{"id":17843,"date":"2015-05-14T08:01:46","date_gmt":"2015-05-14T07:01:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17843"},"modified":"2015-05-14T13:40:17","modified_gmt":"2015-05-14T12:40:17","slug":"kristus-flyger-till-himlen-inte-jag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17843","title":{"rendered":"Kristus flyger till himlen – inte jag."},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2015-05-13_00-13-07\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Torsdag morgon. Kontoret. Kristus flyger sin eviga tur till himlen denna dag. Jag som \u00e4r mer jordn\u00e4ra stannar kvar p\u00e5 jorden. Fysiskt. I sinnet \u00e4r jag d\u00e4r uppe i himlen ocks\u00e5. Som vanligt. Jag k\u00e4nner inte av tyngdlag och andra begr\u00e4nsningar. Han\/hon\/det\/gud vill inte ha mig p\u00e5 sin h\u00f6gra sida dock. Eller ocks\u00e5 har jag fel. Dom man \u00e4lskar pl\u00e5gar man. Vilken idiotisk saying!<\/p>\n

Ute bl\u00e5ser det som det pl\u00e4gar att g\u00f6ra detta bl\u00e5siga 2015. Men man skall antagligen vara n\u00f6jd och glad \u00f6ver det. Betyder att det \u00e4r varmt n\u00e5gonstans. Dit dit luften rusar iv\u00e4g f\u00f6r att ocks\u00e5 den som Kristus stiga upp till himlen och dess fr\u00f6jder. F\u00f6r utsiktens skull kanske. 72% kv\u00e4ve, tjugotv\u00e5 procent syre. Eller hur var det? Plockat ur huvudet. Minns inte riktigt.\u00a8G\u00e5r s\u00e4kert att s\u00f6ka p\u00e5 Wikipedia men jag orkar inte nu.Ungef\u00e4r s\u00e5 i alla fall.<\/p>\n

De som k\u00e4nner mig vet att jag inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 religi\u00f6s av mig. I Edsbyn gjorde det en automatiskt till dj\u00e4vulsdyrkare. Ja Edsbyn, lilla Jerusalem. Nej jag l\u00e4ngtar inte tillbaks dit. Resten av v\u00e4rlden g\u00e5r bort fr\u00e5n dialekterna. I Edsbyn, Alfta, Ljusdal talar de unga gr\u00f6vre \u00e4n n\u00e5gonsin. Symptom p\u00e5 det inst\u00e4ngda. Att man inte vill ta till sig utifr\u00e5n. Att det man har \u00e4r gott nog. Sorgligt.\u00a0 Ja man h\u00f6r det i Lo(o)s ocks\u00e5. Nitton\u00e5ringar som pratar som om dom befann sig p\u00e5 artonhundratalet. L\u00e5ter som om dom fastnat d\u00e4r i sinnet. Noop gillar inte men var och en pratar som var och en vill. Vad har jag med det att g\u00f6ra?<\/p>\n

Jag anser mig allts\u00e5 inte riktigt f\u00f6rtj\u00e4na det d\u00e4r lediga idag. S\u00e5 jag jobbar. Kallt ute s\u00e5 d\u00e4r kan man ju \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte vara. S\u00e5 kontoret f\u00e5r det bli. H\u00e4r finns det att g\u00f6ra- Jag \u00e4lskar det. “Han \u00e4lskade det” kunde det st\u00e5tt p\u00e5 min gravsten om jag skulle haft n\u00e5gon. Men nu skall jag inte det. Dessutom hoppa jag att jag f\u00e5r leva ett tag till. Inte s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge s\u00e5 att jag blir “klar”. Det kan ingen f\u00f6rv\u00e4nta sig och kr\u00e4va men tills jag blir tr\u00f6tt i alla fall. Tills lusten har l\u00e4mnat mig. Ja l\u00e5t mig leva tills dess. Sen kan det vara skitsamma. D\u00e5 g\u00e5r det bra att skjutsa mig till n\u00e4rmaste \u00e4ttestup, l\u00e4mna mig d\u00e4r, och \u00e5ka hem.<\/p>\n

Tekoppen b\u00f6rjar ta slut. Inte jag. Nu skall jag jobba i mitt anletes svett. Eller l\u00e5tsasjobba, eller “bara sitter hemma”, eller vad jag nu g\u00f6r. Vad vet ocoola gubbar om s\u00e5dant egentligen?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Torsdag morgon. Kontoret. Kristus flyger sin eviga tur till himlen denna dag. Jag som \u00e4r mer jordn\u00e4ra stannar kvar p\u00e5 jorden. Fysiskt. I sinnet \u00e4r jag d\u00e4r uppe i himlen ocks\u00e5. Som vanligt. Jag k\u00e4nner inte av tyngdlag och andra begr\u00e4nsningar. Han\/hon\/det\/gud vill inte ha mig p\u00e5 sin h\u00f6gra sida dock. Eller ocks\u00e5 har jag […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17843","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":9436,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9436","url_meta":{"origin":17843,"position":0},"title":"Somnar jag s\u00e5 somnar jag med ro.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-09-07","format":false,"excerpt":"\u00a0 Sjunde September. 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