{"id":18201,"date":"2015-06-30T11:39:37","date_gmt":"2015-06-30T10:39:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18201"},"modified":"2015-06-30T11:39:37","modified_gmt":"2015-06-30T10:39:37","slug":"gor-klart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18201","title":{"rendered":"G\u00f6r klart!"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"P1040760\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Tystnad h\u00e4r. Nej jag r\u00e4knar inte datorfl\u00e4ktars ljud l\u00e4ngre. F\u00f6r tystnaden h\u00e4r inne p\u00e5 kontoret \u00e4r ju egentligen ett st\u00e4ndigt irriterande brus fr\u00e5n datorer som beh\u00f6ver cirkulerande luft f\u00f6r att inte explodera eller implodera eller bara sluta fungera. Men f\u00f6rutom det. Inte ett ljud. Helt tyst. Normalt s\u00e4tter jag p\u00e5 musik f\u00f6r att h\u00e5lla tystnaden ifr\u00e5n mig. Tystnaden som f\u00e5r huvudet att vilja fylla tomrum med n\u00e5got det f\u00e5r vara vad som helst. Jod\u00e5 jag brukar prata med mig sj\u00e4lv. Med datorn. Med pelargonerna, med l\u00f6dkolven. Ja med v\u00e4ggarna ocks\u00e5 och till och med till slut i ren desperation med han\/hon\/det\/gud som jag inte officiellt ens tror p\u00e5. Nej. Inte! D\u00e4rf\u00f6r att ja sett hans onda tj\u00e4nare. Nitton av tjugo \u00e4r monster. En uth\u00e4rdlig. N\u00e4stan god. Men \u00f6verm\u00e4nniska ocks\u00e5 i sina egna \u00f6gon. Jag bara vanlig. Kan inte m\u00e4ta mig med dem som st\u00e5r \u00f6ver. Som \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre. Enligt sig sj\u00e4lva.\u00a0 De som \u00e4r han\/hon\/det\/gudens utvalda. V\u00e4ggen \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre som samtalspartner. Han\/hon\/det\/gud m\u00e5 f\u00f6rl\u00e5ta mig. Eller l\u00e5ta blixtar dundra ner mot mig fr\u00e5n sin p\u00e5st\u00e5dda himmelska tron som straff. Det vore ett v\u00e4rdigt s\u00e4tt att g\u00e5 p\u00e5.<\/p>\n

Bj\u00f6rkarnas blad r\u00f6r sig lite l\u00e4tt d\u00e4r ute. Men varken vindens ljud, l\u00f6vens prasslande eller f\u00e5gels\u00e5ngen n\u00e5r in till mig genom stora tv\u00e5glasf\u00f6nster. Det \u00e4r som om min v\u00e4rld bara best\u00e5r av de d\u00e4r datorfl\u00e4ktarnas brus. S\u00e5 jag borde v\u00e4l l\u00e5ta primalskriket ljuda genom huset. H\u00f6gt och l\u00e4nge tills lungor inte l\u00e4ngre har luft eller st\u00e4mband inte l\u00e4ngre kan skrika. Men jag sl\u00e4pper s\u00e5klart inte ut det d\u00e4r vr\u00e5let. Sitter kvar h\u00e4r i tystnaden. Letar en tr\u00e5d som tar mig in i inspirationen. Den som alltid brukar r\u00e4dda mig. Men sv\u00e5rfunnen ig\u00e5r och sv\u00e5rfunnen idag. Ja jag vet var skon kl\u00e4mmer. Jag har bara lite kvar till “klar” igen. Det \u00e4r l\u00e4tt att hamna i det h\u00e4r mellantillst\u00e5ndet d\u00e5.<\/p>\n

Men nu \u00e4ta, sen lyssna p\u00e5 sommar. En Youtube stj\u00e4rna skall prata. Det vet jag inte ens vad det \u00e4r. Men \u00e4ven i dom vattnen kan de sm\u00e5 guldkornen hittas. Oftast \u00e4r de de b\u00e4sta programmen de d\u00e4r otippade. Bra s\u00e4song hittills i \u00e5r generellt. Det \u00e4r egentligen bara Bengt Baron som jag hittills velat st\u00e4nga av. Ja ni vet den d\u00e4r o\u00e4ndliga uppr\u00e4kningen av segrar utan att man kommer n\u00e4rmare personen. Det \u00e4r ju under skinnet p\u00e5 den som pratar man vill komma. Men \u00e4ven hans program tar sig stundtals och \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 lyssningsv\u00e4rt. S\u00e5 nu g\u00f6r vi n\u00e5got av den h\u00e4r dagen. G\u00f6r “klart”.<\/p>\n

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Tystnad h\u00e4r. Nej jag r\u00e4knar inte datorfl\u00e4ktars ljud l\u00e4ngre. F\u00f6r tystnaden h\u00e4r inne p\u00e5 kontoret \u00e4r ju egentligen ett st\u00e4ndigt irriterande brus fr\u00e5n datorer som beh\u00f6ver cirkulerande luft f\u00f6r att inte explodera eller implodera eller bara sluta fungera. Men f\u00f6rutom det. Inte ett ljud. Helt tyst. Normalt s\u00e4tter jag p\u00e5 musik f\u00f6r att h\u00e5lla tystnaden […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18201","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":14407,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=14407","url_meta":{"origin":18201,"position":0},"title":"Det \u00e4r tystnaden.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-08-16","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r tystnaden, jag gl\u00f6mmer det ibland. 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