{"id":19013,"date":"2015-11-13T23:24:57","date_gmt":"2015-11-13T22:24:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19013"},"modified":"2015-11-13T23:24:57","modified_gmt":"2015-11-13T22:24:57","slug":"det-ar-anda-sjalva-definitionen-pa-en-manniska","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19013","title":{"rendered":"Det \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 sj\u00e4lva definitionen p\u00e5 en m\u00e4nniska."},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2015-11-12_09-18-57\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Det \u00e4r natt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen med det stora gula huset, Pellets har fyllts. Pannan, Hulken, brinner. Ja det brinner inuti den. B\u00e4st att klarg\u00f6ra det. B\u00e4ttre. Film har besk\u00e5das. Science fiction. Tillr\u00e4ckligt bra f\u00f6r att h\u00e5lla sig vaken d\u00e4r i gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa. Jod\u00e5 balanserande p\u00e5 gr\u00e4nsen. Men p\u00e5 r\u00e4tt sida. Vaken. Ett glas whisky. Sippandes s\u00e5 det r\u00e4cker l\u00e4nge. N\u00f6jd men tr\u00f6tt nu. Skall strax l\u00e4gga mig. L\u00e4sa s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge jag orkar. F\u00f6r att jag kan det. Franskt. Bokhandelstema. L\u00e5ngt fr\u00e5n science fiction.<\/p>\n

Man summerar vecka nu strax innan man skall ge sig. Det blev inte mycket gjort. \u00c4nd\u00e5 blev det det. Men inte det jag t\u00e4nkte mig. Annat. Massor. S\u00e5 n\u00e5gonstans skall man v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 vara n\u00f6jd. Men det \u00e4r man s\u00e5klart inte. Man vill fram\u00e5t. Tycker man st\u00e5r still. Sitter fast i ett sirapstr\u00e4sk.<\/p>\n

Men vem \u00e4r jag som skulle anse mig ha r\u00e4tt att klaga. Jag har mat p\u00e5 bordet. Varmt i huset. \u00c4r inte p\u00e5 flykt. Nej man har inte den r\u00e4tten. Egentligen. Men man klagar s\u00e5klart \u00e4nd\u00e5. Man \u00e4r m\u00e4nniska. Det \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 sj\u00e4lva definitionen p\u00e5 en m\u00e4nniska. Det har aldrig funnits en m\u00e4nniska som inte har klagat p\u00e5 sakernas tillst\u00e5nd. Men det \u00e4r det som driver p\u00e5 f\u00f6r\u00e4ndring. Som tar oss fram\u00e5t. Vi har det inbyggt. Vi m\u00e5ste leva d\u00e4r i gr\u00e4nslandet annars \u00e4r vi inte m\u00e4nniskor.<\/p>\n

Ja jag blir misst\u00e4nksam n\u00e4r jag ser de d\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna som ut\u00e5t hyllar och h\u00f6jer till skyarna. Ja och bara g\u00f6r det. Det finns n\u00e5got falskt. M\u00f6jligen att de bara \u00e4r skadade, damaged goods p\u00e5 n\u00e5got vis. F\u00f6r tidigt f\u00f6dda. Han aldrig utveckla det klagande inom sig. De skr\u00e4mmer mig de d\u00e4r typerna. F\u00f6r jag vet ju att ocks\u00e5 Dalai Lama klagar och gn\u00e4ller n\u00e4r ingen ser.\u00a0 D\u00e4rf\u00f6r att han \u00e4r m\u00e4nniska. S\u00e5 jag vet ju att inuti de d\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna p\u00e5g\u00e5r ett krig. Psykopaternas krig. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r skyr jag m\u00e4nniskor som inte klagar. De \u00e4r de farligaste. Det \u00e4r d\u00e4r m\u00f6rdare och v\u00e5ldshen finns.<\/p>\n

Men helg. Det \u00e4r bra. M\u00e5ste f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka fixa lite vinterf\u00f6rberedelser imorgon. Lingonris. Rensa s\u00e5 att man tar sig in i garaget. Ja ni vet. Fri yta samlar p\u00e5 sig skrot.\u00a0 Amplarna f\u00e5r nog plockas ner ocks\u00e5 imorgon. De flesta blommor gav sig inatt. Inte alla. S\u00e5 lite tar det emot. Men det b\u00f6rjar bli lite l\u00f6jligt. Fjortonde november imorgon.<\/p>\n

Men som sagt. Jag skall l\u00e4gga mig. \u00c5terst\u00e4lla. \u00c5terh\u00e4mta. Sk\u00f6nhetss\u00f6mn \u00e4r det inte l\u00e4ngre tal om h\u00e4r. Den tiden s\u00f6mn kunde bita p\u00e5 mitt utseende, f\u00f6rb\u00e4ttra,\u00a0 \u00e4r f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan f\u00f6rbi. Men det g\u00f6r inget. Men jag accepterade det f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan. Som ett avhugget ben, ett lyte. Man l\u00e4r sig leva med sig sj\u00e4lv. Man m\u00e5ste det. Ja, fast andra tycker att man borde \u00e4ndra p\u00e5 sig f\u00f6r att bli som dom. Ja till och med finns det folk som tar medicin f\u00f6r att bli som andra. Galet s\u00e4ger jag. F\u00f6r det \u00e4r precis tv\u00e4rtom. Man b\u00f6r bli precis s\u00e5 lite som dom andra som m\u00f6jligt. Det ger en roligare v\u00e4rld och gynnar oss m\u00e4nniskor. Blir vi f\u00f6r lika s\u00e5 blir vi en inavelsklump. Facebookifierad k\u00f6ttf\u00e4rs. Men kanske \u00e4r vi d\u00e4r. Orkar n\u00e5gon med n\u00e5got som tar mer \u00e4n femton sekunder l\u00e4ngre?<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 godnatt ni som befinner er i olika bubblor d\u00e4r ute i m\u00f6rkret. Jag ser er inte. Jag sitter ju ocks\u00e5 i min gula stora bubbla h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. Men jag vet ju att ni finns. Ni m\u00e4rks om inte annat i bloggens statistik. Nejd\u00e5. M\u00e5nga \u00e4r ni inte. Men en unik skara. Antagligen helt utan ett meningsfullt liv eftersom ni l\u00e4ser min blogg. Stackare.<\/p>\n

ps Ha en angen\u00e4m helg hur som helst ds<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Det \u00e4r natt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen med det stora gula huset, Pellets har fyllts. Pannan, Hulken, brinner. Ja det brinner inuti den. B\u00e4st att klarg\u00f6ra det. B\u00e4ttre. Film har besk\u00e5das. Science fiction. Tillr\u00e4ckligt bra f\u00f6r att h\u00e5lla sig vaken d\u00e4r i gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa. Jod\u00e5 balanserande p\u00e5 gr\u00e4nsen. Men p\u00e5 r\u00e4tt sida. Vaken. Ett glas […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19013","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17265,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17265","url_meta":{"origin":19013,"position":0},"title":"Ett trubbigt och ov\u00e4ssat sinne","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-03-31","format":false,"excerpt":"Okoncentrerad idag. 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