Halv fyra S\u00f6ndagsmorgon. Ja, egentligen halv tre eftersom h\u00e4r har inga klockor st\u00e4llts tillbaks vi den tiden. Mitt vanliga f\u00f6nster mot \u00f6ster. N\u00e5gra kex i n\u00e4ven. F\u00f6nstret som v\u00e4tter ut mot skogen och ingenting. Eller snarare mot det liv vi inte ser. \u00d6sterut. M\u00e5ste st\u00e5 d\u00e4r en stund. F\u00e5 n\u00e5gon nytta av en alldeles f\u00f6r stor prostata som p\u00e5 gamla o-coola gubbars vis f\u00e5r upp en mitt i natten. Oftast mer \u00e4n en g\u00e5ng. Det \u00e4r fullm\u00e5ne och sn\u00f6t\u00e4cket ligger. Jag blir inte besviken. Bl\u00e5ljuset finns d\u00e4r. Tr\u00e4den l\u00e4mnar markanta, inte helt svarta, snarare m\u00f6rkbl\u00e5, skuggor i detta ljus. Gnistrandet, som av miljarder och \u00e5ter miljarder \u00e4delstenar finns inte riktigt d\u00e4r inatt dock. Min skatt. S\u00e5 som den kan fylla natten l\u00e4ngre fram i vinter. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r kallare. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r mer och l\u00f6sare sn\u00f6. Jag \u00e4r s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att jag ocks\u00e5 kommer att f\u00e5 se ocks\u00e5 det senare i vinter. Andra n\u00e4tter n\u00e4r jag st\u00e5r h\u00e4r och rofyllt ser ut \u00f6ver bl\u00e5natten. \u00c4lvors och andra varelsers v\u00e4rld. Bara ett f\u00f6nster som skiljer en n\u00e4stan naken gubbe fr\u00e5n en annan v\u00e4rld utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. Jag \u00e4r n\u00f6jd \u00f6ver att f\u00e5 st\u00e5 d\u00e4r en stund. Upplyft av det jag ser. Upplyft av det jag kan ana mig till. Kexen \u00e4r slut och jag kan g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig igen. M\u00e5nen lyser in mellan en springa mellan gardinerna i s\u00e4ngkamraren. En liten punkt av koncentrerat m\u00e5nljus, intensivt vitt, p\u00e5 min del av s\u00e4ngen. Som om universum tar i med h\u00e5rdhanskarna och s\u00e4ger “l\u00e4gg dig ner och sov i natten gubbj\u00e4vel”. Och som gammal o-cool losgubbe lyder man universums r\u00f6st.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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