{"id":16359,"date":"2015-02-04T09:31:16","date_gmt":"2015-02-04T08:31:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=16359"},"modified":"2015-02-04T09:31:16","modified_gmt":"2015-02-04T08:31:16","slug":"simma-min-van","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16359","title":{"rendered":"Simma min v\u00e4n"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/10\/20141261820463440945996_sbig.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-15217\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/10\/20141261820463440945996_sbig.jpg?resize=495%2C354\" alt=\"20141261820463440945996_sbig\" width=\"495\" height=\"354\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Det \u00e4r morgon h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen med det stora gula huset. En order ligger i inboxen n\u00e4r jag kommer ner till kontoret. En bra start p\u00e5 dagen allts\u00e5. G\u00e5rdagens bugghittande, om nu ett fel i ett byggskript verkligen kan kallas bugg, hj\u00e4lper s\u00e5klart ocks\u00e5. Jag \u00e4r tr\u00f6tt, \u00f6gonen g\u00e5r i kors, det \u00e4r varmt i huset, f\u00f6r varmt, jag shuntade upp f\u00f6r mycket ig\u00e5r. Hulken klagar inte, k\u00e4kar bara mer pellets och levererar. Jag inser att jag borde ha st\u00e4ngt igen boken tidigare men k\u00e4nner att om jag gjort det s\u00e5 s\u00e5 har huvudet bara snurrat vidare med jobbet, jobbet och jobbet och jag hade \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte kunnat somna.\u00a0 Jag var f\u00f6r l\u00e5ngt inne i koncentrationen f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 tankarna att stillna. S\u00e5 jag l\u00e4ser tills det inte g\u00e5r att l\u00e4sa mer, tills det inte g\u00e5r att t\u00e4nka mer och somnar sen som ett litet barn. Nu n\u00e5gra timmar senare sitter jag h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret och det tr\u00f6tta i mig h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att flyktas s\u00e5 sakta med hj\u00e4lp av te och en vilja att g\u00e5 fram\u00e5t.<\/p>\n<p>Utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret \u00e4ter sm\u00e5f\u00e5glarna som galna. De beh\u00f6ver mycket energi nu n\u00e4r temperaturen kryper eller snarare joggar ner mot femton minus. Jag m\u00e5ste \u00e5ka ner til aff\u00e4ren och k\u00f6pa en till s\u00e4ck fr\u00f6n inser jag. De b\u00f6rjar bli slut. Har man v\u00e4l b\u00f6rjat mata f\u00e5glarna s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man inte sluta. Man har liksom tagit ansvaret f\u00f6r deras liv den h\u00e4r vintern. Sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n s\u00e5 \u00e4r det inte.<\/p>\n<p>Tekoppen \u00e4r urdrucken. Lillkatten har redan b\u00f6rjat tr\u00f6ttna p\u00e5 tr\u00e5kig kontorstillvaro och vill bli utsl\u00e4ppt. Jag skall packa det som skall packas och sen kasta mig in i koden igen. Som en simmare som g\u00e5r upp fem varje morgon, g\u00f6r det i i m\u00f6rkret innan simhallen \u00f6ppnar, som simmar sina rundor dag ut och dag in, det finns inget slut, aldrig. Ja tills man sjunker till botten d\u00e5. N\u00e4r armarna inte tar en fram\u00e5t. N\u00e4r kroppen bara sjunker och man \u00e4r tvungen att ta det d\u00e4r f\u00f6rsta andetaget vatten.Simhallen \u00e4r ju inte \u00f6ppen. Man \u00e4r sj\u00e4lv d\u00e4r i bass\u00e4ngen. Det finns ingen som kan hj\u00e4lpa.\u00a0 Stilla faller man ner mot botten n\u00e4r lungorna fylls med vatten. Vattenytan glittrar d\u00e4r ovanf\u00f6r men man kan inte n\u00e5 den. Kan inte, vill kanske inte heller. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 vackert. S\u00e5 stillsamt. Lugn till slut.\u00a0 Man har simmat klart.<\/p>\n<p>Men det \u00e4r d\u00e5 det. Nu v\u00e4ntar n\u00e5gra rundor i femtiometersbass\u00e4ngen. Jag har inget problem med att de \u00e4r ganska lika de som gjordes ig\u00e5r och i f\u00f6rrg\u00e5r och dan f\u00f6re den. Det \u00e4r fram\u00e5t som g\u00e4ller, alltid fram\u00e5t. Trotts allt \u00e4r det s\u00e5 det \u00e4r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Det \u00e4r morgon h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen med det stora gula huset. En order ligger i inboxen n\u00e4r jag kommer ner till kontoret. En bra start p\u00e5 dagen allts\u00e5. G\u00e5rdagens bugghittande, om nu ett fel i ett byggskript verkligen kan kallas bugg, hj\u00e4lper s\u00e5klart ocks\u00e5. 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