{"id":16486,"date":"2015-02-12T20:38:08","date_gmt":"2015-02-12T19:38:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=16486"},"modified":"2015-02-12T20:38:08","modified_gmt":"2015-02-12T19:38:08","slug":"ja-javlar-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16486","title":{"rendered":"Ja j\u00e4vlar."},"content":{"rendered":"

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Kropp och sj\u00e4l i fullst\u00e4ndig samklang skriker \u00e5t mig, “vila m\u00e4nniska”, fast g\u00f6r det med versaler i samband med att jag reser mig och g\u00e5r ner f\u00f6r trapporna ned till kontoret f\u00f6r skift tv\u00e5 efter nyhetstimmen. Jo jag lyssnar, det g\u00f6r jag verkligen, jo jag g\u00f6r det och jag vet att jag beh\u00f6ver vila och att inte lyssna p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r r\u00f6sten pl\u00e5gar kroppen, pl\u00e5gar sj\u00e4len, br\u00e4nner ljuset i b\u00e5da \u00e4ndar, f\u00f6rkortar liv. Men har jag egentligen n\u00e5got val? Nej. Skall man f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra v\u00e4rlden f\u00e5r man ligga i. Det g\u00e4ller ocks\u00e5 ett litet rostigt kugghjul, det som \u00e4r mitt alias.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 ner vandrar jag och v\u00e4rmer upp lite med det h\u00e4r blogginl\u00e4gget. Ett kort ett. Text f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 ig\u00e5ng fingrar och v\u00e4cka en feberseg hj\u00e4rna. Men det \u00e4r bara s\u00e5 att jag s\u00e4llan har feber. Det k\u00e4nns bara s\u00e5 ibland. Men s\u00e4llan verklig feber. Mitt immunf\u00f6rsvar sparar tydligen febervapnet till sist. Skitsamma. N\u00e4r man kommer ig\u00e5ng m\u00e4rker man inget av det d\u00e4r. G\u00f6r man det stillas det med en Alvedon. R\u00e4cker inte det f\u00e5r man ta tv\u00e5. Men aldrig mer \u00e4n tv\u00e5. Beh\u00f6vs det fler d\u00e5 stannar jag uppe. Idag anv\u00e4nder jag inte ens det tricket. Bara viljestyrkan. <\/p>\n

Borde vara i Eindhoven den andra Juni. Borde men kommer inte att vara. Men just det d\u00e4r med att resa och tr\u00e4ffa likasinnade \u00e4r s\u00e5klart det som man saknar mest n\u00e4r man sitter s\u00e5h\u00e4r. Fast de ger s\u00e4llan s\u00e5 mycket som man kan tro \u00e4nd\u00e5 de d\u00e4r sammankomsterna. Det \u00e4r ofta m\u00e4nniskor som f\u00f6rel\u00e4ser \u00e4ven d\u00e4r det kunde vara diskussioner. En del vet helt enkelt b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n vi andra. Tycker vi skall h\u00e5lla tyst och lyssna p\u00e5 dem som vet mer. Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r jag d\u00e5lig p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart. Dumheter ger jag inte mycket f\u00f6r. Kan s\u00e4llan h\u00e5lla mig fr\u00e5n att framf\u00f6ra det heller. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan popul\u00e4rt.<\/p>\n

Men som sagt det blir inga fler ord i on\u00f6dan idag. Jag skall n\u00e4mligen jobba. Eller l\u00e5tsasjobba d\u00e5. Koda. F\u00f6r\u00e4ndra v\u00e4rden. Leka. Sitta av tid till ingen nytta. Man kan se p\u00e5 det p\u00e5 olika s\u00e4tt. Ingen vinkling \u00e4r v\u00e4l helt fel. Saker ser helt enkelt olika ut fr\u00e5n olika h\u00e5ll. Sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n s\u00e5 \u00e4r det inte och man beh\u00f6ver inte ta sig sj\u00e4lv p\u00e5 s\u00e5 stort allvar eller hur PO Tidholm. Det sista var bara f\u00f6r att s\u00f6k hooken skulle tvinga dig hit du H\u00e4lsingske medborgare. Inget annat. Ta det lugnt ta en toy. Gratis musik har du h\u00e4r<\/a>. Alla andra med f\u00f6r den delen. Men det skramlar s\u00e5klart. F\u00f6r mycket f\u00f6r pimpinetta \u00f6ron. Ja j\u00e4vlar. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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Jo jag lyssnar, det g\u00f6r jag verkligen, jo jag g\u00f6r det och jag vet att jag beh\u00f6ver vila och […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16486","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":42276,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=42276","url_meta":{"origin":16486,"position":0},"title":"Det som suger","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2022-07-11","format":false,"excerpt":"Man vilar. 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