{"id":15415,"date":"2014-11-26T08:53:06","date_gmt":"2014-11-26T07:53:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=15415"},"modified":"2014-11-26T08:53:06","modified_gmt":"2014-11-26T07:53:06","slug":"tunnbrod-och-sjukt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=15415","title":{"rendered":"Tunnbr\u00f6d och sjukt"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/Tunnbr_d.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-15416\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/Tunnbr_d-1024x682.jpg?resize=580%2C385\" alt=\"Tunnbr_d\" width=\"580\" height=\"385\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/Tunnbr_d.jpg?resize=1024%2C682&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/Tunnbr_d.jpg?resize=300%2C200&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/Tunnbr_d.jpg?w=1600&amp;ssl=1 1600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/11\/Tunnbr_d.jpg?w=1160&amp;ssl=1 1160w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Sjuk ig\u00e5r. Jag vaknar p\u00e5 m\u00e5ndagsnatten och hela v\u00e4rlden snurrar och kallsvetten fl\u00f6dar. Av n\u00e5gon underlig anledning \u00e4r det s\u00e5 i nittionio av hundra fall f\u00f6r mig att det snurrar i huvudet n\u00e4r jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att bli sjuk. Oklart varf\u00f6r. Men jag stapplar upp och letar upp en hink utifall snurrandet tar sin tribut och somnar sen vad det lider men vaknar s\u00e5klart inte som den piggaste m\u00e4nniskan i v\u00e4rlden. Allts\u00e5 f\u00e5r det bli soffan-under-t\u00e4cke-med-god-bok-dag.<\/p>\n<p>Jag l\u00e4ser och sover. G\u00f6r det i ungef\u00e4r j\u00e4mna proportioner. Blir oerh\u00f6rt uttr\u00e5kad fram mot eftermiddagen. Fyller pellets och h\u00e4mtar posten. Fortfarande snurrig och slut som en uttj\u00e4nt disktrasa, F\u00e5r i mig lite mat och dricker en ny kopp te.Sover, l\u00e4ser och ignorerar de trehundra mail som ackumuleras i inkorgen.<\/p>\n<p>Mot kv\u00e4llen h\u00e5ller ledan av att inte orka g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got, p\u00e5 att ta k\u00e5l p\u00e5 mig. Men jag \u00e4r f\u00f6r slut f\u00f6r att vandra ner f\u00f6r trapporna till kontoret. Det \u00e4r bara s\u00e5. S\u00e5 jag l\u00e4ser och l\u00e4ser och l\u00e4ser tills det liksom \u00e4r godk\u00e4nt att l\u00e4gga sig i sovrummet igen och jag byter liggplats och l\u00e4ser och l\u00e4ser och l\u00e4ser lite till innan jag sv\u00e5rsomnad somnar.<\/p>\n<p>Vaknar piggare idag. Inte helt alert, det skall villigt medges. Men i klaras-med-ett-j\u00e4mt-intag-av-alvedon-och-kan-jobba tillst\u00e5nd \u00e4r jag helt s\u00e4kert. Skall kunna hanka mig fram en dag. Det tror jag. Fru skall baka tunnbr\u00f6d idag i bagarstuga, jag med tydligen, man f\u00e5r st\u00e4lla upp. Bli bagare.<\/p>\n<p>Klart ute. Man ser faktiskt den bl\u00e5 himlen. Det kan vara sk\u00f6nt och uppiggande efter m\u00e5nga gr\u00e5 dagar. T\u00e4nk att alltid leva i det d\u00e4r gr\u00e5. Att aldrig f\u00e5 se bl\u00e5 himmel och sol. Man skulle bli galen helt enkelt. Jag fortare \u00e4n alla andra.<\/p>\n<p>N\u00e4pp, nu skall jag dricka ur min tekopp och s\u00e4tta ig\u00e5ng. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ka l\u00f6da till en ny prototyp innan bagarstugan kallar, imorgon skall vi dra v\u00e4sterut, s\u00e5 veckan \u00e4r ordentligt rumphuggen som den \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 utan sjukdagar och externa sysslor. Men det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r med allt. Det \u00e4r bara jobba p\u00e5 och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka s\u00e5 gott man kan. Man kan liksom inte annat.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sjuk ig\u00e5r. Jag vaknar p\u00e5 m\u00e5ndagsnatten och hela v\u00e4rlden snurrar och kallsvetten fl\u00f6dar. Av n\u00e5gon underlig anledning \u00e4r det s\u00e5 i nittionio av hundra fall f\u00f6r mig att det snurrar i huvudet n\u00e4r jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att bli sjuk. Oklart varf\u00f6r. Men jag stapplar upp och letar upp en hink utifall snurrandet tar sin tribut [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15415","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":3258,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=3258","url_meta":{"origin":15415,"position":0},"title":"S\u00e5 jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-02-21","format":false,"excerpt":"Jag best\u00e4mmer mig f\u00f6r att skippa l\u00e5tsasjobbet f\u00f6r kv\u00e4llen. 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