Hon d\u00f6r d\u00e4r i s\u00e4ngen. Jag h\u00f6r det p\u00e5 andningen. Hennes lilla mjuka hand i min. Har den alltid varit s\u00e5h\u00e4r mjuk? Min hand som smeker hennes panna. Mamma. Sk\u00f6terskan som st\u00e5r d\u00e4r och grejar vid medicinsk\u00e5pet.\u00a0 Jag ville att hon skulle g\u00e5. Att hon skall l\u00e4mna oss. Att d\u00f6, att sitta bredvid en mamma som d\u00f6r, det \u00e4r s\u00e5 privat. En sak inom familjen. Men man har inte tid och lust att br\u00e5ka om s\u00e5dant i ett s\u00e5dant h\u00e4r \u00f6gonblick. S\u00e5 ett sista andetag. Uppeh\u00e5ll. Slut. Nej. Ett till andetag. Forcerat nu. Sen kommer inget mer. \u00d6gon som inte l\u00e4ngre ser. Jag \u00e4r f\u00f6r\u00e4ldral\u00f6s.<\/p>\n
Jag ringer till K. S\u00e5klart m\u00e5ste hon f\u00e5 veta f\u00f6rst.\u00a0 Brorsan ocks\u00e5. N\u00e4sta samtal. Men sen d\u00e5?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Hon d\u00f6r d\u00e4r i s\u00e4ngen. Jag h\u00f6r det p\u00e5 andningen. Hennes lilla mjuka hand i min. Har den alltid varit s\u00e5h\u00e4r mjuk? Min hand som smeker hennes panna. Mamma. Sk\u00f6terskan som st\u00e5r d\u00e4r och grejar vid medicinsk\u00e5pet.\u00a0 Jag ville att hon skulle g\u00e5. Att hon skall l\u00e4mna oss. 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