{"id":12138,"date":"2014-02-20T12:48:26","date_gmt":"2014-02-20T11:48:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=12138"},"modified":"2014-02-20T12:48:26","modified_gmt":"2014-02-20T11:48:26","slug":"en-kalldusch","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=12138","title":{"rendered":"En kalldusch!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/Kalldusch_och_m%C3%B6te_med_Tom_Dwan.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/Kalldusch_och_m%C3%B6te_med_Tom_Dwan.jpg?resize=319%2C208\" alt=\"Kalldusch_och_m\u00f6te_med_Tom_Dwan\" width=\"319\" height=\"208\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-12139\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/Kalldusch_och_m%C3%B6te_med_Tom_Dwan.jpg?w=319&amp;ssl=1 319w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/Kalldusch_och_m%C3%B6te_med_Tom_Dwan.jpg?resize=300%2C195&amp;ssl=1 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 319px) 100vw, 319px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 ingen sl\u00f6sande sol idag som g\u00e5rdagens underverk till bl\u00e5 himmel. Man kan dra upp persiennerna igen f\u00f6r att om m\u00f6jligt f\u00e5 in, i alla fall n\u00e5got av det d\u00e4r, ljuset som \u00e4nd\u00e5 finns d\u00e4r ute i gr\u00e5heten. Sn\u00f6fall i natt igen.  Sn\u00f6 som borde skottas d\u00e4r ute men som fortfarande ligger kvar. F\u00e5r ta hand om den sen. Jobb har sin tid och sn\u00f6skottning sin. S\u00e5 m\u00e5ste det vara.<\/p>\n<p>Tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 morgonen idag. F\u00f6rkylningen ligger fortfarande och lurar d\u00e4r i kroppen. Bara \u00e5terh\u00e5llen av vr\u00e5ngheten. Karin b\u00f6rjar tidigt torsdagar och Niklas l\u00e4ser hemma s\u00e5 det \u00e4r ingen duschtr\u00e4ngsel d\u00e4r vid uppstigningstid. Frasse en av v\u00e5ra katter \u00e4r en stor tiger n\u00e4r jag vaknar, samtidigt som han ligger bredvid mig p\u00e5 t\u00e4cket i samma storlek och f\u00e4rg som vanligt. I dr\u00f6mmarna blir det man \u00e4r van till annat, m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt och fantastiskt. De utvidgade sinnets v\u00e4rld k\u00e4nner inte m\u00e4nskliga sinnens begr\u00e4nsningar.<\/p>\n<p>Uppt\u00e4cker att pannan har stannat n\u00e4r jag skall duscha. Man piggar p\u00e5 sig av kallvattenduschar, det \u00e4r ett som \u00e4r s\u00e4kert. Kan v\u00e4nda p\u00e5 det s\u00e5klart. Starta pannan, v\u00e4nta och duscha sen, men jag gillar inte det. Har det d\u00e4r behovet av en dusch innan jag g\u00e5r ner p\u00e5 kontoret. Rutinernas makt. Man \u00e4r liksom inte vaken f\u00f6rr\u00e4n man f\u00e5tt frukost, dusch och te, i den ordningen. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 jag vill ha det. Det borde finnas med en promenad i det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Skall f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00e5 med det s\u00e5 fort v\u00e4garna blir g\u00e5ngbara igen. Nu f\u00e5r man tr\u00e4ngas p\u00e5 de stora v\u00e4garna med bilar och l\u00e5ngtradare och andra \u00e5b\u00e4ken. Det blir mer nedsl\u00e5ende \u00e4n upplyftande liksom. Promenader skall g\u00e5 vid havet eller ut i skogen. I brist p\u00e5 hav \u00e4r valet enkelt h\u00e4r.<\/p>\n<p>Helg snart. Dagar som skall anv\u00e4ndas f\u00f6r v\u00e4lbeh\u00f6vlig vila. Dagar att g\u00f6ra annat p\u00e5. Kanske sitta i studion? Eller kanske bara ligga d\u00e4r i soffan och l\u00e4sa en bok. G\u00f6ra n\u00e5got annat i alla fall. Jag jobbar n\u00e4stan alltid annars. &#8220;Sitter hemma&#8221; heter de s\u00e5klart i Los. Det \u00e4r ju inte fel det heller. Ocks\u00e5 losborna har r\u00e4tt.  Hur man v\u00e4rderar det som andra g\u00f6r handlar mest om hur n\u00f6jd man \u00e4r med sig sj\u00e4lv. K\u00e4nner man sig misslyckad och v\u00e4rdel\u00f6s s\u00e5 \u00e4r oftast alla andra det ocks\u00e5 det och i h\u00f6gre grad, och tv\u00e4rt om d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n<p>Nu tittar solen fram faktiskt. Ja jag ser den inte s\u00e5 det kan ocks\u00e5 vara han\/hon\/det\/gud som visar sig d\u00e4r ute. Ljust blev det i alla fall. Tror jag k\u00e4kar lite lunch p\u00e5 det. Os\u00e4kert vad man skall laga sig&#8230; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>S\u00e5 ingen sl\u00f6sande sol idag som g\u00e5rdagens underverk till bl\u00e5 himmel. Man kan dra upp persiennerna igen f\u00f6r att om m\u00f6jligt f\u00e5 in, i alla fall n\u00e5got av det d\u00e4r, ljuset som \u00e4nd\u00e5 finns d\u00e4r ute i gr\u00e5heten. Sn\u00f6fall i natt igen. Sn\u00f6 som borde skottas d\u00e4r ute men som fortfarande ligger kvar. F\u00e5r ta [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12138","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":44673,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=44673","url_meta":{"origin":12138,"position":0},"title":"Magi","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2023-03-22","format":false,"excerpt":"Jag h\u00e4lsar p\u00e5 tomatplantorna. 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