{"id":14483,"date":"2014-08-25T07:36:27","date_gmt":"2014-08-25T06:36:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=14483"},"modified":"2014-08-25T07:36:27","modified_gmt":"2014-08-25T06:36:27","slug":"en-halv-kopp","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=14483","title":{"rendered":"En halv kopp"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/08\/Blommor.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-14484\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/08\/Blommor-1024x702.jpg?resize=580%2C397\" alt=\"Blommor\" width=\"580\" height=\"397\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Jo tack. Det har varit en skaplig natt. I alla fall om man bortser fr\u00e5n att jag vaknade vid tretiden r\u00e4tt svetting av att en av mina goda kamrater fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rr f\u00f6rs\u00f6kte sl\u00e5 ihj\u00e4l mig med en k\u00e4pp\u00a0n\u00e4r jag kom in genom l\u00e4genhetsd\u00f6rren. Hade jag inte vaknat vet jag inte alls hur det skulle ha g\u00e5tt. Dr\u00f6mmar \u00e4r underliga och jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r s\u00e4llan mina och minns dem \u00e4nnu mer s\u00e4llan. Att uttyda dem l\u00e4mnar jag \u00e5t dr\u00f6mtydarna. Det handlar v\u00e4l om balans det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Har man ett h\u00e4ndelsel\u00f6st liv som mitt s\u00e5 blir dr\u00f6mmarna mer v\u00e5ldsamma och tv\u00e4rt om.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 jag sitter h\u00e4r med min tekopp igen och tekoppsskriver. Har \u00f6verg\u00e5tt p\u00e5 f\u00f6rs\u00f6k fr\u00e5n stor kopp till en mindre kopp. Vi f\u00e5r se hur det p\u00e5verkar texterna i forts\u00e4ttningen. Om det nu blir n\u00e5gra. S\u00e5nt vet man aldrig. Men antagligen kan jag inte h\u00e5lla mig. Jag \u00e4r en lustdriven m\u00e4nniska hur det nu \u00e4n \u00e4r.<\/p>\n<p>Ute h\u00e4nger en t\u00e4t fuktig dimma \u00f6ver kullen med det stora gula huset. En s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r som omsluter v\u00e4rlden och s\u00e4ger &#8220;t\u00e4nd en brasa och stanna inne idag&#8221;. Brasa har jag d\u00e5 tyv\u00e4rr \u00e4nnu inte h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret, \u00e4ven om jag har kaminer. De st\u00e5r d\u00e4r omonterade \u00e4nnu. Det d\u00e4r m\u00e5ste l\u00f6sas. Vet inte hur. Pengar \u00e4r dilemmat som vanligt. Men nu den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret \u00a0skulle det vara mysigt att kunna peta in n\u00e5gra vedtr\u00e4n ibland och ha den d\u00e4r kontrollerade elden sprakandes. Hj\u00e4lper till med att v\u00e4rma ocks\u00e5 d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Men r\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r s\u00e5 \u00e4r det d\u00e4r l\u00f6st ocks\u00e5. Man f\u00e5r prioritera sig vidare genom livet och se s\u00e5 positivt man kan p\u00e5 utvecklingen av det som komma skall.<\/p>\n<p>Nils-Olov, v\u00e5r pelletsleverant\u00f6r, ringer precis och vill k\u00f6ra \u00f6ver tio pall pellets. Mycket pellets blir det p\u00e5 en g\u00e5ng med jag beh\u00f6ver motionen som det ger att b\u00e4ra in den, det \u00e4r helt s\u00e4kert. S\u00e5 det blir nog bra. Men \u00e4nnu ett tag f\u00e5r den nog ligga oeldad, i alla fall f\u00e5r man hoppas det. September brukar vi kunna hanka oss fram igenom ocks\u00e5 innan Hulken, v\u00e5r pelletsmaskin, k\u00f6rs ig\u00e5ng p\u00e5 allvar d\u00e4r n\u00e5gonstans i frostens Oktober. T\u00e4nk vad sk\u00f6nt det skulle ha varit att bo i ett land d\u00e4r man slapp frysa under halva \u00e5ret. D\u00e4r en kofta ar enda eftergiften f\u00f6r vintern. Men nu bor man d\u00e4r man bor. I alla fall f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet. \u00a0Det ligger en oro ocks\u00e5 \u00f6ver de d\u00e4r vinterm\u00e5naderna. Jag lever i n\u00e5gon slags symbios med den d\u00e4r pannan under den d\u00e4r tiden. K\u00e4nner n\u00e4r det \u00e4r n\u00e5got fel. Pratar med den och donar med den. Och \u00e4ven om jag kan laga det mesta s\u00e5 vill man ju inte att det skall g\u00e5 s\u00f6nder. F\u00f6r n\u00e4r det g\u00f6r det s\u00e5 h\u00e4nder det alltid n\u00e4r det \u00e4r som kallast, \u00e4r natt eller n\u00e4r man har fullt upp med andra grejer. Men med ocks\u00e5 detta \u00e4r det som det \u00e4r. Man f\u00e5r st\u00e5 ut och k\u00e4mpa p\u00e5,. Inte fundera s\u00e5 mycket.<\/p>\n<p>Ja tekoppen \u00e4r urdrucken. Det finns jobb att g\u00f6ra. S\u00e5 varf\u00f6r inte hugga i och k\u00f6ra ig\u00e5ng den h\u00e4r dagen. Jag tror \u00e4nd\u00e5 att det blir en bra dag. Det k\u00e4nns s\u00e5, \u00e4ven om tungsinnet lurar d\u00e4r uppe i huvudet och vill s\u00e4nka mig. Man f\u00e5r trycka undan och koncentrera sig p\u00e5 jobbet. Det fungerar f\u00f6r det mesta. Det \u00e4r en flykt det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart. En flykt jag hade gemensamt med min far. Skit samma, nu k\u00f6r vi.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jo tack. Det har varit en skaplig natt. I alla fall om man bortser fr\u00e5n att jag vaknade vid tretiden r\u00e4tt svetting av att en av mina goda kamrater fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rr f\u00f6rs\u00f6kte sl\u00e5 ihj\u00e4l mig med en k\u00e4pp\u00a0n\u00e4r jag kom in genom l\u00e4genhetsd\u00f6rren. Hade jag inte vaknat vet jag inte alls hur det skulle ha [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14483","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":38828,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=38828","url_meta":{"origin":14483,"position":0},"title":"En riktig spya","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2021-05-18","format":false,"excerpt":"Jag stoppar tv\u00e5 fingrar i halsen. 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