{"id":11979,"date":"2014-02-10T09:41:44","date_gmt":"2014-02-10T08:41:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=11979"},"modified":"2014-02-10T09:41:44","modified_gmt":"2014-02-10T08:41:44","slug":"hela-vagen-in-i-mal","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=11979","title":{"rendered":"Hela v\u00e4gen in i m\u00e5l"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/m%C3%A5l.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/m%C3%A5l.jpg?resize=276%2C183\" alt=\"m\u00e5l\" width=\"276\" height=\"183\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-11980\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>M\u00f6jligen kan man kalla det tillst\u00e5nd jag vaknar upp i f\u00f6r att vara sjuk. F\u00f6rkyld. Men jag brygger \u00e4nd\u00e5 mitt te, tassa ner f\u00f6r trappen och g\u00e5r in p\u00e5 kontoret, stryker s\u00e4kerhetst\u00e4ndstickan mot pl\u00e5net och f\u00e5r fyr p\u00e5 mitt ljus. Lillkatten, Petite, slinker in ocks\u00e5. Ibland tycker hon att jag beh\u00f6ver s\u00e4llskap h\u00e4r nere i tomheten. L\u00e4gger sig snart p\u00e5 en stol d\u00e4r i blickf\u00e5nget och str\u00e4cker p\u00e5 sig p\u00e5 katters vis. Glad att finnas till. L\u00e4r mig att just det \u00e4r viktigt. Att ocks\u00e5 jag skall vara glad f\u00f6r det trotts en enkel f\u00f6rkylning.<\/p>\n<p>Det har kommit mer sn\u00f6 under natten. Jag borde ge mig ut med sn\u00f6slungan. Men kanske r\u00e4cker det med att skotta en g\u00e5ng ut till v\u00e4gen idag. Samla krafter f\u00f6rst och starta den vr\u00e5lande maskinen senare. Kanske till och med f\u00f6rst imorgon. Det har h\u00e4nt f\u00f6rr att man vaknat upp v\u00e4ldigt f\u00f6rkyld och sedan piggar p\u00e5 sig varefter dan g\u00e5r. Om man har viljan att g\u00f6ra det, pigga p\u00e5 sig allts\u00e5, ibland kan det vara sk\u00f6nt att stanna kvar under t\u00e4cket ocks\u00e5. Var en som det \u00e4r synd om och f\u00f6rtj\u00e4na det.<\/p>\n<p>Hur som helst k\u00e4nner jag mig hoppfull inf\u00f6r den h\u00e4r dagen. Hur man nu kan g\u00f6r det som en man i \u00f6vre medel\u00e5ldern som har passerat sitt b\u00e4st f\u00f6re datum. Men det kan liksom inte hj\u00e4lpas. Det k\u00e4nns \u00e4nd\u00e5 fortfarande som om det b\u00e4sta ligger framf\u00f6r mig. Kan inte g\u00f6ra mig kvitt den k\u00e4nslan. Att k\u00e4nna och t\u00e4nka s\u00e5 skadar v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 ingen, inte en sj\u00e4lv heller. Det tror jag i alla fall inte. N\u00e5gon slags \u00f6verlevnadsinstinkt \u00e4r det nog f\u00f6r att man skall orka hela v\u00e4gen in i m\u00e5l. K\u00f6ra p\u00e5 till finalen. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>M\u00f6jligen kan man kalla det tillst\u00e5nd jag vaknar upp i f\u00f6r att vara sjuk. F\u00f6rkyld. Men jag brygger \u00e4nd\u00e5 mitt te, tassa ner f\u00f6r trappen och g\u00e5r in p\u00e5 kontoret, stryker s\u00e4kerhetst\u00e4ndstickan mot pl\u00e5net och f\u00e5r fyr p\u00e5 mitt ljus. Lillkatten, Petite, slinker in ocks\u00e5. Ibland tycker hon att jag beh\u00f6ver s\u00e4llskap h\u00e4r nere i [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11979","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":19801,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19801","url_meta":{"origin":11979,"position":0},"title":"Besiktning och influensa","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-02-29","format":false,"excerpt":"Besiktning idag. 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