{"id":17614,"date":"2015-04-19T23:07:11","date_gmt":"2015-04-19T22:07:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=17614"},"modified":"2015-04-19T23:10:16","modified_gmt":"2015-04-19T22:10:16","slug":"godnatt-6","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17614","title":{"rendered":"Godnatt!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/halvtolv.jpeg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-16846\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/halvtolv.jpeg?resize=334%2C450\" alt=\"halvtolv\" width=\"334\" height=\"450\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Klockan \u00e4r en kvart f\u00f6re tidig m\u00e5ndag. Jag sitter p\u00e5 kontoret och borde packa ihop mig sj\u00e4lv och mina tankar\u00a0 och pallra mig upp f\u00f6r trappor till bok och s\u00e4ng.\u00a0 D\u00e4r en timmes l\u00e4sa och sen sova f\u00f6r storverk imorgon v\u00e4ntar. Underbara m\u00e5ndag. Ny h\u00e4rlig vecka.\u00a0 Om man vaknar. Inget tas f\u00f6r givet h\u00e4r i huset. Har aldrig gjorts.<\/p>\n<p>Men det \u00e4r liksom lite gott att sitta h\u00e4r nere vid den h\u00e4r tiden. Det \u00e4r tyst i huset. Tyst ute. Alla andra sover. Till och med vinden d\u00e4r ute. Jag har gjort det jobb jag skall g\u00f6ra under dan. T\u00e4mligen n\u00f6jd f\u00f6ljaktligen. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 s\u00e4llan jag bara sitter s\u00e5h\u00e4r och inte g\u00f6r n\u00e5got alls. Det finns alltid s\u00e5 mycket som m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ras p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r l\u00f6pande bandet som livet placerat framf\u00f6r mig att jag s\u00e4llan hinner sitta bara s\u00e5h\u00e4r.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 jag bara sitter h\u00e4r en stund. Unnar mig en kvarts bara sitta h\u00e4r i tystnaden p\u00e5 ett ensamt kontor och g\u00f6ra absolut ingenting. Skoll\u00e4raren och de eviga kvarsittarna f\u00e5r v\u00e4nta. Jag kr\u00e4ver min r\u00e4tt att utnyttja dessa sk\u00e4lvande sista minuter av en s\u00f6ndag i April till att bara sitta h\u00e4r p\u00e5 min stol. G\u00f6ra ingenting annat \u00e4n att lyssna och n\u00e4stan inte ens det.<\/p>\n<p>Jo lyssna p\u00e5 ett hj\u00e4rta som sl\u00e5r d\u00e4r inne i br\u00f6stet m\u00e5ste jag en stund. Hur m\u00e5nga slag har det slagit fram tills nu? Hur m\u00e5nga har det hoppat \u00f6ver? Hur l\u00e4nge kommer det att forts\u00e4tta att sl\u00e5? Man vet inte. Vill inte veta. \u00c4r glad som ett barn f\u00f6r nya oskrivna dagar. De man f\u00e5r som \u00f6verasknings\u00e4gg om man nu vaknar imorgon efter att ha sovit de d\u00e4r timmarna man nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 m\u00e5ste sova.<\/p>\n<p>Ja, jag \u00e4r tr\u00f6tt. Skall nog pallra mig upp. Boken d\u00e4r vid nattduksbordet drar ocks\u00e5. De \u00e4r bra. L\u00e4sv\u00e4rd p\u00e5 alla s\u00e4tt. Ja jag hoppas p\u00e5 en dag imorgon ocks\u00e5. Den man inte vet ett dugg om nu. Bra eller d\u00e5lig. Oskriven. Kanske \u00e4r det imorgon som himlen faller ner \u00f6ver v\u00e5ra huvuden. Man kan oroa sig f\u00f6r allt. Eller inte. I alla fall det best\u00e4mmer man sj\u00e4lv.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 godnatt om ocks\u00e5 du \u00e4r vaken just nu. F\u00f6rhoppningsvis \u00e5terses vi imorgon. Om inte s\u00e5 hej svejs.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Klockan \u00e4r en kvart f\u00f6re tidig m\u00e5ndag. Jag sitter p\u00e5 kontoret och borde packa ihop mig sj\u00e4lv och mina tankar\u00a0 och pallra mig upp f\u00f6r trappor till bok och s\u00e4ng.\u00a0 D\u00e4r en timmes l\u00e4sa och sen sova f\u00f6r storverk imorgon v\u00e4ntar. Underbara m\u00e5ndag. Ny h\u00e4rlig vecka.\u00a0 Om man vaknar. Inget tas f\u00f6r givet h\u00e4r i [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17614","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":24781,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=24781","url_meta":{"origin":17614,"position":0},"title":"Med en oklump i magen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2017-06-29","format":false,"excerpt":"Det finns liksom inget att oroa sig f\u00f6r. 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