{"id":11947,"date":"2014-02-05T23:12:56","date_gmt":"2014-02-05T22:12:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=11947"},"modified":"2014-02-05T23:12:56","modified_gmt":"2014-02-05T22:12:56","slug":"mitt-kors","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=11947","title":{"rendered":"Mitt kors."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/images1.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/images1.jpg?resize=260%2C194\" alt=\"images\" width=\"260\" height=\"194\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-11948\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Februarihelvete! Men januarihelvetet \u00e4r i alla fall avklarat. Passerat, iv\u00e4gspytt. Skitm\u00e5nader som drar i en och vill trycka ner en i bottenl\u00f6s dy. M\u00f6rker som i och f\u00f6r sig ljusnar dag f\u00f6r dag men som g\u00f6r det f\u00f6r l\u00e5ngsamt f\u00f6r att l\u00e4ka ett sinne som l\u00e4ngtar efter  ljus. Man skulle kunna tappa fotf\u00e4stet i detta ingenting ,men man h\u00e5ller sig kvar, i en enda gren. M\u00e5tte den inte kn\u00e4ckas detta \u00e5r 2014 heller.<\/p>\n<p>Bilar, motorcyklar, V75 eller inte ens gitarrsamlingar fungera f\u00f6r mig. Visst, jag kan se det vackra, men ocks\u00e5 f\u00f6rbi, igenom och se vad allt det d\u00e4r d\u00f6ljer, hindrar en att se, \u00e4r st\u00e4llf\u00f6retr\u00e4dare f\u00f6r. Jag byter alla dessa saker och pengar mot en varm hand som k\u00e4rleksfullt smeker min rygg i tio sekunder eller f\u00f6r en r\u00f6st som s\u00e4ger &#8220;jag gillar dig&#8221; eller &#8220;jag \u00e4lskar dig&#8221;. F\u00f6r det \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 det det till slut handlar om, substituten, precis som sexton timmars arbetsdagar g\u00f6r det. \u00c4lska mig som den jag \u00e4r som de vackraste sydgotarna sjunger.<\/p>\n<p>Men Mars \u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4g. Jag s\u00e5g tendens till dagsmeja h\u00e4romdan. N\u00e5gra droppar som droppade ner fr\u00e5n ett sn\u00f6igt tak. Men Talgoxarna \u00e4r tysta fortfarande. Deras l\u00e4ngtan \u00e4r som min. N\u00e4r ljuset kommer fylls de av k\u00e4rleken och de sjunger om den med hela sitt hj\u00e4rtas lust. Vem kan l\u00e5ta bli att ryckas med d\u00e5?  Det \u00e4r d\u00e5 man skall p\u00e5b\u00f6rja sin livs resa ut i v\u00e4rlden. Borde det. \u00c5ka ut och se allt det d\u00e4r man inte sett. Snart trettio \u00e5r i Lo(o)s \u00e4r f\u00f6r mycket om man \u00e4r inflyttad. F\u00f6r lite f\u00f6r den inf\u00f6dde. De som bara ser det goda, blind f\u00f6r det onda, blind f\u00f6r det utanf\u00f6r, men mig drar det i. Havet mest. Sen staden. S\u00e5 jag stannar. Det \u00e4r min korsf\u00e4stelse. Mitt kors att b\u00e4ra.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Februarihelvete! Men januarihelvetet \u00e4r i alla fall avklarat. Passerat, iv\u00e4gspytt. Skitm\u00e5nader som drar i en och vill trycka ner en i bottenl\u00f6s dy. M\u00f6rker som i och f\u00f6r sig ljusnar dag f\u00f6r dag men som g\u00f6r det f\u00f6r l\u00e5ngsamt f\u00f6r att l\u00e4ka ett sinne som l\u00e4ngtar efter ljus. Man skulle kunna tappa fotf\u00e4stet i detta [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11947","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":13154,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=13154","url_meta":{"origin":11947,"position":0},"title":"Om ingen \u00e4lskar en s\u00e5 har man i alla fall en Iphone.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-05-16","format":false,"excerpt":"Att titta till pannan \u00e4r min uppgift. 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