{"id":16020,"date":"2015-01-07T09:55:07","date_gmt":"2015-01-07T08:55:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=16020"},"modified":"2015-12-19T17:33:00","modified_gmt":"2015-12-19T16:33:00","slug":"oxdragarveckor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16020","title":{"rendered":"Oxdragarveckor"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Jag t\u00e4nder ljuset, har precis \u00e4ntrat kontoret. F\u00f6r tr\u00f6tt f\u00f6r ett leende n\u00e4r jag stiger in igenom d\u00f6rren, men magen ler \u00e4nd\u00e5 i den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan, kurrar till, h\u00e4r vill den vara, och jag vet att hj\u00e4rnan och resten av kroppen \u00e4r med p\u00e5 det hela ocks\u00e5. Jag kliver upp sent. Men inte f\u00f6r sent. Sover en timme l\u00e4ngre \u00e4n vanligt. Det \u00e4r liksom halvhelg de h\u00e4r dagarna. Men jobba skall jag s\u00e5klart. Det finns mycket att g\u00f6ra och livet \u00e4r kort.<\/p>\n

Nu \u00e4r det oxdragarveckor. Julen skall bort, m\u00f6rdad gran skall kastas bort. \u00c4n finns det kakor och praliner kvar. Rester av det stora vansinnet, det goda livet. Frysen f\u00e5r sv\u00e4lja allt det d\u00e4r. Sj\u00e4lv m\u00e5ste jag ut och promenera. F\u00f6r livet. Jag borde ha kommit ut redan, beblandat mig med uppf\u00f6rsbackarna, de kalla vindarna och den riktiga v\u00e4rlden. Men sl\u00f6heten binder fast mig i stolen och koden. Jo jag gillar att sitta d\u00e4r, men vet ocks\u00e5 att promenerar jag den d\u00e4r timmen om dan s\u00e5 orkar jag mer, mycket mer, tar igen den d\u00e4r timmen, som innan man g\u00e5r ut, k\u00e4nns som man kastar bort men som man efter\u00e5t \u00e4r himmelskt glad att man la p\u00e5 en promenad. Endorfiner. Morfinets syster. Eller kanske \u00e4r det bror. Vi \u00e4r alla knarkare. De p\u00e5 h\u00f6ga h\u00e4star mest i skiten. Ingen klarar sig fr\u00e5n beroendet.<\/p>\n

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Ja julbelysning och julkulor p\u00e5 bron \u00e5ker iv\u00e4g ocks\u00e5. Fast senare idag. Om man orkar. \u00c4r det oxdragarveckor s\u00e5 \u00e4r det. D\u00e5 skall det inte vara s\u00e5 j\u00e4vla glatt. Julen \u00e4r mest ledighet f\u00f6r mig numera. Lite mat ocks\u00e5, men mest ledighet. \u00c4nd\u00e5 \u00e4ter jag f\u00f6r mycket. Vem kan h\u00e5lla sig? Men lite har f\u00f6rsvunnit h\u00e4r. Inga ljusstakar i f\u00f6nstren l\u00e4ngre. Jo en i vindsf\u00f6nstret. Den som syns l\u00e4ngst. Tornar d\u00e4r \u00f6ver byn.<\/p>\n

Det enda som annars h\u00e4nder \u00e4r att vaxet i \u00f6ronen tilltar och luddet i naveln likas\u00e5. Stoppa in pinnar i \u00f6ronen har jag inte v\u00e5gat mig p\u00e5 sedan den d\u00e4r tofsen fastnade. Skulle vara allt f\u00f6r sk\u00e4mmigt att komma dit till l\u00e4karmottagningen en g\u00e5ng till. S\u00e5 vaxet v\u00e4xer till sig. Var i helvete kommer det ifr\u00e5n egentligen och vad har det f\u00f6r funktion? Jag menar luddet i naveln kan man ju f\u00f6rst\u00e5 var det kommer ifr\u00e5n. Ocks\u00e5 syftet. Vad skulle m\u00e4nniskan annars syssla med under de sv\u00e5raste av dagar. Men vax. I \u00f6ronen. Till och med ost vore b\u00e4ttre.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag t\u00e4nder ljuset, har precis \u00e4ntrat kontoret. F\u00f6r tr\u00f6tt f\u00f6r ett leende n\u00e4r jag stiger in igenom d\u00f6rren, men magen ler \u00e4nd\u00e5 i den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan, kurrar till, h\u00e4r vill den vara, och jag vet att hj\u00e4rnan och resten av kroppen \u00e4r med p\u00e5 det hela ocks\u00e5. Jag kliver upp sent. Men inte f\u00f6r sent. 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