{"id":12985,"date":"2014-04-27T23:02:39","date_gmt":"2014-04-27T22:02:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=12985"},"modified":"2014-04-27T23:02:39","modified_gmt":"2014-04-27T22:02:39","slug":"den-man-gor-for-att-overleva","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=12985","title":{"rendered":"Den man g\u00f6r f\u00f6r att \u00f6verleva&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/04\/brytning.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/04\/brytning.jpg?resize=500%2C338\" alt=\"brytning\" width=\"500\" height=\"338\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-12986\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Vacker dag, men jobb f\u00f6r mig och nu tr\u00f6tt igen som en lerduva. M\u00f6rkt ute sen ett tag och jag skall snart avsluta min dag. Har letat buggar lite h\u00e4r och var och funnit n\u00e5gra stycken, och \u00e5tminstone det gl\u00e4djer ju alltid. Det \u00e4r en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r dag n\u00e4r man undrar om det \u00e4r v\u00e4rt det. Varf\u00f6r i helvete sitter man h\u00e4r och jobbar helger, vardagar, kv\u00e4llar och mornar n\u00e4r man kunde ta det lugnt och vara som folk ist\u00e4llet. Hur \u00e4n mycket jag jobbar s\u00e5 hinner jag \u00e4nd\u00e5 bara en liten del och helgerna som \u00e4r den tid d\u00e5 jag kan syssla ned mina egna projekt \u00e4r s\u00e5 korta s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbannat ultrakorta. Imorgon \u00e4r det kontraktsprogrammering igen. Den man g\u00f6r f\u00f6r att \u00f6verleva.<\/p>\n<p>Det f\u00e5niga med allt det h\u00e4r \u00e4r att farsan var likadan. Jobbade bara. J\u00e4mt. Men sen h\u00e4nde n\u00e5got strax innan han fyllde sextio. Han la av och b\u00f6rjade leva. Tog pension tidigt och gjorde roliga saker, det han ville. Han fick i alla fall tio \u00e5r. Snart har jag sj\u00e4lv bara tv\u00e5 \u00e5r kvar till sextio. Helvete om jag kan fatta det ens om jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker. Fyrtiotalisterna har ju f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt med att &#8220;femtio \u00e4r det nya fyrtio&#8221; osv vidare, men sextio r\u00e5r dom liksom inte p\u00e5. Det \u00e4r f\u00f6r n\u00e4ra pension. Officiell gammelstatus. Jo d\u00e5 \u00e4r man liksom gammel p\u00e5 riktigt, \u00e4r l\u00e5ngt in p\u00e5 d\u00f6dhalvan av livet. Nedr\u00e4kningen \u00e4r p\u00e5slagen och tickar ob\u00f6nh\u00f6rligen p\u00e5 antingen man vill det eller inte. <\/p>\n<p>Fast inuti k\u00e4nns ju inget av det d\u00e4r. Min ocoola &#8220;gubbe&#8221; kommer fr\u00e5n elevers syn p\u00e5 v\u00e4rlden. F\u00f6r dom \u00e4r alla \u00f6ver tjugosju gubbe, s\u00e5 det \u00e4r lugnt. Men visst, man blir tr\u00f6ttare. K\u00f6r s\u00e4llan dygnsprogrammeringspass l\u00e4ngre. Men \u00e4nd\u00e5 finns det ju yngre som \u00e4r tr\u00f6ttare \u00e4n vad jag \u00e4r. \u00c5tminstone i det kan man gl\u00e4dja sig. Sen \u00e4r det faktiskt fortfarande roligt f\u00f6r det mesta. S\u00e5dana h\u00e4r mer nedst\u00e4mda dagar h\u00f6r till undantagen \u00e4nd\u00e5. Men det \u00e4r det h\u00e4r med att aldrig breaka och vara medveten om att man aldrig kommer att g\u00f6ra det men \u00e4nd\u00e5 vandra fram\u00e5t som \u00e4r kampen. Men det \u00e4r ju med det som med m\u00e5nga andra saker. Man skulle kunna t\u00e4nkt sig att vara Tom Cruise eller Mick Jagger ocks\u00e5 men det blir man ju aldrig. Man f\u00e5r liksom finna sig i en massa saker och n\u00e4r man v\u00e4l funnit sig i dom s\u00e5 g\u00e5r det ju att leva \u00e4nd\u00e5 fast man inte \u00e4r smartast i v\u00e4rlden eller rikast eller att inte ens den som ens egen fru skulle v\u00e4lja om hon vetat hur det blev. Fruar f\u00e5r ocks\u00e5 st\u00e5 ut med sitt, och alla andra med f\u00f6r den delen.<\/p>\n<p>Men imorgon \u00e4r en ny dag. Om man vaknar till den.  D\u00e5 skall det jobbas utan bara helvete. S\u00e5 de s\u00e5.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Vacker dag, men jobb f\u00f6r mig och nu tr\u00f6tt igen som en lerduva. M\u00f6rkt ute sen ett tag och jag skall snart avsluta min dag. Har letat buggar lite h\u00e4r och var och funnit n\u00e5gra stycken, och \u00e5tminstone det gl\u00e4djer ju alltid. 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