Ser “Simon och ekarna”.\u00a0 Varf\u00f6r griper vissa filmer tag i en p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r s\u00e4ttet? S\u00e4tter sig som en klump d\u00e4r i halsen. Sitter kvar d\u00e4r. H\u00e5rd. Sugande. Kr\u00e4vande. Ett universum av tomrum i en hals.\u00a0 Men tryck samtidigt. J\u00e4mvikt. Tomrum kr\u00e4ver tryck. N\u00e5r bara n\u00e4stan upp till \u00f6gonen. N\u00e4stan. Ihopsamlad sorg. Ligger kvar d\u00e4r bakom med \u00f6gonlock som en damm som d\u00e4mts upp f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga \u00e5r sedan. Men som l\u00e4mpligt (och manligt nog) har byggts av prima betong och klarar s\u00e5dana en-p\u00e5-hundra-\u00e5r-fl\u00f6den. Kanske \u00e4r det det d\u00e4r att n\u00e5gon uppmuntrar och vill n\u00e4r du vill och som finns d\u00e4r som ett mjukt, mjukt bolster att falla p\u00e5 om vingar inte b\u00e4r, om livet f\u00e5r en att snubbla. Kanske \u00e4r det n\u00e4r du ser n\u00e5gon som v\u00e4gleder dig i musiken och i livet f\u00f6r att du \u00e4r v\u00e4rd det f\u00f6r att man f\u00e5r \u00e4lska musik och g\u00f6ra musik f\u00f6r att v\u00e4rlden vill det fast den d\u00e5 s\u00e4gs “suga”. Kanske \u00e4r det n\u00e5gon som s\u00e4ger att du duger. Fast n\u00e5gon annan f\u00e5r h\u00f6ra det som inte \u00e4r du men som \u00e4r du d\u00e5 f\u00f6r en liten, liten stund. Jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r inte varf\u00f6r men suger \u00e5t mig och \u00e4lskar en film som det h\u00e4r. En bra film. Tyv\u00e4rr har jag inte l\u00e4st boken. Den l\u00e5nades och l\u00e4mnades tillbaks innan den n\u00e5dde mig. Finns fr\u00e5n och med nu med p\u00e5 min att-l\u00e4sa-lista. Om ett \u00e5r. D\u00e5 skall jag l\u00e4sa den. D\u00e5 \u00e4r filmen gl\u00f6md. Marianne Fredriksson.\u00a0 Filmen finns p\u00e5 Netflix bland all skit som finns d\u00e4r. En diamant p\u00e5 den dyngstack. Se den n\u00e5gon g\u00e5ng. Du \u00e5ngrar dig inte.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ser “Simon och ekarna”.\u00a0 Varf\u00f6r griper vissa filmer tag i en p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r s\u00e4ttet? S\u00e4tter sig som en klump d\u00e4r i halsen. Sitter kvar d\u00e4r. H\u00e5rd. Sugande. Kr\u00e4vande. Ett universum av tomrum i en hals.\u00a0 Men tryck samtidigt. J\u00e4mvikt. Tomrum kr\u00e4ver tryck. N\u00e5r bara n\u00e4stan upp till \u00f6gonen. N\u00e4stan. Ihopsamlad sorg. 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