H\u00f6stregnet faller med stora kalla droppar. Skogskyrkog\u00e5rden, Stockholm. Jag \u00e4r barn och \u00e5ker med pendeln f\u00f6rbi eller \u00e4r det tunnelbanan? Ljuspunkter i allhelgonakv\u00e4llen. Hundratals, tusentals, d\u00f6da som n\u00e5gon minns. Var och en symboliserad i ett fladdrande, fl\u00e4mtade ljus. D\u00e4r emellan alla gl\u00f6mda, de som inte har ett ljus t\u00e4nt f\u00f6r sig. De som ingen saknar. Det \u00e4r vackert. Jag fyller \u00e5r. Tittar s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge det g\u00e5r p\u00e5 ljusen d\u00e4r n\u00e4r t\u00e5get r\u00f6r sig vidare in mot stan. K\u00e4nns som om alla var t\u00e4nda f\u00f6r mig, f\u00f6delsedagsbarnet. F\u00f6rst\u00e5r \u00e4nnu inte sorgen, bara gl\u00e4djen. De fladdrande ljusen som snart ers\u00e4tts av stadens mer p\u00e5tr\u00e4ngande ljus. Ljus som kr\u00e4ver att bli sedda ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att inbjuda till betraktade.<\/p>\n
Snart i bilen ut fr\u00e5n Stockholm, norrut, p\u00e5 v\u00e4g mot vintern. P\u00e4rlband av lyktor i natten. K\u00f6er p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen in mot staden. Som lysande halsband ormar de sig fram l\u00e5ngt bort i fj\u00e4rran, f\u00f6rbi, och iv\u00e4g. F\u00f6r barnet, som \u00e4r jag, ter det sig som om kyrkog\u00e5rdens alla ljuspunkter tr\u00e4tts upp p\u00e5 ett halsband och satts i r\u00f6relse. Det \u00e4r vackert. Det vackraste jag sett i mitt hittills korta liv och p\u00e5 barnets vis \u00e4r naturligtvis alltsammans d\u00e4r bara f\u00f6r mig. Men de tunnas ut till slut. Blir till korta ormar och sen till enstaka bloss. S\u00e5 jag somnar. Glad att ha f\u00e5tt denna vackra present p\u00e5 min sjunde f\u00f6delsedag.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
H\u00f6stregnet faller med stora kalla droppar. Skogskyrkog\u00e5rden, Stockholm. Jag \u00e4r barn och \u00e5ker med pendeln f\u00f6rbi eller \u00e4r det tunnelbanan? Ljuspunkter i allhelgonakv\u00e4llen. Hundratals, tusentals, d\u00f6da som n\u00e5gon minns. Var och en symboliserad i ett fladdrande, fl\u00e4mtade ljus. D\u00e4r emellan alla gl\u00f6mda, de som inte har ett ljus t\u00e4nt f\u00f6r sig. De som ingen saknar. 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