Helgen slut. Helslut kan man s\u00e4ga nu vid pass halv tolv p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen. Jag \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 slut, men har vilat den mesta tiden av helgen. L\u00e4st och sovit. Jobbat bara idag p\u00e5 eftermiddagen och kv\u00e4llen. Hunnit ikapp. Kamrater ute i v\u00e4rlden har varit aktiva. De vaknar till liv p\u00e5 fredagskv\u00e4llarna. Har inga liv tydligen i andra avseenden. Vet att det finns missn\u00f6jda fruar bakom var och en av dem. Till slut f\u00e5r de sk\u00e4rpa sig. Inte sitta d\u00e4r fredag, l\u00f6rdag och s\u00f6ndag. V\u00e4lja en dag, eller ingen, eller ocks\u00e5 lyssnar de inte och s\u00e5 sitter de d\u00e4r i alla fall. Alla g\u00f6r sina val. En del har inte ens val. Det blir som det blir \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n
Minusgrader ute s\u00e5klart. \u00c5tta stycken. Inget att gn\u00e4lla \u00f6ver. Varmt inne. Fast jag fryser \u00e4nd\u00e5, f\u00f6r det mesta, eller j\u00e4mt. Det \u00e4r bara under t\u00e4cket n\u00e4r jag somnar som jag \u00e4r varm. Tror jag. Fryser nog d\u00e5 med men har ingen aning om det. Tack gode han\/hon\/det\/gud f\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n
Men l\u00e4ser allts\u00e5. Det \u00e4r h\u00e4rligt. F\u00f6rra veckan var s\u00e5 seg och jag s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt och less att det liksom inte fanns n\u00e5got annat val. Borde ha renoverat rum. Men orkade allts\u00e5 inte det heller. Slut som m\u00e4nniska. Gammal. \u00c5ldrad.<\/p>\n
Nyheterna \u00e4r som vanligt s\u00e5 deprimerande att man undrar varf\u00f6r man \u00f6vertaget tittar. Vilken skitv\u00e4rld vi lever i. Vi som skulle kunna ha det hyr j\u00e4vla bra som helst. Kunde jag skulle jag \u00e5ka ut i v\u00e4rlden och samla ihop alla religi\u00f6sa skrifter och l\u00e4gga dem p\u00e5 ett stort b\u00e5l och sen tutta p\u00e5. Ja varenda en. Sen skulle jag riva alla kyrkor och tempel. Japp varenda ett. Utpl\u00e5na sp\u00e5ren av han\/hon\/det\/gud som alla falska profeter har f\u00f6rkunnat. Sen skulle jag rulla ut en r\u00f6d matta och bjuda in universum och sanningen och han\/hon\/det\/gud skulle med sitt ljus utpl\u00e5na alla minnen av all den d\u00e4r sm\u00f6rjan och g\u00f6ra oss alla till likv\u00e4rdiga, br\u00f6der och systrar.<\/p>\n
Ja det skulle jag vilja…<\/p>\n
Men…<\/p>\n
Kanske inte kan…<\/p>\n
Har i.o.f. inte provat. Har inte haft tid. \u00c4n. Kanske sen.<\/p>\n
Nu skall jag sova, inte frysa, gl\u00f6mma den h\u00e4r f\u00f6rbannade v\u00e4rlden en stund. Boko Haram, m\u00e5 ni bli till stenstoder men vakna d\u00e4r i och medvetna n\u00e4r hundarna pissar p\u00e5 er. Japp det \u00e4r min b\u00f6r just idag.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Helgen slut. Helslut kan man s\u00e4ga nu vid pass halv tolv p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen. Jag \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 slut, men har vilat den mesta tiden av helgen. L\u00e4st och sovit. Jobbat bara idag p\u00e5 eftermiddagen och kv\u00e4llen. Hunnit ikapp. Kamrater ute i v\u00e4rlden har varit aktiva. De vaknar till liv p\u00e5 fredagskv\u00e4llarna. Har inga liv tydligen i […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16262","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":10048,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=10048","url_meta":{"origin":16262,"position":0},"title":"“Man f\u00e5r nog b\u00e4ra sj\u00e4lv som man alltid burit, bar och b\u00e4r.”","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-09-24","format":false,"excerpt":"Jag h\u00e5ller emot allt jag kan. 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