{"id":11777,"date":"2014-01-24T22:32:59","date_gmt":"2014-01-24T21:32:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=11777"},"modified":"2014-01-24T22:38:37","modified_gmt":"2014-01-24T21:38:37","slug":"saltgruvornas-herre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=11777","title":{"rendered":"Saltgruvornas herre"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/saltgruva.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/saltgruva.jpg?resize=410%2C361\" alt=\"saltgruva\" width=\"410\" height=\"361\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-11778\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Jag k\u00e4nner honom. Han som \u00e4ger saltgruvorna. Han k\u00e4nner s\u00e5klart ingen annan. Det \u00e4r han f\u00f6r sj\u00e4lvupptagen f\u00f6r. Jag har m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt ber\u00e4tta min historia f\u00f6r honom, men det slutar alltid med att jag ist\u00e4llet sitter och lyssnar p\u00e5 hans. F\u00f6r han m\u00e5r s\u00e4llan bra. Det \u00e4r alltid synd om honom. Det svider i hans sn\u00e5la hj\u00e4rta n\u00e4r han betalar ut minimil\u00f6nerna till sina anst\u00e4llda d\u00e4rf\u00f6r att det \u00e4r hans pengar som han n\u00e5digt delar ut. Att han f\u00f6rr\u00e4ntar de d\u00e4r pengarna femtio g\u00e5nger genom det d\u00e4r arbetet som de som jobbar i saltgruvornas kvalmiga v\u00e4rme utf\u00f6r, spelar ingen roll. Inte den minsta.  Det \u00e4r hans pengar. Andra skall inte ta hans pengar!<\/p>\n<p>Men nu finns det s\u00e5klart inte s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga kvar som \u00e4lskar honom. Det svider. Det vet jag. Hans fru har gett upp. Visst, g\u00e5r d\u00e4r tyst vid han sida. Spelar spelet som en god och trogen hustru. Men aldrig med i sj\u00e4len l\u00e4ngre. Den \u00e4r inte till salu ens hos en trogen hustru. Inte heller hon lyssnar p\u00e5 hans klagos\u00e5nger l\u00e4ngre. Finns inte d\u00e4r f\u00f6r honom och i allt v\u00e4sentligt finns inte han heller i hennes liv l\u00e4ngre.<\/p>\n<p>Samma sak med hans barn. De som han piskar till att bli hans kopior. Nu hatar de honom. Kommer dra ifr\u00e5n saltgruvedistriktet s\u00e5 fort de kan och gl\u00f6mma honom tills det \u00e4r dags att h\u00e4mta ut arvet. D\u00e5 f\u00f6rst \u00e5terv\u00e4nder de, och ger sig av igen. Gl\u00f6mmer honom innan de st\u00e4ngt sina bild\u00f6rrar och startat bilarnas motorer. Graven med den fina stenen f\u00e5r v\u00e4xa igen. Ingen kommer n\u00e5gonsin t\u00e4nda ett ljus d\u00e4r en allhelgonahelg f\u00f6r det finns ingen som \u00e4lskar eller ens t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 honom l\u00e4ngre. I alla fall inte tillr\u00e4ckligt mycket och tillr\u00e4ckligt v\u00e4l f\u00f6r den ynkliga handlingen att stryka en t\u00e4ndsticka mot ett pl\u00e5n och t\u00e4nda ett gravljus. Han \u00e4r helt enkelt inte v\u00e4rd ens en s\u00e5dan liten anstr\u00e4ngningen.<\/p>\n<p>Men jag sitter allts\u00e5 och lyssnar p\u00e5 honom fortfarande. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker visa empati. Men ocks\u00e5 jag b\u00f6rjar tr\u00f6tta p\u00e5 hans eviga malande och hans sj\u00e4lvupptagna liv.  Jag borde g\u00e5 och l\u00e5ta honom sitta och muttra d\u00e4r i ett h\u00f6rn. Muttra sig l\u00e4ngre in i m\u00f6rkret och d\u00f6den f\u00f6r han f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar faktiskt inget b\u00e4ttre. S\u00e5 \u00e4r det. Men jag sitter allts\u00e5 fortfarande kvar. Men bara en liten stund till. En sista stund stunds lyssnade p\u00e5 han som bara pratar om sitt. Sen skall jag ocks\u00e5 g\u00e5 och l\u00e4mna denne sj\u00e4lvupptagne man \u00e5t sitt \u00f6de. Jag m\u00e5ste f\u00f6r att bevara i alla fall en liten del av mig sj\u00e4lv. N\u00e4r jag d\u00e5 g\u00e5r min v\u00e4g, tar jag hans sj\u00e4l &#8211; i alla fall det d\u00e4r lilla ljuset som finns kvar i den &#8211; med mig f\u00f6r att aldrig \u00e5terl\u00e4mna det till en som aldrig f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nade att ha ett ickem\u00f6rker i sin sj\u00e4l. Som alltid tog av andra ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att ge, men som sj\u00e4lv \u00e4nd\u00e5 alltid s\u00e5g sig som givaren.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jag k\u00e4nner honom. Han som \u00e4ger saltgruvorna. Han k\u00e4nner s\u00e5klart ingen annan. Det \u00e4r han f\u00f6r sj\u00e4lvupptagen f\u00f6r. Jag har m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt ber\u00e4tta min historia f\u00f6r honom, men det slutar alltid med att jag ist\u00e4llet sitter och lyssnar p\u00e5 hans. F\u00f6r han m\u00e5r s\u00e4llan bra. Det \u00e4r alltid synd om honom. Det svider i [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11777","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":6681,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=6681","url_meta":{"origin":11777,"position":0},"title":"Senast l\u00e4sta bok","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-04-13","format":false,"excerpt":"Gustavs grabb av Leif GW Persson http:\/\/www.adlibris.com\/se\/product.aspx?isbn=9100126845 Vi \u00e4r nog s\u00e5 olika som man kan vara Leif och jag. 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