{"id":13704,"date":"2014-07-01T10:15:53","date_gmt":"2014-07-01T09:15:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=13704"},"modified":"2014-07-01T10:15:53","modified_gmt":"2014-07-01T09:15:53","slug":"fornojsamheten-larde-jag-mig-for-lange-lange-sedan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=13704","title":{"rendered":"F\u00f6rn\u00f6jsamheten l\u00e4rde jag mig f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge, l\u00e4nge sedan."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/sol.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-13705\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/sol.jpg?resize=1%2C1\" alt=\"sol\" width=\"1\" height=\"1\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Tisdag, nio grader ute, jag sitter p\u00e5 kontoret. Jag har sovit lite l\u00e4ngre. F\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar det efter en veckas semester. M\u00f6jligtvis \u00e4r det tv\u00e4rt om. Men mjukstart \u00e4r det i alla fall. Skiter i det. H\u00e4r finns saker att g\u00f6ra s\u00e5klart. Det \u00e4r alltid p\u00e5 det viset. Det finns mer att g\u00f6ra \u00e4n en o-cool gubbe m\u00e4ktar med i varje \u00f6gonblick. Man f\u00e5r skjuta undan, blunda och skjuta undan f\u00f6r att orka leva. Hoppas att man f\u00e5r vara med ett tag till f\u00f6r att i alla fall beta av n\u00e5gra av punkterna p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r att-g\u00f6ra-listan.<\/p>\n<p>Katterna m\u00e5r gott. Lugnet \u00e4r \u00e5terst\u00e4llt. De d\u00e4r som ger mat och v\u00e4rme \u00e4r hemma igen och det finns hopp om morgondagen tycks de fundera. Jag har lite sv\u00e5rt att t\u00e4nka mig en tillvaro utan katt. De har mycket att l\u00e4ra en. Tar aldrig skit, g\u00e5r sina egna v\u00e4gar och flyttar om det inte passar. Respekt. Lite, lite, l\u00e4r man sig av dem. Men aldrig tillr\u00e4ckligt. 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Det vet jag best\u00e4mt.<\/p>\n<p>Sitter gott i min nya stol. Det st\u00e5r en till framf\u00f6r kontrollbordet i studion. \u00c4nnu en sk\u00f6n framf\u00f6r l\u00f6dstationen. Sitter man mycket skall man sitta bra. Pinnvarianterna blir \u00f6ver nu. De som ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r gamla stolar h\u00e4mtade p\u00e5 n\u00e5got \u00f6verskottslager. Sl\u00f6sar inte p\u00e5 fl\u00e4rd f\u00f6r mig sj\u00e4lv. Det kan ingen s\u00e4ga. Det \u00e4r till id\u00e9erna som mina pengar g\u00e5r. \u00a0Familjen skall ha sitt ocks\u00e5. Just nu \u00e4r jag t\u00e4rande d\u00e4r. Men har v\u00e4l bidragit jag med. Id\u00e9erna har f\u00e5tt st\u00e5 tillbaks som f\u00f6r de flesta andra. Men just nu spelar det ingen roll. Hoppas bara att jag kan ge tillbaks en dag. R\u00e4ttvisa \u00e4r ingen sj\u00e4lvklarhet. M\u00f6jligen \u00f6ver m\u00e5nga liv men aldrig \u00f6ver ett enda. Det l\u00e4r sig n\u00e4stan alla till slut. F\u00f6rn\u00f6jsamheten l\u00e4rde jag mig f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge, l\u00e4nge sedan.<\/p>\n<p>Ynka 948 mBar s\u00e4ger barometern. Utetemperaturen har smugit upp en halv grad medan jag skriver det h\u00e4r, 83% fuktighet talar sitt tydliga spr\u00e5k. Inte fan \u00e4r det sommar. Det \u00e4r istid. Inte ens Pavarotti sjunger d\u00e4r ute trotts att det \u00e4r den f\u00f6rsta juli idag. Ingen gj\u00e4djes\u00e5ng alls h\u00f6rs \u00f6ver v\u00e5r kulle. Bara en gr\u00e4vmaskin och lastbilars mullrande motorer nerifr\u00e5n v\u00e4gen h\u00f6rs. Man f\u00e5r s\u00e4tta p\u00e5 lite musik helt enkelt. &#8220;K\u00f6la p\u00e5&#8221; s\u00e5 att luften kommer i r\u00f6relse. Molekylr\u00f6relse. \u00c4r det inte temperatur det? Ju mer molekylr\u00f6relse desto varmare. Snabba h\u00e5rda gitarrer och hack, hack, tjong p\u00e5 trummor \u00e4r allts\u00e5 det som beh\u00f6vs f\u00f6r att v\u00e4rma upp v\u00e4rlden. M\u00f6jligen lite sol ocks\u00e5. Lite. 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