{"id":17366,"date":"2015-04-06T22:29:41","date_gmt":"2015-04-06T21:29:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=17366"},"modified":"2015-04-06T22:29:41","modified_gmt":"2015-04-06T21:29:41","slug":"hugger-sten","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17366","title":{"rendered":"Hugger sten"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Halvjobbardag blev det. Kom ig\u00e5ng till slut och skall alldeles strax ge mig. Tack gode han\/hon\/det\/gud f\u00f6r det. Ig\u00e5ng igen. Kort startstr\u00e4cka. Jag \u00e4r annars en sv\u00e5rstartad j\u00e4vel. Resten f\u00e5r ske imorgon och dan efter det och sen dan efter det. Tills det inte blir fler dagar. <\/p>\n

Funderar p\u00e5 att byta bloggnamn fr\u00e5n “ocool gubbe” till “cool gubbe”. Bara f\u00f6r att j\u00e4vlas liksom. Gissar det retar fler. Eller “Kungen av Lo(o)s”. Ja helvete det skulle ta skruv. S\u00e5nt d\u00e4r har folk sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6r. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r roligt att g\u00f6ra s\u00e5klart. Vi f\u00e5r se vad det blir till slut.<\/p>\n

Fullm\u00e5netider s\u00e5 man sover s\u00e5d\u00e4r ryckigt som man kan g\u00f6ra i fullm\u00e5netider. Ja hellre det s\u00e5klart \u00e4n att ligga vaken. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan jag g\u00f6r det. Mest tack vare b\u00f6ckerna. Innan jag b\u00f6rjade l\u00e4sa som l\u00e4nk mellan vakenliv och s\u00f6mnliv s\u00e5 snurrande tankarna i tornardohastighet n\u00e4r jag skulle sova och inte fan gick det att somna d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Men med en roman i n\u00e4ven kan man l\u00e4sa sig tr\u00f6tt. Hj\u00e4lpa hj\u00e4rnan att ta sig fr\u00e5n det d\u00e4r analyserande l\u00e4get till det dr\u00f6mmande l\u00e4get. Ja man m\u00e5ste inte l\u00e4sa “bra” litteratur d\u00e5 i avseendet utsedd till “bra” av andra. Man kan l\u00e4sa vad som helst som \u00e4r mjukt. Allts\u00e5 inte teknik och vetenskap och s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r. Fantasi. Historier. K\u00e4rlek, Resor. Man f\u00e5r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00f6lja med andra m\u00e4nskor och se v\u00e4rlden genom deras \u00f6gon en stund. Ja det fungerar f\u00f6r mig. Kanske inte f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon annan. Vad vet jag. Jag \u00e4r inte och vill inte bli n\u00e5gons guru. Men delar g\u00e4rna med mig. Jag skyddar inte med patent.<\/p>\n

Imorgon skall jag tamefan b\u00f6rja g\u00e5 igen. M\u00e5ste komma ig\u00e5ng nu. Men hatar att vandra efter v\u00e4garna. Men vad fan skall man g\u00f6ra om man inte kan g\u00e5 n\u00e5gon annanstans. Men helvete det h\u00e4r g\u00e5r tamefan inte. Jod\u00e5 det \u00e4r som att sluta r\u00f6ka. Jag br\u00f6t s\u00f6nder m\u00e5nga halvfulla cigarettpaket och spolade ner i toalettstolen innan jag till slut lyckades. En j\u00e4vla kamp. Men det fungerade till slut. Klarade jag det s\u00e5 skall jag tamefan klara det h\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. HELVETE om jag inte skall. Vi, ja det \u00e4r jag det och alla mina drygt 100 biljoner celler, lika m\u00e5nga virus och lika m\u00e5nga tarmbakterier, f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker fr\u00e5n och med imorgon igen. Nytt liv. Nyliv. Ja tametusan. <\/p>\n

Men det f\u00e5r r\u00e4cka med det h\u00e4r nu. Den h\u00e4r dagen f\u00e5r s\u00e4gas vara gjord. Krypa ner i s\u00e4ngen med boken som skall ta mig \u00f6ver gr\u00e4nsen \u00e4r det som \u00e5terst\u00e5r. Japp till bj\u00f6rken. D\u00e4r jag vilar under n\u00e4tterna. Den vid sj\u00f6n. D\u00e4r jag tr\u00e4nar p\u00e5 att vara l\u00e4tt och smidig som en fj\u00e4ril och p\u00e5 att flyga s\u00e5d\u00e4r h\u00e4rligt vingligt \u00f6ver \u00e4ngen i en ljum bris fr\u00e5n sj\u00f6n som ligger och glittrar d\u00e4r alldeles n\u00e4ra. \u00f6rjar bli ganska bra p\u00e5 det. Syns vi s\u00e5 syns vi. Annars f\u00e5r det vara godnatt h\u00e4r och nu kamrat. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Halvjobbardag blev det. Kom ig\u00e5ng till slut och skall alldeles strax ge mig. Tack gode han\/hon\/det\/gud f\u00f6r det. Ig\u00e5ng igen. Kort startstr\u00e4cka. Jag \u00e4r annars en sv\u00e5rstartad j\u00e4vel. Resten f\u00e5r ske imorgon och dan efter det och sen dan efter det. Tills det inte blir fler dagar. 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