{"id":19248,"date":"2015-12-14T21:18:58","date_gmt":"2015-12-14T20:18:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19248"},"modified":"2015-12-14T21:18:58","modified_gmt":"2015-12-14T20:18:58","slug":"de-vanliga-manniskornas-berattelser-berattas-aldrig","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19248","title":{"rendered":"De vanliga m\u00e4nniskornas ber\u00e4ttelser ber\u00e4ttas aldrig"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Det \u00e4r gott. Livet. Fast dagen kunde s\u00e5klart varit b\u00e4ttre. Det blir inte mycket gjort. Men vissa dagar \u00e4r s\u00e5dana. Jag irriterar mig inte som f\u00f6rr. Tar dom som de kommer. Man f\u00e5r jobba dubbelt n\u00e4sta dag. Ja det brukar bli s\u00e5 av sig sj\u00e4lv. OK, f\u00f6r mig.<\/p>\n

Skeppar iv\u00e4g gitarrf\u00f6rst\u00e4rkaren. Ja, utan egentlig saknad. Den har bara st\u00e5tt h\u00e4r. Upp till Sundsvall far den. F\u00e5r h\u00f6ra idag att det ev. \u00e4r fel p\u00e5 den. Vafan t\u00e4nker man. Oflyt. De d\u00e4r pengarna hade kommit v\u00e4l till pass i jul. Men med ocks\u00e5 det \u00e4r det som det \u00e4r. Livet leker med oss m\u00e4nniskor och eftersom man gett sig in i leken s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man leken t\u00e5la. Men kanske tar dom den \u00e4nd\u00e5. Sundsvallsrockarna.\u00a0 S\u00e4ger dom. Priset \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 r\u00e4tt. Kanske. Man f\u00e5r hoppas.<\/p>\n

Men klockan \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 bara nio \u00e4nnu. Det finns kv\u00e4ll att jobba p\u00e5. Ja nog finns det en inspiration som spritter lite d\u00e4r inuti om jag k\u00e4nner efter. Det beh\u00f6vs s\u00e5 lite. Sen \u00e4r jag ig\u00e5ng. \u00c5 andra sidan beh\u00f6vs det lika lite f\u00f6r att jag skall tappa det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Sen bara sitta d\u00e4r. Stirrandes.<\/p>\n

Avslutar Facebook. Har kvar p\u00e5 f\u00f6retaget. Det k\u00e4nns som en l\u00e4ttnad. Saknar inte svamlet som i allt \u00e4r som det var p\u00e5 h\u00f6gstadiet. \u00c4r f\u00f6rbi det. Ja samma dag jag st\u00e4ngde d\u00f6rren f\u00f6r sista g\u00e5ngen och gick hem. Har aldrig l\u00e4ngtat tillbaks. Men det \u00e4r den stora isoleringen s\u00e5klart. Men utan irritationen. Hellre det. Kanske kryper jag till korset igen, kanske inte. Kommer dock p\u00e5 mig sj\u00e4lv med att prata med mig sj\u00e4lv p\u00e5 lunchen. “Det h\u00e4r var ju gott det h\u00e4r”. F\u00f6rsta dan utan egentlig sociala kopplingar allts\u00e5. \u00c4r redan d\u00e4r.\u00a0 Farligt n\u00e4ra stupet. Det v\u00e4rsta \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 att jag inte ens h\u00e5ller med mig sj\u00e4lv. Jag \u00e4r en obstinat j\u00e4vel. Tr\u00f6ttsam. Till och med f\u00f6r mig sj\u00e4lv. Men vi, jag och jag eller jag^2 har kamperat ihop s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge nu s\u00e5 det fungerar \u00e4nd\u00e5 r\u00e4tt skapligt. Jag kan st\u00e5 ut med de d\u00e4r felen och laterna. Fast f\u00e5r bromsa den andra j\u00e4veln inom mig ibland. som han f\u00e5r putta p\u00e5 mig andra g\u00e5nger.<\/p>\n

Vet inte hur m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger jag h\u00f6rt “skriv en bok”. Som om det skulle vara l\u00f6sningen. Det \u00e4r med det som musik. Det handlar inte om VAD man skriver eller HUR man skriver, det handlar bara om VEM man \u00e4r. Allts\u00e5 skulle det vara helt bortkastat att ge sig i kast med ett s\u00e5dant projekt f\u00f6r en s\u00e5dan som mig. Notch skulle kunna. En misshandlad fru kan ocks\u00e5, N\u00e5gon som har cancer och k\u00e4mpar f\u00f6r sitt liv kan definitivt. Det \u00e4r bara att se sig omkring. Hur m\u00e5nga vanliga m\u00e4nniskors ber\u00e4ttelser ges ut. Nej f\u00f6rs\u00f6k inte ens, kom inte och s\u00e4g att de \u00e4r mindre intressanta. F\u00f6r det \u00e4r de inte. Det \u00e4r i de vanliga liven och i de vanliga h\u00e4ndelserna som det stora finns. Det d\u00e4r blaffiga skymmer bara utsikten f\u00f6r det viktiga. Men det finns inga. Det \u00e4r bara s\u00e5. En dag kanske de kommer att ber\u00e4ttas. Men nu, den tid vi lever i nu, \u00e4r inte tiden f\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n

Men nu pirrar det p\u00e5 riktigt ordentligt i den d\u00e4r koda-skapa-debugga-dokumentera nerven s\u00e5 nu skall jag jobba i mitt anletes svett n\u00e5gra timmar.<\/p>\n

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Det \u00e4r gott. Livet. Fast dagen kunde s\u00e5klart varit b\u00e4ttre. Det blir inte mycket gjort. Men vissa dagar \u00e4r s\u00e5dana. Jag irriterar mig inte som f\u00f6rr. Tar dom som de kommer. Man f\u00e5r jobba dubbelt n\u00e4sta dag. Ja det brukar bli s\u00e5 av sig sj\u00e4lv. OK, f\u00f6r mig. Skeppar iv\u00e4g gitarrf\u00f6rst\u00e4rkaren. Ja, utan egentlig saknad. 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