{"id":12861,"date":"2014-04-16T22:42:26","date_gmt":"2014-04-16T21:42:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=12861"},"modified":"2014-04-16T22:42:26","modified_gmt":"2014-04-16T21:42:26","slug":"de-forlorades-land","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=12861","title":{"rendered":"De f\u00f6rlorades land"},"content":{"rendered":"

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En till familj drar h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n i sommar. Ett till f\u00f6retag f\u00f6rsvinner. Tyv\u00e4rr ocks\u00e5 den enda familjen som vi h\u00e4r i huset har n\u00e5got man kan kalla kontakt med. Dom hitflyttade precis som vi. Ja att kunna dra iv\u00e4g… De \u00e4r att gratulera de som lyckas. Det \u00e4r en vinst p\u00e5 alla s\u00e4tt. Ingen av de som sticker kommer tillbaks. Men man m\u00e5ste ha ekonomi och kunna k\u00f6pa ett hus utan att s\u00e4lja det man har h\u00e4r f\u00f6r att klara det. S\u00e4ljer g\u00f6r man sannolikt inte i br\u00e5drasket, om alls. Vi blir kvar allts\u00e5. Ruttnar bort h\u00e4r i f\u00f6rlornas land.<\/p>\n

Men missf\u00f6rst\u00e5 mig r\u00e4tt nu. Det finns massor med bra saker h\u00e4r. Huset vi bor i t.ex. var skulle man kunna hitta ett s\u00e5dant hus n\u00e5gon annanstans i Sverige. Men avst\u00e5nden. Den d\u00e4r sista timmen med skog och skog och skog n\u00e4r man kommer tillbaks fr\u00e5n civilisationen. Man blir oerh\u00f6rt tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 den. Samma \u00e5t andra h\u00e5llet naturligtvis. Det \u00e4r l\u00e5ngt till allt. S\u00e5 j\u00e4vla l\u00e5ngt. L\u00e5ngt till folk som har samma intressen och som man delar tankar med dessutom. \u00c4nd\u00e5 \u00e4lskar man den d\u00e4r skogen, men vill till och l\u00e4ngtar efter \u00f6ppet landskap s\u00e5 att hj\u00e4rtat bl\u00f6der. Allt p\u00e5 samma g\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n

Men missf\u00f6rst\u00e5 mig r\u00e4tt igen. Det \u00e4r bra m\u00e4nniskor h\u00e4r uppe. Men inte s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga. Inte s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga som en s\u00e5dan som jag kan prata med. Allts\u00e5 jag s\u00e4ger inte det d\u00e4r sittande p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra h\u00f6ga h\u00e4star. De smarta och intressanta finns h\u00e4r likav\u00e4l som p\u00e5 andra st\u00e4llen. Det \u00e4r inte det. Bara f\u00e4rre m\u00e4nniskor och allts\u00e5 f\u00e4rre med en liknande livs\u00e5sk\u00e5dning eller intresse av fundera \u00f6ver en s\u00e5dan.<\/p>\n

Men jag st\u00e5r utanf\u00f6r det samh\u00e4lle jag lever i. Lo(o)s allts\u00e5. Har valt bort det. Det finns f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga inpinkade territorier och sl\u00e4kt och v\u00e4nskapsband f\u00f6r att jag skall orka med. Jag \u00e4r f\u00f6r k\u00e4nslig f\u00f6r s\u00e5nt. Klarar inte av det. Det finns inget att g\u00f6ra f\u00f6r en s\u00e5n som mig i det d\u00e4r. S\u00e5 jag skjuter undan Lo(o)s med allt jag har. Avslutar facebookrelationerna. Slutar att g\u00e5 p\u00e5 m\u00f6tena och tillst\u00e4llningarna. Inte f\u00f6r att jag anser mig b\u00e4ttre utan f\u00f6r att andra g\u00f6r det. I bubblan \u00e4r jag ensam men i alla fall lugn i sinnet. Det enda jag ber han\/hon\/den\/gud om \u00e4r att jag f\u00e5r d\u00f6 innan det \u00e4r dags f\u00f6r ett \u00e5lderdomshem. Eller om den \u00f6nskan inte kan uppfyllas att jag kommer l\u00e5ngt h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n innan det \u00e4r dags. Det missunnsamma skulle \u00e4ta upp mig som en aggressiv cancer och pl\u00e5ga mig hela v\u00e4gen ner i graven. Jag ber att f\u00e5 slippa det – sn\u00e4lla!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

En till familj drar h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n i sommar. Ett till f\u00f6retag f\u00f6rsvinner. Tyv\u00e4rr ocks\u00e5 den enda familjen som vi h\u00e4r i huset har n\u00e5got man kan kalla kontakt med. Dom hitflyttade precis som vi. Ja att kunna dra iv\u00e4g… De \u00e4r att gratulera de som lyckas. Det \u00e4r en vinst p\u00e5 alla s\u00e4tt. 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