{"id":15979,"date":"2015-01-04T15:24:23","date_gmt":"2015-01-04T14:24:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=15979"},"modified":"2015-01-04T15:24:23","modified_gmt":"2015-01-04T14:24:23","slug":"fixa-forst","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=15979","title":{"rendered":"Fixa f\u00f6rst"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Det \u00e4r liksom bara mig det h\u00e4nder. N\u00e4r jag sl\u00e4pper en release s\u00e5 g\u00e5r antalet nedladdningar ner till en femtedel. En g\u00e5ng skulle det ha satt sig p\u00e5 det glada hum\u00f6ret, ja, jag skulle ha blivit lite sm\u00e5deprimerad rent ut av. Men nu har jag tydligen passerat \u00e4nnu en niv\u00e5 mot den fullst\u00e4ndiga galenskapen f\u00f6r jag ber\u00f6rs inte l\u00e4ngre av det d\u00e4r. Kanske \u00e4r det h\u00e4r sista niv\u00e5n.Den fullst\u00e4ndiga galenskapen.\u00a0 Man sitter d\u00e4r och h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med sin grej och f\u00f6rst\u00e5r inte v\u00e4rlden utanf\u00f6r. Men det kan \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte hj\u00e4lpas. Jag tror p\u00e5 det h\u00e4r och s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge ingen annan l\u00f6ser “problemet” s\u00e5 \u00e4r det som det \u00e4r. Tro mig g\u00f6r n\u00e5gon det s\u00e5 \u00e4r jag den f\u00f6rste att hoppa p\u00e5 t\u00e5get. Jag kan t\u00e4nka mig ett b\u00e4ttre liv \u00e4n att bara sitta h\u00e4r och koda och koda men aldrig komma fram till d\u00f6rren.<\/p>\n

Men f\u00e5r f\u00f6rst\u00e5r s\u00e5klart den d\u00e4r kraften som beh\u00f6vs f\u00f6r att g\u00e5 ner till kontoret och s\u00e4tta sig och jobba i ur och skur och \u00e5r efter \u00e5r utan att f\u00e5 n\u00e5got tillbaks. Lyckas man s\u00e5 hyllas man, g\u00f6r man det inte, och det g\u00e4ller \u00e4nd\u00e5 de flesta s\u00e5… ja d\u00e5 \u00e4r det bara det d\u00e4r jobbet. D\u00e5 m\u00e5ste man liksom se sig sj\u00e4lv blickandes tillbaks fr\u00e5n en position i framtiden d\u00e4r inget har h\u00e4nt och st\u00e4lla sig fr\u00e5gan om det \u00e4r v\u00e4rt det. \u00c4r svaret nej \u00e4r det bara att g\u00e5 ut, st\u00e4nga, l\u00e5sa och sl\u00e4nga bort nyckeln. G\u00f6ra n\u00e5got annat. \u00c4r svaret ja s\u00e5 \u00e4r det ju inga problem. Om man bara kommer fram till ett konstaterande. Att det inte finns n\u00e5got val, att det h\u00e4r \u00e4r ens v\u00e4g, ja d\u00e5 beh\u00f6vs det inga vidare funderingar heller.<\/p>\n

Men tid tar det. S\u00e5 m\u00e5nga timmar, dagar, veckor, m\u00e5nader och \u00e5r. Men i det d\u00e4r s\u00e5 hj\u00e4lper musiken, texterna. Fast egentligen \u00e4r det v\u00e4l ingen skillnad med att skriva blogg heller. Det vet alla som best\u00e4mt sig f\u00f6r att skriva minst ett inl\u00e4gg varje dag. De flesta bloggar \u00e4r borta inom ett \u00e5r. N\u00e4stan alla inom tv\u00e5. Samma sak med musiken ocks\u00e5. Man f\u00e5r ta sig en funderare p\u00e5 varf\u00f6r man h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 n\u00e4r antalet l\u00e4sare\/lyssnare inte kommer upp i Blondinbellas\/Mick Jaggers niv\u00e5. F\u00f6r g\u00f6r man verkligen det d\u00e4r av den anledningen? D\u00e5 \u00e4r det nog \u00e4nd\u00e5 b\u00e4ttre att g\u00e5 till en psykoterapeut och betala slantar f\u00f6r att inse faders brist p\u00e5 k\u00e4rlek.Det \u00e4r alltid n\u00e5gon annans fel. Den enkla utv\u00e4gen. Gener fungera ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 jag knappar p\u00e5. Kan nu inte annat. Van vid s\u00e4llskap under n\u00e5gra veckor. N\u00e5gon att prata med. G\u00f6r att det k\u00e4nns tyst och tomt h\u00e4r nere p\u00e5 kontoret. Men jag \u00e4r sugen ocks\u00e5. Utvilad. Vill k\u00f6ra och f\u00e5 resultat. Stora resultat f\u00f6r mig – sm\u00e5 f\u00f6r v\u00e4rlden. Omv\u00e4nda m\u00e5nbes\u00f6karsteg. Trettio personer lyssnar p\u00e5 min l\u00e5t “Mina dr\u00f6mmar \u00e4r inte till salu\/Jag \u00e4r ingen soldat” den 2\/1 2015. Jag vet inte varf\u00f6r. Det \u00e4r konstigt. Men roligt ocks\u00e5. Det lyssnas s\u00e5klart p\u00e5 andra l\u00e5tar ocks\u00e5. “H\u00e4lsingland”, “Kaj”, “Edsbyn”, “En prickig kl\u00e4nning” osv. De d\u00e4r lyssningarna v\u00e4rmer till d\u00e4r inne i mig som en faders uppmuntrande klapp\u00a0 p\u00e5 huvudet n\u00e4r man \u00e4r barn. Gl\u00f6der och finns kvar och ger mig kraft. G\u00f6r att jag och min g\u00e4rning existerar. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5klart detsamma med email fr\u00e5n folk i runt om i v\u00e4rlden med VSCP. Det anv\u00e4nds. Visst det s\u00e4gs s\u00e4llan ett “tack” men man anv\u00e4nder grejerna. N\u00e4r det g\u00e4ller mina kr\u00f6nikor kan man s\u00e5klart inte s\u00e4ga samma sak. D\u00e4r \u00e4r det tystnaden som \u00e4r responsen om man inte skriver n\u00e5got fel s\u00e5klart. D\u00e5 j\u00e4vlar. S\u00e5 n\u00f6jd f\u00e5r man \u00e4nd\u00e5 bara. Det m\u00e5ste man vara. Tre l\u00e5tar till s\u00e5 har jag en till skiva i hamn. Fast heter det “skiva” nu f\u00f6r tiden? Ett album kanske? Eller en samling skrammel. Hur som helst s\u00e5 \u00e4r de d\u00e4r snart. Om jag tar mig tid att s\u00e4tta mig i studion och greja. Hmmmm…. skall bara fixa det h\u00e4r f\u00f6rst…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Det \u00e4r liksom bara mig det h\u00e4nder. N\u00e4r jag sl\u00e4pper en release s\u00e5 g\u00e5r antalet nedladdningar ner till en femtedel. En g\u00e5ng skulle det ha satt sig p\u00e5 det glada hum\u00f6ret, ja, jag skulle ha blivit lite sm\u00e5deprimerad rent ut av. Men nu har jag tydligen passerat \u00e4nnu en niv\u00e5 mot den fullst\u00e4ndiga galenskapen f\u00f6r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15979","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":49078,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49078","url_meta":{"origin":15979,"position":0},"title":"Gott nog","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2025-02-03","format":false,"excerpt":"Photo by KoolShooters on Pexels.com Somnar i soffan efter lunch. 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