{"id":19614,"date":"2016-02-07T17:29:19","date_gmt":"2016-02-07T16:29:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19614"},"modified":"2016-02-07T17:29:19","modified_gmt":"2016-02-07T16:29:19","slug":"langtan-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19614","title":{"rendered":"L\u00e4ngtan"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2016-02-07_13-16-31\"<\/p>\n

Jag r\u00e5kar springa f\u00f6rbi min dator p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdagen n\u00e4r jag \u00e4r ledig. Ja LEDIG. Ja sk\u00f6nt ledig. P\u00e5 sk\u00e4rmen det projekt jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. Vacker kod. Tycker jag. kanske ingen annan. Skiter i det. En l\u00e4ngtan inom mig suger till. Vill krypa in i det d\u00e4r. Forts\u00e4tta. Finnas d\u00e4r. F\u00e5 det att fungera. Just det h\u00e4r \u00e4r l\u00f6sa tr\u00e5dar \u00e4n s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge. Andras kod som jag skriver om. Den fungerar inte. Ser hemsk ut. Som fulla stinkande slaskhinkar. Jag M\u00c5STE skriva om. Fast det tar ett g\u00e4ng dagar jag egentligen inte har. Kan inte acceptera den d\u00e4r skiten \u00e4ven om det hade g\u00e5tt att f\u00e5 den att fungera. Det skall inte fungera. Det skall vara s\u00e5 vackert som m\u00f6jligt det man \u00e5stadkommit ocks\u00e5. Yrkesstolthet. Hellre ta en sv\u00e5r l\u00e5ngsam v\u00e4g men en riktig v\u00e4g \u00e4n en snabb v\u00e4g. ALLTID. Utan undantag.<\/p>\n

Ute tv\u00e5 och en halv grad. Varmt. Minus 1.3 under sn\u00f6n. Jod\u00e5. Trycket 988 millibar. Inne 21 grader. Jag fryser s\u00e5klart. En fryslort p\u00e5 v\u00e4g mot v\u00e5ren.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 s\u00f6ndag idag allts\u00e5. Jag \u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g in i den d\u00e4r koden. Men en dag ledig plus en fredagskv\u00e4ll fyller min mailbox. Det tar n\u00e5gra timmar att svara p\u00e5 allt. Det tr\u00e5kiga f\u00f6rst och det roliga sen. Jag jobbar alltid s\u00e5. ALLTID. Fast det \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 tr\u00e5kigt att svara p\u00e5 mail heller. Faktiskt. Gillar m\u00e4nniskor men flyr dem. Det kan inte hj\u00e4lpas. Jag m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ra det jag m\u00e5ste.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag r\u00e5kar springa f\u00f6rbi min dator p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdagen n\u00e4r jag \u00e4r ledig. Ja LEDIG. Ja sk\u00f6nt ledig. P\u00e5 sk\u00e4rmen det projekt jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. Vacker kod. Tycker jag. kanske ingen annan. Skiter i det. En l\u00e4ngtan inom mig suger till. Vill krypa in i det d\u00e4r. Forts\u00e4tta. Finnas d\u00e4r. F\u00e5 det att fungera. 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