi till\u00e4mpas p\u00e5 livet. Allt g\u00f6rs f\u00f6r att vi inte skall leva i nuet. K\u00e4nslorna f\u00f6r “ingenting” blir de starkaste. N\u00e4r saker och ting verkligen h\u00e4nder \u00e4r folk som vilken valiumfullproppad zombie som helst. Upplevelsen klarades av f\u00f6re. Klimax var ig\u00e5r. Det var liksom inte ens i n\u00e4rheten av vad som utlovades, d\u00e5, innan, med st\u00f6rsta font och litervis med ink.<\/p>\n
Jag skiter oftast i det d\u00e4r. Men \u00e5ker dit ibland som alla andra. S\u00e5kart. Vi \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 ganska samma och lika. Till och med jag \u00e4r n\u00e5gorlunda m\u00e4nsklig. En idiot men m\u00e4nniska.<\/p>\n
H\u00e4r skall det st\u00e4das idag. Jod\u00e5 det fungerar. I alla fall om alternativet \u00e4r att avst\u00e4mma b\u00f6cker. Det jag borde ha gjort klart ig\u00e5r. Hade s\u00e5klart gjort klart ig\u00e5r om jag anstr\u00e4ngt mig det minsta lilla och inte letat andra saker som “m\u00e5ste” fixas.\u00a0 Inte bra. Men vanligt n\u00e4r det g\u00e4ller de tr\u00e5kigaste sakerna.<\/p>\n
Fem grader ute. Och regn allts\u00e5. Finv\u00e4der p\u00e5 m\u00e5ndag utlovas. Vi h\u00e5ller ut. Det \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 tio ggr varmare i \u00e5r \u00e4n under f\u00f6rra v\u00e5ren. Kallv\u00e5ren. Men den har alla gl\u00f6mt. Jag \u00e4r glad att jag han klippa gr\u00e4set. Innan. Ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r efter.<\/p>\n
Tekopp bredvid mig. Modell mindre. Handlar om rutiner och n\u00e5gon slags mysfaktor. Det \u00e4r konstigt hur man kan hamna i st\u00e4mning av en kopp te p\u00e5 morgonen, ja, eller den d\u00e4r kaffekoppen efter lunch. Min \u00e4ldste son hinkar kaffe. Litervis. Som jag gjorde f\u00f6rr. Fr\u00e5n morgon till kv\u00e4ll. Matematiken kr\u00e4ver det. Koncentration. Sv\u00e5rt.\u00a0 Precis som min kod gjorde f\u00f6rr. L\u00e4ttare dock. Landet och vetenskapen \u00e4r byggt p\u00e5 miljarder svalda munnar med bittert kaffe. Sverige. Kaffe\u00e4lskarlandet. S\u00e5 jag dricker te.<\/p>\n
F\u00e5r lite grejer fr\u00e5n en kille i Stockholm. Snygg 3D utskriven l\u00e5da. Proffsigt. Men kunskap, resurser och r\u00e4tt folk omkring sig kan man skapa underverk. S\u00e5 det kan inte jag. Har bara kunskap. H\u00e4r \u00e4r den inget v\u00e4rd.<\/p>\n
“Det spelar ingen roll om det funkar bara det skapar rubriker” sa n\u00e5gon. Jag k\u00f6per inte det d\u00e4r. Den kortvariga roffa-\u00e5t-sig modellen. Det riktiga vinner i l\u00e4ngden. S\u00e4llan dock de som jobbar med det riktiga. Bel\u00f6ningarna \u00e4r ofta postuma.\u00a0 Sj\u00e4lv har jag inga problem med det.<\/p>\n
Ibland kan man inte d\u00f6 f\u00f6r att de levande beh\u00f6ver en.<\/p>\n
En klunk te. Laddar. Dammsugarladdar. Kroppen. Psyket. Man f\u00e5r st\u00e4nga av f\u00f6r att g\u00f6ra det monotona, vanliga. Inte fundera s\u00e5 mycket. G\u00f6ra. Spotify, h\u00f6rlurar och sen g\u00e5r det som en dans. Ja, det g\u00e5r. Inte kul, men \u00f6verlevnadsbart.\u00a0 T\u00e4nker man efter, ser tillbaks, \u00e4r det mycket i livet som legat d\u00e4r p\u00e5 den niv\u00e5n. Ja jag tror det \u00e4r s\u00e5 i de flesta liv. Ja stj\u00e4rnornas ocks\u00e5. Det \u00e4r j\u00e4vligt lite glamour. Totalt sett.<\/p>\n
Fast d\u00e5 s\u00e5. Dags att g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got. S\u00e4tta fart. Klara av. Om det skall bli gjort, bli klart, avslutas.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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