{"id":17841,"date":"2015-05-13T22:35:56","date_gmt":"2015-05-13T21:35:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17841"},"modified":"2015-05-13T22:35:56","modified_gmt":"2015-05-13T21:35:56","slug":"avslut","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17841","title":{"rendered":"Avslut"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2015-05-06_22-57-17\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Klockan \u00e4r kvart \u00f6ver elva och jag sitter och jobbar och har sn\u00f6at in p\u00e5 denna<\/a>. “Tjejlyssna” heter det tydligen n\u00e4r man lyssnar s\u00f6nder l\u00e5tar. Det har jag alltid gjort.\u00a0 \u00c4r det en bra l\u00e5t lyssnar jag tills den \u00e4r en del av mig helt enkelt. Vad g\u00f6r det mig till egentligen? Ingenting. Man lyssnar som man vill.\u00a0 Man lyssnar p\u00e5 vad man vill.<\/p>\n

T\u00e4nker strax g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig. Helt slut s\u00e5klart just nu.\u00a0 Som det skall vara. Som vanligt. som det brukar vara den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 dan h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret. Jobbdag imorgon ocks\u00e5. Bara som enkel fakta. Skulle kunna t\u00e4nka mig tusen andra saker att g\u00f6ra jag ocks\u00e5. Som alla andra. Men valen \u00e4r f\u00e5. I alla fall f\u00f6r mig. Tyv\u00e4rr.<\/p>\n

K f\u00e4rdas tillbaks till 1910 i rollspel borta i F\u00e5gelsj\u00f6<\/a> med skolan. Alla utkl\u00e4dda och lever som om de var en dag d\u00e5 1910. Bra tycker s\u00e5klart ocks\u00e5 jag. Man skall ha en tydlig d\u00e5tid att st\u00e5 med sina ben p\u00e5. En grund att bygga p\u00e5. MEN<\/strong> jag tycker att man skall b\u00f6rja titta fram\u00e5t n\u00e4r v\u00e4l den d\u00e4r grunden \u00e4r p\u00e5 plats. Jag har inga f\u00f6rhoppningar om att en liknande dag kommer att ordnas d\u00e4r man blickar 105 \u00e5r fram\u00e5t i tiden. \u00c4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r de \u00e5t det h\u00e5llet de flesta av oss \u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g. T\u00e4nker man efter \u00e4r det j\u00e4vligt f\u00e5 de som vandrar \u00e5t andra h\u00e5llet. T\u00e4nk om man k\u00f6rde bil p\u00e5 det s\u00e4ttet?<\/p>\n

Nej nu t\u00e4nker jag avsluta min dag. Tv\u00e5 b\u00f6cker har ja gett upp. En tredje kom jag p\u00e5 att jag redan har l\u00e4st s\u00e5 den \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 lagd \u00e5t sidan. Den f\u00f6rsta postorder-Japanskor som skeppas till USA f\u00f6re andra v\u00e4rldskriget. Jag har sett filmen. Ja, jag skulle ha l\u00e4st den klart om jag inte gjort det. Nu fungerar den inte. \u00c5ker tillbaks i hyllan. Den andra boken en fransk bokhandlare som leker detektiv. Ja den har sina finesser. Definitivt.\u00a0 Men ofta fattar jag ingenting av den. \u00c4r nog inte intelligent nog f\u00f6r den \u00e4nnu s\u00e5 den f\u00e5r ocks\u00e5 \u00e5ka \u00e5t sidan. Allts\u00e5 \u00e4r den f\u00f6rsta uppgiften n\u00e4r jag kommer upp att hitta en ny bok att l\u00e4sa. Helst en bra bok. K\u00e4nns som jag beh\u00f6ver det nu. En som tar mig iv\u00e4g p\u00e5 en ordentlig tur in i n\u00e5gon annans liv.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 godnatt v\u00e4rlden liksom. Utan svar s\u00e5klart. Men \u00e4nd\u00e5…<\/p>\n

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Klockan \u00e4r kvart \u00f6ver elva och jag sitter och jobbar och har sn\u00f6at in p\u00e5 denna. “Tjejlyssna” heter det tydligen n\u00e4r man lyssnar s\u00f6nder l\u00e5tar. Det har jag alltid gjort.\u00a0 \u00c4r det en bra l\u00e5t lyssnar jag tills den \u00e4r en del av mig helt enkelt. Vad g\u00f6r det mig till egentligen? Ingenting. 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