{"id":20327,"date":"2016-05-08T19:51:46","date_gmt":"2016-05-08T18:51:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20327"},"modified":"2016-05-08T19:51:46","modified_gmt":"2016-05-08T18:51:46","slug":"de-ser-inte","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20327","title":{"rendered":"De ser inte"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"natur7\"<\/p>\n

En till dag ute i det fria som en fri man. Besk\u00e4rning av \u00e4ppeltr\u00e4d. En rolig syssla. Lite som att klippa h\u00e5r fast grenar ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r h\u00e5rstr\u00e5n d\u00e5 ist\u00e4llet. Resultatet \u00e4r \u00f6verv\u00e4ldigande. Tr\u00e4d som klipps ner blir st\u00f6rre, ja det \u00e4r egentligen underligt, och f\u00e5r mer frukt, vilket d\u00e4remot kanske inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 underligt.<\/p>\n

Stekhett idag. Brunbr\u00e4nd. D vitaminiserad. En sk\u00f6n dag.<\/p>\n

Nu sitter jag h\u00e4r inne p\u00e5 kontoret. Min vecka har startat eller startar i alla fall g\u00f6r den det om en stund. Fr\u00e5n det verkliga in i det konstgjorda och halv\/icke verkliga. Men det skall g\u00f6ras. Det skall fixas. M\u00e5let \u00e4r nirvana allts\u00e5 “klart”. Men efter en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r helg skulle man kunna t\u00e4nka sig att ge fan i det h\u00e4r knappandet.\u00a0 Men kan jag det!?<\/p>\n

Vitsippor. Bl\u00e5sippor. Bj\u00f6rkar p\u00e5 v\u00e4g att sl\u00e5 ut. Allt p\u00e5 samma g\u00e5ng. Som en explosion. Man h\u00e4pnar. Jag h\u00e4pnar. Kan inte annat.<\/p>\n

M\u00e5ste fram med motors\u00e5g. Kapa upp. Men har bara en trehundrakronors elvariant. En som inte m\u00e4ktar med s\u00e5 mycket. Det g\u00f6r iof inte jag heller. Axel v\u00e4rker efter en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r dag. Som om den inte gjorde det annars.\u00a0 Fast jag mest anv\u00e4nde v\u00e4nstern och l\u00e5ter h\u00f6gern dinglande h\u00e4nga med. Konstaterar bara. Att det g\u00f6r ont. Alltid numera. N\u00e5gonstans. Men fallna tr\u00e4d m\u00e5ste bort. Helst skulle det r\u00f6jas ocks\u00e5. Nu i det f\u00f6nster som finns f\u00f6r s\u00e5dant.<\/p>\n

Men det blir v\u00e4l fler \u00e5r f\u00f6r s\u00e5dant. Man m\u00e5ste t\u00e4nks s\u00e5. Om man \u00e4r som mig. Det f\u00e5r bli ett annat \u00e5r. I alla fall tills man st\u00e5r d\u00e4r och inser att det inte blir fler. D\u00e5 kan jag ge mig. Sluta tro att det skall h\u00e4nda. Att det skall bli av. D\u00e5 f\u00f6rst ger jag mig. Tro inte att allt det d\u00e4r som \u00e4r kvar att g\u00f6ra kommer att g\u00f6ras. Att andra f\u00e5r ta \u00f6ver.<\/p>\n

Men enkeltid och enkelliv nu. I alla fall enklare. Hulken vilar och bidar sin tid. Han har inget val. Ingen pellets fylls p\u00e5. F\u00e5ngad. Inl\u00e5st. Marginalliserad. Men det blir s\u00e5klart\u00a0 kalla perioder under maj ocks\u00e5. Som det alltid blir. Maj \u00e4r som livet. Upp och ner. Det finns n\u00e5got ocks\u00e5 i de sm\u00e5 sakerna. Om man orkar titta efter dem. Men man blir s\u00e5klart s\u00e5 tillpoffade av de stora. Som dagar som den h\u00e4r.<\/p>\n

Fler och fler f\u00e5r tydligen sina nyheter fr\u00e5n Facebook, Instagram, Twitter och andra social media idag. Skr\u00e4mmer mig till vanvett. En h\u00f6g med kattungegullem\u00e4nniskor. Kortmeningsfolket. De som inte orkar ta sig bakom de braskande rubrikerna l\u00e4ngre. Finstiltblinda. St\u00e4ndigt uppr\u00f6rda, men bara under fem minuter \u00e5t g\u00e5ngen. Avklarat och gl\u00f6mt\u00a0 med en “like” eller ett hj\u00e4rta. HJ\u00c4\u00c4\u00c4\u00c4\u00c4\u00c4\u00c4LP. N\u00e4r g\u00e5r n\u00e4sta resa bort.<\/p>\n

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En till dag ute i det fria som en fri man. Besk\u00e4rning av \u00e4ppeltr\u00e4d. En rolig syssla. Lite som att klippa h\u00e5r fast grenar ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r h\u00e5rstr\u00e5n d\u00e5 ist\u00e4llet. Resultatet \u00e4r \u00f6verv\u00e4ldigande. Tr\u00e4d som klipps ner blir st\u00f6rre, ja det \u00e4r egentligen underligt, och f\u00e5r mer frukt, vilket d\u00e4remot kanske inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 underligt. 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