{"id":15216,"date":"2014-10-29T10:22:12","date_gmt":"2014-10-29T09:22:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=15216"},"modified":"2014-10-29T10:22:12","modified_gmt":"2014-10-29T09:22:12","slug":"bara-lite-till","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=15216","title":{"rendered":"Bara lite till…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Tr\u00f6tt och inte framme. \u00a0Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 l\u00e4get kan beskrivas. Men “tr\u00f6tt” \u00e4r ett understatement i alla avseenden. \u00d6gonen g\u00e5r i kors. Men jag sitter h\u00e4r och har suttit h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontorsstolen ett bra tag. \u00a0Javisst det \u00e4r i det h\u00e4r l\u00e4get man skulle boka flygbiljett s\u00e5 att den l\u00e5g redo och bokad och “ta-en-iv\u00e4g-h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n-klar” n\u00e4r man var “f\u00e4rdig”. N\u00e4r man f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nade vila. Men s\u00e5 blir det ju inte. Nya projekt v\u00e4ntar s\u00e5klart. Tur att “ny” i sig inneb\u00e4r ett visst m\u00e5tt av vila. Det \u00e4r konstigt att det fungerar s\u00e5d\u00e4r. Att byta stol kan r\u00e4cka ibland.<\/p>\n

Just f\u00f6r att jag \u00e4r s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt s\u00e5 segar jag p\u00e5 lite h\u00e4r p\u00e5 morgonen. Svarar p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra mail som kr\u00e4ver lite l\u00e4ngre svar, vattnar blommorna, plockar lite. Allt det d\u00e4r som borde ha gjorts f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan men inte hunnits med. Ja, jag har s\u00e5klart inte tid nu heller egentligen. Men ibland m\u00e5ste man h\u00e4mta den d\u00e4r kraften att forts\u00e4tta l\u00e5ngt d\u00e4r nerifr\u00e5n lillt\u00e5n n\u00e5gonstans. L\u00e5ta tid f\u00f6rflyta i sin egen takt medan den tar sig genom kroppens alla system upp till ett beh\u00f6vande huvud. Jag balanserar p\u00e5 gr\u00e4nsen nu. Jag vet det. “Bara lite till” \u00e4r mantrat som k\u00e4nns som en oerh\u00f6rd f\u00f6rminskning n\u00e4r man hittar en till och en till och en till sak som m\u00e5ste fixas innan release. Finns det ens ett slut? man tvekar, k\u00e4nner sig os\u00e4ker och undrar. Bara vissheten om att det g\u00e5tt f\u00f6rr, att man har varit i den h\u00e4r situationen s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger f\u00f6rut och till slut lyckats sparka ut det d\u00e4r \u00e5b\u00e4ket genom d\u00f6rren \u00e4nd\u00e5. Och som vanligt k\u00e4nns det aldrig mer. Det h\u00e4r med att f\u00f6da. F\u00f6r det \u00e4r ju det det handlar om. Att f\u00f6da. Krysta ut. Aldrig mer. Tills det g\u00e5tt n\u00e5gra veckor och man har gl\u00f6mt allt ihop igen. \u00a0 Vill igenom det igen. Ser fram emot det. Borde inte det d\u00e4r klassas som en sjukdom lika v\u00e4l som ADHD och andra. Jag bara undrar. Det borde finnas Medin och sjukskrivningar och f\u00f6rtidspensionering.<\/p>\n

Det \u00e4r dags i att ta tag i n\u00e5gra rader dokumentation till. Fast jag helst inte skulle vilja skriva ett endaste tecken till. Man m\u00e5ste helt enkelt. Hej s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tr\u00f6tt och inte framme. \u00a0Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 l\u00e4get kan beskrivas. Men “tr\u00f6tt” \u00e4r ett understatement i alla avseenden. \u00d6gonen g\u00e5r i kors. Men jag sitter h\u00e4r och har suttit h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontorsstolen ett bra tag. \u00a0Javisst det \u00e4r i det h\u00e4r l\u00e4get man skulle boka flygbiljett s\u00e5 att den l\u00e5g redo och bokad och “ta-en-iv\u00e4g-h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n-klar” […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15216","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":13140,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=13140","url_meta":{"origin":15216,"position":0},"title":"Freitag und Kafka","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-05-16","format":false,"excerpt":"Ny dag och kontoret k\u00e4nns gott att finnas i som vanligt. 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