{"id":16868,"date":"2015-03-06T23:37:38","date_gmt":"2015-03-06T22:37:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=16868"},"modified":"2015-03-06T23:37:38","modified_gmt":"2015-03-06T22:37:38","slug":"nar-man-fortfarande-kanner","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16868","title":{"rendered":"N\u00e4r man fortfarande k\u00e4nner"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Jag har fyllt pellets f\u00f6r natten. Jag har sett skit p\u00e5 tv. Kastat bort liv. Men somnat s\u00e5klart. Vad kan man annars g\u00f6ra. Det finns hur mycket film som helst. Hur mycket underh\u00e5llning som helst. Allt inom en armsl\u00e4ngds avst\u00e5nd. Men allt \u00e4r ytligt, enkelt, f\u00f6rdummande.<\/p>\n

Eller tv\u00e4rt om.<\/p>\n

Kanske \u00e4r det jag som \u00e4r s\u00e5 korkad att jag inte kan ta till mig storheten i alla de d\u00e4r lekprogram, alla Amerikanska filmer gjorda efter valfiskmodellen, samma historia ber\u00e4ttad om och om och om och om igen.\u00a0 Eller Svenska serier med stolpig dialog d\u00e4r man allts\u00e5 inte ens orkar f\u00e5r till det trov\u00e4rdiga r\u00e4tt. D\u00e4r man inte har tid att ens g\u00f6ra sitt jobb. Kanske \u00e4r det bara mig det \u00e4r fel p\u00e5. Antagligen och troligen. Som vanligt.<\/p>\n

Jag kan inte hj\u00e4lpa det men jag k\u00e4nner fortfarande d\u00e4r inne n\u00e5gonstans. P\u00e5 riktigt. Vill forts\u00e4tta och g\u00f6ra det. Vill utmanas i mitt v\u00e4sen. Vill inte f\u00e5 allt bekv\u00e4mt serverat, vakumpackat och ofarligt utan smaker och dofter som kan st\u00f6ra en endaste en. Jag vill ha h\u00f6gt och l\u00e5gt. Rus och nykterhet. Dalar och toppar. Liv f\u00f6r helvete. Inte den h\u00e4r geggan.<\/p>\n

Skulle kunna s\u00e4tta mig och jobba nu. Ja verkligen. Men det f\u00e5r bli imorgon. Anst\u00e4ndigheten s\u00e4ger mig det.\u00a0 Man borde l\u00e4sa och sen sova. Fredagskv\u00e4llen \u00e4r \u00f6ver och helgmonstret har redan tagit en stor tugga av helgen. F\u00f6rv\u00e4ntningskv\u00e4llen n\u00e4r man har hela helgen framf\u00f6r sig \u00e4r borta n\u00e4r jag snart g\u00e5r upp och borstar t\u00e4nderna. Helgen \u00e4r n\u00e4sta slut i och med det. Ja det vet man ju. Men jag har iof inget emot m\u00e5ndagar heller. Gillar att ha en hel arbetsvecka framf\u00f6r mig. Numera g\u00e5r de precis lika fort som helgerna. Hejda tiden s\u00e5 man hinner med. Men det g\u00e5r s\u00e5klart inte. Man f\u00e5r springa, lubba, snabba p\u00e5 s\u00e5 man inte hamnar efter. Kanske \u00e4r det just det man hart gjort. Den nya tiden kanske best\u00e5r av stolpiga dialoger och ot\u00e4nk tv. Jaha. jaha f\u00e5r man s\u00e4ga och sacka efter \u00e4nnu mer. L\u00e5ta det d\u00e4r t\u00e5get k\u00f6ra vidare f\u00f6r att man inte l\u00e4ngre vill f\u00f6lja med.<\/p>\n

Godnatt!<\/p>\n

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Jag har fyllt pellets f\u00f6r natten. Jag har sett skit p\u00e5 tv. Kastat bort liv. Men somnat s\u00e5klart. Vad kan man annars g\u00f6ra. Det finns hur mycket film som helst. Hur mycket underh\u00e5llning som helst. Allt inom en armsl\u00e4ngds avst\u00e5nd. Men allt \u00e4r ytligt, enkelt, f\u00f6rdummande. Eller tv\u00e4rt om. Kanske \u00e4r det jag som \u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16868","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":16860,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16860","url_meta":{"origin":16868,"position":0},"title":"Projekten och tvivlet","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-03-06","format":false,"excerpt":"Halva dagen g\u00e5r \u00e5t till st\u00e4dning h\u00e4r idag. 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