{"id":16845,"date":"2015-03-05T23:51:18","date_gmt":"2015-03-05T22:51:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=16845"},"modified":"2015-03-05T23:51:18","modified_gmt":"2015-03-05T22:51:18","slug":"halv-tolv-och-det-ar-over","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16845","title":{"rendered":"Halv tolv och det \u00e4r \u00f6ver"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/halvtolv.jpeg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-16846\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/halvtolv.jpeg?resize=334%2C450\" alt=\"halvtolv\" width=\"334\" height=\"450\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Klockan \u00e4r halv tolv och jag t\u00e4nker ge mig f\u00f6r idag. Bara \u00f6nska adj\u00f6 h\u00e4r p\u00e5 bloggen innan jag reser mig upp och l\u00e4mnar kontoret. I min \u00e5lder kan man inte vara s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att man vaknar imorgon. Eller det g\u00e4ller v\u00e4l varje \u00e5lder egentligen. Vem vet s\u00e5 mycket om framtiden och speciellt om natten. Dr\u00f6mmarna kan dra iv\u00e4g med en till platser man aldrig kommer tillbaks ifr\u00e5n igen. Det har h\u00e4nt fler \u00e4n en.<\/p>\n<p>Men jag har f\u00f6rlikat mig med det d\u00e4r. Att allt tar slut snart. Visst \u00e4r jag nyfiken p\u00e5 allt det d\u00e4r som skall komma och som man bara anar just nu. Nyfiken p\u00e5 hur det g\u00e5r f\u00f6r barnen. Men man kommer inte f\u00e5 vara med j\u00e4mt. N\u00e5gonstans m\u00e5ste man l\u00e4mna \u00f6ver till andra. D\u00f6 bort och l\u00e4mna utrymme. Bli g\u00f6dning till blommor och ogr\u00e4s.<\/p>\n<p>Sj\u00e4lv t\u00e4nker jag bli fj\u00e4ril i n\u00e4sta liv. Ja om man nu f\u00e5r v\u00e4lja. Och om det blir n\u00e5got. Blir det bara svart s\u00e5 \u00e4r det ju som det \u00e4r. Men\u00a0 fj\u00e4ril annars allts\u00e5. Det beh\u00f6ver inte vara n\u00e5gon m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdig sort. Bara jag f\u00e5r flyga och vingla runt i varma sommarvindar en sommar. Ja det vill jag. Sen kan jag bli n\u00e5tt v\u00e4rdel\u00f6st efter det. Kvalster, en lus eller mygga. S\u00e5 att jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r v\u00e4rdet med att vara en. Jo jag g\u00f6r det v\u00e4l idag ocks\u00e5 om sanningen skall fram. Men om man lever ett liv som lus antar jag att man p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt som man lever sitt liv som m\u00e4nniska uppskattar l\u00f6ss mer. S\u00e4tter l\u00f6ssen i centrum liksom. Som de som st\u00e5r h\u00f6gst i n\u00e4ringskedjan p\u00e5 jorden.<\/p>\n<p>Dokumenterat idag ocks\u00e5. Sida upp och sida ner. Det \u00e4r liksom frig\u00f6rande att svamla lite h\u00e4r ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att skriva det d\u00e4r tekniskt tr\u00e5kiga. Har varit in p\u00e5 Lundells blogg s\u00e4kert tio g\u00e5nger idag. Vill lyftas lite av hans fantastiska ord. Men inget lyft idag. Man f\u00e5r l\u00e4nga. Han \u00e4r i sanningen m\u00e4staren med orden. De fungerar i alla fall p\u00e5 mig. Men jag antar att en blogg av Per Persson ocks\u00e5 skulle vara l\u00e4sv\u00e4rd.\u00a0 De d\u00e4r textoraklen har det liksom i sig. Vi vanliga f\u00e5r falla p kn\u00e4 och vara j\u00e4vligt glada att vi f\u00e5r ta del av det d\u00e4r-<\/p>\n<p>Men som jag sa klockan \u00e4r&#8230; ja kvart i tolv nu. N\u00e4 fylla lite pellets i Hulkens mage sen vandra upp f\u00f6r tandborstning och en djupdykning i min bok en timme d\u00e4r i knarriga s\u00e4ngen. If\u00e5nen b\u00f6rjar hoppa d\u00e4r bredvid mig imorgon vid sju. Det g\u00f6r den r\u00e4tt i. D\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag antingen \u00e4r d\u00f6d eller sugen igen. Kanske finns mellantillst\u00e5nd ocks\u00e5. Vad vet jag.\u00a0 Men om jag lever vill jag leva. Det \u00e4r jag s\u00e4ker p\u00e5. Men det skall st\u00e4das efter tekoppen imorgon. N\u00e5gon nytta skall ocks\u00e5 jag g\u00f6ra h\u00e4r hemma. Ja det tycker jag. Men med lite musik i \u00f6ronen s\u00e5 borde det g\u00e5 det ocks\u00e5 precis som det brukar g\u00f6r annars. Man skall inte t\u00e4nka f\u00f6r mycket p\u00e5 s\u00e5nt heller. K har r\u00e4tt. Jag har fel.<\/p>\n<p>Godnatt!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Klockan \u00e4r halv tolv och jag t\u00e4nker ge mig f\u00f6r idag. Bara \u00f6nska adj\u00f6 h\u00e4r p\u00e5 bloggen innan jag reser mig upp och l\u00e4mnar kontoret. I min \u00e5lder kan man inte vara s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att man vaknar imorgon. Eller det g\u00e4ller v\u00e4l varje \u00e5lder egentligen. Vem vet s\u00e5 mycket om framtiden och speciellt om natten. 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