{"id":17953,"date":"2015-05-24T22:21:54","date_gmt":"2015-05-24T21:21:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17953"},"modified":"2015-05-24T22:21:54","modified_gmt":"2015-05-24T21:21:54","slug":"hanryckt-och-klar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17953","title":{"rendered":"H\u00e4nryckt och klar"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"examen\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Helg. Jag sover f\u00f6r mycket. K sover n\u00e4stan lika mycket. Tr\u00f6tt. Fortfarande ont i huvudet. Men \u00f6verlevnadsbart. Men jobbar ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. De d\u00e4r monotona g\u00e5r bra. Det fungerar b\u00e5de med tr\u00f6tthet i kroppen och med ont i huvudet. Det finns tillr\u00e4ckligt mycket monotont jobb kvar f\u00f6r att det skall r\u00e4cka en hel livstid. Jag har bara delar av en livstid kvar. Mindre eller mer \u00e4n jag anar. Funderar inte s\u00e5 mycket p\u00e5 n\u00e4r, \u00e4r bara beredd. Man kan inte r\u00e5da \u00f6ver och vet inte.\u00a0 Men jobbet. Man f\u00e5r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka blanda s\u00e5klart. Om man bara skall befinna sig i kolgruvorna hela tiden s\u00e5 blir livet d\u00e4refter ocks\u00e5. Man f\u00e5r kliva i flygplanet och svischa runt bland molnen ibland f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 lite perspektiv p\u00e5 tillvaron. Sen kan man g\u00e5 under jorden och hacka loss kol ett tag igen. En vecka eller tv\u00e5 innan man m\u00e5ste ge sig upp bland molnen igen<\/p>\n

L\u00f6ven vecklar ut sig som fj\u00e4rilsvingar h\u00e4r ute. Pollenhalt f\u00f6r bj\u00f6rk \u00e4r h\u00f6g. Gissar att just det har ett samband med huvudv\u00e4rken att g\u00f6ra. Men jag klarar det utan mediciner. \u00c4nnu. Kan vara vr\u00e5ng. Men har aldrig tagit antihistaminer. Aldrig. Hoppas jag aldrig beh\u00f6ver det heller.<\/p>\n

Fyller i tv\u00e5 veckors semester i kalendern. Japp tv\u00e5 veckor! Skall verkligen f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka h\u00e5lla det. Det \u00e4r mer \u00e4n normalt s\u00e5klart men egentligen skulle jag nog beh\u00f6va fem eller sex. Ja, jag som bara sitter hemma. Har det sk\u00f6nt. Men s\u00e5klart blir det inte mer \u00e4n tv\u00e5. Ett liv fick man sig tilldelat. Ett enda. Jag har inte tid att sl\u00e4nga bort det p\u00e5 f\u00f6r mycket h\u00e4ngmatta. Hatar mig sj\u00e4lv f\u00f6r det s\u00e5klart. Men har alltid varit s\u00e5dan. Alltid. Jag k\u00f6r till “klart” eller “stopp”.<\/p>\n

Den gamla damen, k\u00f6rsb\u00e4rstr\u00e4det, g\u00f6r sig redo h\u00e4r ute f\u00f6r att sk\u00e4mma bort oss med alla sina blommor. En vecka sen \u00e4r det \u00f6ver. Men underbart s\u00e5klart. Hon st\u00e5r h\u00e4r precis utanf\u00f6r det f\u00f6nster jag sitter och jobbar vid och varma \u00e5r n\u00e4r hon blommar kan man \u00f6ppna f\u00f6nstret och lyssna p\u00e5 surrandet av insekter d\u00e4r i tr\u00e4det. Det ger bra kod. I \u00e5r f\u00e5r man v\u00e4l g\u00e5 ut och st\u00e4lla sig under henne. Men det fungerar det ocks\u00e5. Vacker som en brud \u00e4r hon varje v\u00e5r trotts sin h\u00f6ga \u00e5lder.<\/p>\n

Att det varit pingsthelg har man inte m\u00e4rkt speciellt mycket av. Jag har faktiskt ingen aning, trotts genomf\u00f6rd konfirmation, vad meningen med helgen \u00e4r. Ja jag \u00e4r v\u00e4l en ogudaktig en. H\u00e4nryckt skall man tydligen bli denna helg i all fall. S\u00e5 mycket har jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5tt.\u00a0 Ja jag kan inte s\u00e4ga att jag lyckat leva upp till den h\u00e4nryckningen denna helg tyv\u00e4rr. Kunde ju googla p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r med pingst. Men ibland vill man bara inte veta. S\u00e5 skiter i det. G\u00e5r och l\u00e4gger mig ist\u00e4llet. Med d\u00e5lig bok dessutom. Men man f\u00e5r l\u00e4sa p\u00e5. D\u00e5 tar den slut. Man v\u00e4ljer ny bok. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis en bra bok. Det \u00e4r p\u00e5 det viset livet vandrar vidare.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Helg. Jag sover f\u00f6r mycket. K sover n\u00e4stan lika mycket. Tr\u00f6tt. Fortfarande ont i huvudet. Men \u00f6verlevnadsbart. Men jobbar ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. De d\u00e4r monotona g\u00e5r bra. Det fungerar b\u00e5de med tr\u00f6tthet i kroppen och med ont i huvudet. Det finns tillr\u00e4ckligt mycket monotont jobb kvar f\u00f6r att det skall r\u00e4cka en hel livstid. 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