Jag kom av mig. Ja det kan liksom inte hj\u00e4lpas. Tappade texten. Den \u00e4r borta.<\/p>\n
Efter bokf\u00f6ringen.<\/p>\n
F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker hitta tr\u00e5den igen, sn\u00f6ret, repet s\u00e5 att jag kan fatta tag i det och k\u00f6ra p\u00e5. Beh\u00f6ver k\u00f6ra p\u00e5. Saker g\u00f6r sig inte sj\u00e4lva. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 mycket som m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ras ocks\u00e5 efter att bokf\u00f6ringen \u00e4r ikapp. Momsredovisningarna inskickade. Men det \u00e4r alltid mer. Mer i en aldrig sinande str\u00f6m.<\/p>\n
S\u00e5 jag sitter h\u00e4r och tittar p\u00e5 de epileptiskt blinkande lysr\u00f6ren som faktiskt just nu inte blinkar epileptiskt utan bara gl\u00f6der som en d\u00f6ende sol. Jag borde i alla fall byta dom d\u00e4r fyra r\u00f6ren ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att sitta h\u00e4r och skiva skit men jag kommer mig liksom inte f\u00f6r. Det tog stopp. Tv\u00e4rstopp. Bokf\u00f6ringsstopp. Vill sova.<\/p>\n
Hoppet nu \u00e4r mat och nyhetstimme. Kanske somna. Slumra in. Eller d\u00f6 d\u00e4r p\u00e5 soffan. Ja om man orkar g\u00e5 upp f\u00f6r alla trapporna. Annars f\u00e5r man sitta h\u00e4r och ruttna bort. Skulle v\u00e4l bli mumifierad h\u00e4r. Luftfuktighet p\u00e5 20% Uttorkande. Det m\u00e4rks p\u00e5 f\u00f6tterna. Sprickor som \u00e4r halvcentimeter djupa. G\u00f6r ont. F\u00e5r ignoreras. Man har de sprickor man f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar.<\/p>\n
Fl\u00e4kten p\u00e5 windowsburken d\u00e5nar som ett reaplan. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l fortfarande Firefox som g\u00f6r n\u00e5got hemligt. Kanske knycker alla hemligheter p\u00e5 min maskin. Fast det inte finns n\u00e5gra. Knycker \u00e4nd\u00e5. Tror att alla d\u00f6ljer saker. Kan fr\u00e5ga ist\u00e4llet s\u00e5 skickar jag en kopia. Gratis. Slipper skrikande fl\u00e4kt.<\/p>\n
Men skall g\u00f6ra ett f\u00f6rs\u00f6k att r\u00f6ra mig upp\u00e5t. Faller jag p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen s\u00e5 faller jag. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det. Faller jag inte s\u00e5 faller jag \u00e4nd\u00e5. Sen p\u00e5 soffan. Sj\u00e4lens tr\u00f6tthet. Det \u00e4r v\u00e5r.<\/p>\n
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