{"id":18448,"date":"2015-08-18T22:34:55","date_gmt":"2015-08-18T21:34:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18448"},"modified":"2015-08-18T22:40:11","modified_gmt":"2015-08-18T21:40:11","slug":"hurra-hurra-hurra-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18448","title":{"rendered":"Hurra, hurra, hurra"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/10527860_10152310549122098_3885793253067293053_n.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-18449\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/10527860_10152310549122098_3885793253067293053_n.jpg?resize=511%2C511\" alt=\"10527860_10152310549122098_3885793253067293053_n\" width=\"511\" height=\"511\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/10527860_10152310549122098_3885793253067293053_n.jpg?w=511&amp;ssl=1 511w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/10527860_10152310549122098_3885793253067293053_n.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/10527860_10152310549122098_3885793253067293053_n.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 511px) 100vw, 511px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>N\u00e4r andra m\u00e4nniskor n\u00e5r sina m\u00e5l blir jag alldeles varm inombords. Ja glad. Inte avundsjuk. F\u00f6r n\u00e4r jag sj\u00e4lv n\u00e5r mina m\u00e5l blir jag l\u00e5g som en markt\u00e4ckande bl\u00f6t mossa. Det finns ingen anledning att fira liksom. Som p\u00e5 bilden h\u00e4r ovan. Jag har precis vunnit tio tusen kronor. \u00c4r en av finalisterna i en entrepren\u00f6rst\u00e4vling. Ja och man borde sprudla av gl\u00e4dje d\u00e4r p\u00e5 scenen. I alla fall efter\u00e5t n\u00e4r allt st\u00e5hej \u00e4r \u00f6ver. Men allt jag k\u00e4nner \u00e4r den d\u00e4r stora tomheten som jag k\u00e4nner igen s\u00e5 v\u00e4l fr\u00e5n varje spelning d\u00e4r i forntiden. Ja eller snarare EFTER varje spelning. Ett stort h\u00e5l uppst\u00e5r inom en som i alla fall jag inte har en aning om hur man fyller igen utan att kliva upp p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r scenen igen eller k\u00f6ra om den d\u00e4r t\u00e4vlingen igen.<\/p>\n<p>Efter att den d\u00e4r bilden tas \u00e4r det fotograferingarna,\u00a0 intervjuer och mingel. I det hinner man inte t\u00e4nka s\u00e5 mycket s\u00e5klart. Men n\u00e4r andra sen g\u00e5r till lokalerna f\u00f6r att fira eftersom dom \u00e4r n\u00e5gra stycken s\u00e5 vandrar jag ensam hem efter Sveav\u00e4gen till mitt hotell. Jo jag k\u00f6per en coola och en chipsp\u00e5se och en p\u00e5se bilar ocks\u00e5 f\u00f6r att fira. Eller kanske bara f\u00f6r att jag helt enkelt \u00e4r hungrig och inte orkar leta upp n\u00e5got annat. Hard rock cafe, bredvid hotellet, k\u00e4nns inte heller som en h\u00f6jdare n\u00e4r man \u00e4r ensam. S\u00e5 mer \u00e4r det inte. Inte ett dugg. Jag kunde allts\u00e5 lika g\u00e4rna varit utan. N\u00e5gon annan borde vunnit\/uppn\u00e5tt det de ville ist\u00e4llet. N\u00e5gon som kan uppskatta det.<\/p>\n<p>Ja s\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det. N\u00e4stan. Eller ja det g\u00f6r det. Att cacha in den d\u00e4r checken k\u00e4ndes inte mer det. Tiotusen \u00e4r inte mycket pengar. Fast ibland \u00e4r det ju det. Men bara inte just d\u00e5. Konstigt.<\/p>\n<p>Samma sak var det n\u00e4r jag vann en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r &#8220;var miljon\u00e4r f\u00f6r en dag&#8221; t\u00e4vling. D\u00e4r var jag tvungen att handla f\u00f6r tjugofemtusen i Ljusdals butiker under en dag. Blev skjutsad av en a LBK&#8217;s bandyspelare i en ny elbil. Inte k\u00e4ndes det n\u00e5tt. Noll ingenting. Fick hem mer grejer bara. Nyttigheter en del iof. Men gladare blev man det?\u00a0 H\u00e5lrum. H\u00e5lrum. H\u00e5lrum. Mestadels. En dag bland andra dagar. Ungef\u00e4r.<\/p>\n<p>Man \u00e4r allts\u00e5 en butter j\u00e4vel. Tydligen. Otacksam och butter. En deppig skit. Ja s\u00e5 m\u00e5ste det ju vara. Som om jag inte f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar det d\u00e4r. Verkligen inte f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar. Det skall inte vara fest och en massa skratt liksom. Jamen j\u00e4vlar vad patetiskt det l\u00e5ter d\u00e5!!!<\/p>\n<p>M\u00e5ste rycka upp mig. Kan man vara glad n\u00e4r andra sk\u00f6rdar framg\u00e5ngar borde man v\u00e4l kunna uppskatta sina egna. Ja sl\u00e5 klackarna i taket liksom n\u00e4r de intr\u00e4ffar. Fira lite. Vara en glad skit en stund. Ja man f\u00e5r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka. N\u00e4sta g\u00e5ng. Om det blir n\u00e5gon n\u00e4sta g\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>N\u00e4r andra m\u00e4nniskor n\u00e5r sina m\u00e5l blir jag alldeles varm inombords. Ja glad. Inte avundsjuk. F\u00f6r n\u00e4r jag sj\u00e4lv n\u00e5r mina m\u00e5l blir jag l\u00e5g som en markt\u00e4ckande bl\u00f6t mossa. Det finns ingen anledning att fira liksom. Som p\u00e5 bilden h\u00e4r ovan. Jag har precis vunnit tio tusen kronor. \u00c4r en av finalisterna i en [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18448","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":45578,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=45578","url_meta":{"origin":18448,"position":0},"title":"P\u00e5 scen igen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2023-07-25","format":false,"excerpt":"Gr\u00e4sklippare. 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