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En liten stund identifierar jag mig med sonen som spelar i bandet, som protesterar mot Vietnamkriget. Ja det \u00e4r i kv\u00e4llens film . Man k\u00e4nner sig n\u00e4ra den d\u00e4r sonen men s\u00e5 sv\u00e4nger det och f\u00f6r f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen i livet ramlar jag \u00f6ver till den \u00e5ldrande pappan. Pension\u00e4ren. Han som d\u00f6r p\u00e5 slutet. Ja j\u00e4vlar. Vad \u00e4r det h\u00e4r. Fas 4 eller fas 5 i livet. En ny del b\u00f6rjar ikv\u00e4ll. Dom finner varandra sonen och fadern. Jag vet ju s\u00e5 v\u00e4l att just det h\u00e4nder bra p\u00e5 film. I verkligheten blir det viktigaste osagt. De levande p\u00e5 en sida med ord som borde ha sagts och de d\u00f6da p\u00e5 en sida med andra ord som borde sagts.<\/p>\n

Det skakar om mig det d\u00e4r. Ja det g\u00f6r det. Fast det g\u00f6r s\u00e5klart inte s\u00e5 mycket. Snart sextio och det \u00e4r som det skall vara. Det finns allt f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga m\u00e4n i min \u00e5lder som m\u00e5ste bevisa att de fortfarande \u00e4r med, att de \u00e4r att r\u00e4kna med, ja kvinnor i femtio\u00e5rs\u00e5ldern blir ji p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt. En sista chans att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka dra blickar till sig. Det d\u00e4r desperata sista som k\u00e4nns s\u00e5 patetiskt n\u00e4r man ser det utifr\u00e5n.<\/p>\n

Klockan \u00e4r bara tio. L\u00e4gger mig nog. Bok finns att l\u00e4sa. En som b\u00f6rjade s\u00f6tsliskigt romantiskt, det \u00e4r en konst att skriva romantik, men som har tagit sig. Av Jojjo Moys. Ja den f\u00e5r duga. Vi l\u00e4gger oss alltid tidigare p\u00e5 veckorna \u00e4n p\u00e5 helgerna. Bakl\u00e4nges och tv\u00e4rt om. Gammelbeteende det ocks\u00e5. Antar jag. Konstaterar jag.<\/p>\n

En vacker r\u00e4v \u00e4ter \u00e4pple under f\u00e5gelmataren. Jonas, Karin och Niklas ser. Jag f\u00e5r se den nu p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen. Vacker. Perfekt. Jag \u00e4r glad att jag lever h\u00e4r och f\u00e5r se dessa vackra djur. En annan r\u00e4v som d\u00f6dade alla v\u00e5ra h\u00f6ns l\u00e5g inte lika bra till. Men det k\u00e4nns som det var i en annan tid. F\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan. Under romartiden.<\/p>\n

\u00c4hhhh jag l\u00e4gger mig. N\u00e5gra kapitel borde man hinna med. Ja innan tr\u00f6tthet drar med en ner i oceaner av dr\u00f6mmar.\u00a0 Josefin begravdes idag.\u00a0 V\u00e4rlden \u00e4r fattigare.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

En liten stund identifierar jag mig med sonen som spelar i bandet, som protesterar mot Vietnamkriget. Ja det \u00e4r i kv\u00e4llens film . Man k\u00e4nner sig n\u00e4ra den d\u00e4r sonen men s\u00e5 sv\u00e4nger det och f\u00f6r f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen i livet ramlar jag \u00f6ver till den \u00e5ldrande pappan. Pension\u00e4ren. Han som d\u00f6r p\u00e5 slutet. Ja j\u00e4vlar. 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