{"id":18271,"date":"2015-07-16T10:07:55","date_gmt":"2015-07-16T09:07:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18271"},"modified":"2015-07-16T10:07:55","modified_gmt":"2015-07-16T09:07:55","slug":"torsdag-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18271","title":{"rendered":"Torsdag"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Tiden rusar iv\u00e4g och jag med den. Regnet faller d\u00e4r ute. Sommarregn. G\u00f6r mig inte ett dugg. Jag stannar inne. Mailboxen\u00a0 uppe i 233 or\u00f6rda mail. Could not care less. Lugnt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kulle allts\u00e5. Det pratas om lite sol imorgon s\u00e5 gr\u00e4sklippning och grillning l\u00e5ter som en utm\u00e4rkt ide. Eller inte. M\u00e5sten \u00e4r bannlysta i denna tid. Men torsdag allts\u00e5. Allt tid \u00e4r utm\u00e4tt. Man f\u00e5r finna sig i det. Jag har v\u00e4l inget problem med det heller egentligen. L\u00e4ngtar inte till jobb, men l\u00e4ngtar till musik. Lyssnar p\u00e5 alldeles f\u00f6r lite musik n\u00e4r jag inte sitter p\u00e5 kontoret. Oklart varf\u00f6r. Borde \u00e4ndra p\u00e5 det.<\/p>\n

Lottabodens dag och Valla Open idag. B\u00e5de slipper mig. Det \u00e4r de s\u00e4kert glada f\u00f6r. Jag med. Konsensus heter s\u00e5nt. Bra saker. Fred.<\/p>\n

V\u00e4rlden och jag. Jag och v\u00e4rlden. Vi avl\u00e4gsnar oss allt mer fr\u00e5n varandra. Jag har inget mer att s\u00e4ga den och den verkar bara ha bara d\u00f6d kvar \u00e5t mig. Jag pratar s\u00e4llan med n\u00e5gon annan IRL l\u00e4ngre. Jo grannen som st\u00e4ndigt skall ha hj\u00e4lp med n\u00e5got. Enkelriktat. M\u00e5ste s\u00e4ga ifr\u00e5n. De som bara tar kan dra \u00e5t helvete och de \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 de flesta.<\/p>\n

Men regnar det p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdag s\u00e5 kanske studio. Ja det skulle jag vilja. Det g\u00f6r gott f\u00f6r sj\u00e4len. Lyfter upp mig p\u00e5 fj\u00e4derl\u00e4tta h\u00e4nder. Det finns dom som jagar ber\u00f6mmelse i det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5, som f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntar sig att ocks\u00e5 jag skall g\u00f6ra det. Men det fungerar ju inte s\u00e5 h\u00e4r. Jag g\u00f6r vad jag g\u00f6r. Det blir vad det blir. Jag f\u00e5r ur mig det som skall ur mig. Samma som med orden allts\u00e5. Det g\u00f6r gott att skapa. Man orkar leva i det. Annars tomrum bara. Inget f\u00f6r mig. Tomrummet \u00e4ter upp mig och jag fyller bara ut det med allt som \u00e4r jag.<\/p>\n

Men nu denna torsdag renovera vidare. Ett rum till skall bli klart. Det finns n\u00e5got sk\u00f6nt i det ocks\u00e5. Inget bror duktig d\u00e4r heller. Bara vara och att g\u00f6ra. Skiter i resten. G\u00f6r uppriktigt det.<\/p>\n

Ser att min mest lyssnade l\u00e5t just nu \u00e4r “H\u00e4lsingland”. Finns n\u00e5got sorgligt i det. Den l\u00e5t av alla jag lagt minst m\u00f6da p\u00e5 och n\u00e4stan kastade i papperskorgen \u00e4r den som folk lyssnar p\u00e5 mest. Det \u00e4r ingen ide allts\u00e5 egentligen att publicera musik. Folk har ingen som helst smak. \u00c5 andra sidan \u00e4r det inte speciellt mycket lyssnande. S\u00e5 de andra kanske har smak \u00e4nd\u00e5. Man hoppas.<\/p>\n

Men nu allts\u00e5 en torsdag i livet. En man inte vet ett skit om. Lite sp\u00e4nnande om man t\u00e4nker efter.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tiden rusar iv\u00e4g och jag med den. Regnet faller d\u00e4r ute. Sommarregn. G\u00f6r mig inte ett dugg. Jag stannar inne. Mailboxen\u00a0 uppe i 233 or\u00f6rda mail. Could not care less. Lugnt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kulle allts\u00e5. Det pratas om lite sol imorgon s\u00e5 gr\u00e4sklippning och grillning l\u00e5ter som en utm\u00e4rkt ide. Eller inte. 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