Julen har forsat iv\u00c3\u00a4g med sedvanlig fart. Man hinner knappt med.<\/p>\n
\u00c3\u2026ret forts\u00c3\u00a4tter i sjukdomens tecken. Hela familjen utom \u00c3\u00a4ldste sonen blev sjuka i magsjuka p\u00c3\u00a5 juldagsnatten. Vi delade p\u00c3\u00a5 toalettbes\u00c3\u00b6ken i tre sagar. Hade knappt h\u00c3\u00a4mtat mig f\u00c3\u00b6rr\u00c3\u00a4n jag fick ryggskott och nu linkar man fram och klagar \u00c3\u00b6ver det. Har l\u00c3\u00a4rt mig uppskatta detta med att vara frisk det h\u00c3\u00a4r \u00c3\u00a5ret i alla fall…<\/p>\n
Magsjukan h\u00c3\u00a4rledde vi till min mor som tydligen varit d\u00c3\u00a5lig veckan f\u00c3\u00b6re jul. Min mor sjunker djupare och djupare in i sin demens och f\u00c3\u00b6rsvinner ifr\u00c3\u00a5n oss och saker som h\u00c3\u00a4nt dagen innan finns inte med i hennes medvetande. Ibland undrar man om det \u00c3\u00a4r l\u00c3\u00b6nt att ta med henne p\u00c3\u00a5 de bilturer som hon tycker s\u00c3\u00a5 mycket om eller ta upp henne hit. Hons minns ju inte att hon ens tr\u00c3\u00a4ffat mig\/oss n\u00c3\u00a5gra timmar efter att det har h\u00c3\u00a4nt. Innerst inne tror jag \u00c3\u00a4nd\u00c3\u00a5 att det n\u00c3\u00a5gonstans fastnar som en litet “m\u00c3\u00a5r bra” fragment i en hj\u00c3\u00a4rna som annars inte fungerar. Det \u00c3\u00a4r i alla fall otroligt sorgligt.<\/p>\n
Det \u00c3\u00a4r ett tag sedan hon kunde ligga kvar h\u00c3\u00a4r eftersom hon blir s\u00c3\u00a5 orolig p\u00c3\u00a5 n\u00c3\u00a4tterna n\u00c3\u00a4r hon inte k\u00c3\u00a4nner igen sig. Jag skjutsade d\u00c3\u00a4rf\u00c3\u00b6r hem henne under julaftonkv\u00c3\u00a4llen. Riktigt tr\u00c3\u00b6tt som hon var s\u00c3\u00a5 var hon hela v\u00c3\u00a4gen s\u00c3\u00a4ker p\u00c3\u00a5 att hon \u00c3\u00a5kte taxi och k\u00c3\u00a4nde inte igen mig alls. Om\u00c3\u00b6jligt att \u00c3\u00b6vertala henne att jag var hennes son. S\u00c3\u00a4llsam sjukdom \u00c3\u00a4r det som man hoppas att man skall klara sig ifr\u00c3\u00a5n.<\/p>\n
Best\u00c3\u00a4mde mig ocks\u00c3\u00a5 f\u00c3\u00b6r att i \u00c3\u00a5r inte skicka det vanliga jul emailet. Har ju ganska m\u00c3\u00a5nga kontakter och det blir f\u00c3\u00b6ljdaktligen ganska m\u00c3\u00a5nga h\u00c3\u00a4lsningar tillbaks. I \u00c3\u00a5r t\u00c3\u00a4nkte jag bara p\u00c3\u00a5 skoj se hur m\u00c3\u00a5nga som skulle skicka en h\u00c3\u00a4lsning \u00c3\u00a4nd\u00c3\u00a5. Resultat: fyra stycken.\u00c2 Sorgligt…<\/p>\n
Gott Nytt \u00c3\u2026r Kamrater! (har min Anarkist-Socialistiske son hemma \ud83d\ude09 )!<\/p>\n
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Julen har forsat iv\u00c3\u00a4g med sedvanlig fart. Man hinner knappt med. \u00c3\u2026ret forts\u00c3\u00a4tter i sjukdomens tecken. Hela familjen utom \u00c3\u00a4ldste sonen blev sjuka i magsjuka p\u00c3\u00a5 juldagsnatten. Vi delade p\u00c3\u00a5 toalettbes\u00c3\u00b6ken i tre sagar. Hade knappt h\u00c3\u00a4mtat mig f\u00c3\u00b6rr\u00c3\u00a4n jag fick ryggskott och nu linkar man fram och klagar \u00c3\u00b6ver det. 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