{"id":18276,"date":"2015-07-17T11:33:01","date_gmt":"2015-07-17T10:33:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18276"},"modified":"2015-07-17T11:34:01","modified_gmt":"2015-07-17T10:34:01","slug":"fredag-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18276","title":{"rendered":"Fredag"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Fredag redan. Vad \u00e4r det som h\u00e4nder. Man h\u00e4nger inte med. Veckor g\u00e5r. Semester g\u00e5r. H\u00e4r st\u00e5 jag och ser allt fara f\u00f6rbi. Jag som precis b\u00f6rjat v\u00e4nja mig. Mina axlar som n\u00e4stan sjunkit ner mot normall\u00e4ge. Men fredagen \u00e4r i stort sett \u00e4nnu oskriven, liksom helgen, liksom en semestervecka till. Japp njuter. M\u00e5sten saknas. Det \u00e4r lugnt. Ett rum \u00e4r renoverat. En till film genomtittad, r\u00e4tt bra dessutom. Ovanligt.<\/p>\n

Jod\u00e5 man skulle kunna t\u00e4nka sig det h\u00e4r livet ocks\u00e5. Att bara g\u00e5 omkring och finnas. Ja och man \u00e4r ju d\u00e4r. Finns. Inte s\u00e5 mycket mer. Men snart suger det v\u00e4l till inom en igen. Den d\u00e4r driften att skapa n\u00e5got. Jag har alltid haft den. Kortlekarna har inte beh\u00f6vts som tidsf\u00f6rdriv i mitt liv. Det har alltid funnit n\u00e5got dit elden inom mig drivit mig. Vad det nu skall bra bra f\u00f6r. Det finns enklare s\u00e4tt att leva ett liv. Mycket enklare. Flyt med bara s\u00e5 tar “de” hand om dig. Jag klarar mig sj\u00e4lv. Tar hand om mig sj\u00e4lv.<\/p>\n

Den gamla damens b\u00e4r \u00e4r fortfarande gr\u00f6na utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. Man kan m\u00e4ta tiden efter dem ocks\u00e5. Allt \u00e4r senare i \u00e5r. Vi befinner oss bara i b\u00f6rjan av juli. Inte i slutet som almanackan s\u00e4ger. Den \u00e4r f\u00f6r statisk. Vi \u00e4r f\u00f6r statiska. Tiden \u00e4r det inte. Inte livet heller. Man f\u00e5r vara lite flexible i sinnet ocks\u00e5. Anpassa sig efter det vi tror \u00e4r v\u00e5r verklighet. Som kanske \u00e4r det. Verklig i alla fall fr\u00e5n v\u00e5rt eget perspektiv.<\/p>\n

Imorgon har jag planerat in studio. Om inget annat h\u00e4nder. En dag att bara leka p\u00e5. Det \u00e4r \u00e4nnu mer in i det bl\u00e5. D\u00e4r m\u00e5r jag som allra b\u00e4st. S\u00e5 \u00e4r det. Det spelar ingen roll vad andra tycker. F\u00f6r de mesta. Ibland betyder det s\u00e5klart allt. Alla vill bli omtyckta f\u00f6r n\u00e5got. Inte s\u00e5 sv\u00e5rt det d\u00e4r. Man beh\u00f6ver inte blanda in f\u00f6r\u00e4ldrar som inte s\u00e5g en och annat i det. Vi vill finnas till ocks\u00e5 utanf\u00f6r oss sj\u00e4lva vi m\u00e4nniskor. \u00c4r det s\u00e5 konstigt? Att f\u00e5 sitt v\u00e4rde bekr\u00e4ftat p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e4tt. Ja ibland handlar musiken om det. N\u00e4r den \u00e4r klar. N\u00e4r den ligger d\u00e4r. Men inte i studion. D\u00e5 \u00e4r det bara skapa. Underbart och bara underbart. Inget annat. Man \u00f6nskar att det bara varit s\u00e5 efter\u00e5t ocks\u00e5. Men om ingen lyssnar \u00e4r dj\u00e4vulen d\u00e4r och viskar hur v\u00e4rdel\u00f6s man \u00e4r. Osedd. Ofinnandes. Men jag har lyssnat p\u00e5 en kille fr\u00e5n Ljusdal ett tag nu. Fantastiska produktioner. Men han ofinns musikaliskt han ocks\u00e5. Man kan allts\u00e5 dra slutsatsen att det kan vara nog s\u00e5 fantastiskt utan att det \u00e4r “bra” ute bland folket. Det finns hur m\u00e5nga som helst som inte syns men som \u00e4r hur bra som helst. Men \u00e4nd\u00e5 blir det n\u00e5gra f\u00e5 som syns. Japp p\u00e5 de sm\u00e5 tillst\u00e4llningarna ocks\u00e5. Samma \u00e4r b\u00e4st \u00e4r mantrar. N\u00e4pp tror inte det!<\/p>\n

Min dag t\u00e4nker forts\u00e4tta utan speciellt stora \u00e5th\u00e4vor. S\u00e4tta upp en gardinst\u00e5ng skall jag. Upp med en rullgardin. Dammsuga lite. I det finns jag kanske inte heller f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon annan men det skall g\u00f6ras. Det \u00e4r inte konstigare \u00e4n s\u00e5. F\u00f6r man finns i det man g\u00f6r. Det \u00e4r bara de som inget g\u00f6r som aldrig fanns. T\u00e4nker man p\u00e5 saken s\u00e5 \u00e4r de v\u00e4ldigt f\u00e5. De flesta g\u00f6r \u00e4nd\u00e5 saker. Det \u00e4r en massr\u00f6relse. L\u00e5t vara att de som tycker att andra skall g\u00f6ra saker \u00e4r en st\u00f6rre r\u00f6relse men det \u00e4r en helt annan historia. Den som vi tar sen. N\u00e5gon annan g\u00e5ng. Efter semestern.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Fredag redan. Vad \u00e4r det som h\u00e4nder. Man h\u00e4nger inte med. Veckor g\u00e5r. Semester g\u00e5r. H\u00e4r st\u00e5 jag och ser allt fara f\u00f6rbi. Jag som precis b\u00f6rjat v\u00e4nja mig. Mina axlar som n\u00e4stan sjunkit ner mot normall\u00e4ge. Men fredagen \u00e4r i stort sett \u00e4nnu oskriven, liksom helgen, liksom en semestervecka till. Japp njuter. M\u00e5sten saknas. 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