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\nPelargonerna l\u00e4ngtar efter ljuset. Jag med. Men jag f\u00e5r mer vatten \u00e4n vad de g\u00f6r just nu. En f\u00f6rdel f\u00f6r mig d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Vi str\u00e4cker b\u00e5da p\u00e5 oss med all kraft vi kan uppb\u00e5da upp mot solen och g\u00f6r det i en slags tillbedjan, en b\u00f6n om att den varje dag skall pressa sig en liten bit h\u00f6gre upp p\u00e5 himlen s\u00e5 att de fotoner som den s\u00e4nder ut kan ge oss livet, som det var – det goda – tillbaks. Ja, vi befinner oss i dvala, v\u00e4ntan, en ot\u00e5lig l\u00e4ngtan som ger oss nordbor h\u00e4r i m\u00f6rkret visshet om att det \u00e4r ljuset vi \u00e4lskar. H\u00e4r bland stunder n\u00e4r man inte vet om man klarar det h\u00e4r m\u00f6rka svarta nedsl\u00e5ende, och kanske bara skall ge upp och somna in, men n\u00e4stan alltid, oftast, fattar mod och vill skynda p\u00e5 tiden till ljusets \u00e5terkomst.<\/p>\n

Solen som \u00e4r v\u00e4tebomben, d\u00f6den, hemskheterna och helvetet f\u00f6rkroppsligat h\u00e4r i v\u00e5r egen v\u00e4rld om vi bara studerar den och ser p\u00e5 den med of\u00f6rst\u00e4llda \u00f6gon Det \u00e4r bara avst\u00e5ndet fr\u00e5n den som g\u00f6r att vi, h\u00e4r d\u00e4r vi sitter, st\u00e5r och ligger upplever den som positiv. Man beh\u00f6ver bara befinna sig p\u00e5 en annan plats p\u00e5 samma lilla klot f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 att det inte alltid \u00e4r s\u00e5. D\u00e4r p\u00e5 en annan plats kan den st\u00e5 f\u00f6r allt det negativa. N\u00e4ra blir den till d\u00f6den. D\u00e4rom finns inga tvivel alls. Den l\u00e4r oss att det som kan vara det v\u00e4rsta som finns p\u00e5 samma g\u00e5ng vara det b\u00e4sta som finns. Svart\/vitt \u00e4r ett p\u00e5hitt. Gr\u00e5skalor och f\u00e4rgskalor utan ens f\u00f6rs\u00f6k till indelningar \u00e4r sanningen. Allt \u00e4r allt p\u00e5 samma g\u00e5ng. Den man hatar kan man ocks\u00e5 \u00e4lska. J\u00e4mvikt.<\/p>\n

S\u00e5 en samling pelargoner i ett f\u00f6nster inuti ett stort gult hus p\u00e5 en kulle i Los f\u00e5r l\u00e4ngta ett tag till, liksom han som planterade dem och k\u00e4nde, verkligen k\u00e4nde, livet d\u00e4r mellan fingrarna n\u00e4r blomskott sattes ned i varm levande jord f\u00f6r inte allt f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan. Kanske sover de pelargonerna och dr\u00f6mmer om kullar i s\u00f6dra Afrika d\u00e4r de h\u00f6r hemma, g\u00f6r det f\u00f6r att tiden skall g\u00e5 snabbare. Sover precis som jag snart skall g\u00f6ra det p\u00e5 soffan d\u00e4rf\u00f6r att det n\u00e4stan alltid \u00e4r s\u00e5 mina fredagskv\u00e4llar slutar. “K\u00e4nn ingen sorg” p\u00e5 en sticka kanske hj\u00e4lper, eller s\u00e5 g\u00f6r den inte det. Det \u00e4r knappast viktigt. Jag skall sl\u00e4cka mitt ljus h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret, h\u00e4mta en korg med bj\u00f6rkved, t\u00e4nda i \u00f6ppna spisen innan vi \u00e4ter och sen g\u00f6ra helg i all anspr\u00e5ksl\u00f6shet. Det finns en semla i frysen. Jag har sj\u00e4lv k\u00f6pt den. Men den f\u00e5r st\u00e5 tills imorgon. L\u00e4ngtan \u00e4r en del av det goda. Trevlig helg v\u00e4rlden!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Pelargonerna l\u00e4ngtar efter ljuset. Jag med. Men jag f\u00e5r mer vatten \u00e4n vad de g\u00f6r just nu. En f\u00f6rdel f\u00f6r mig d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Vi str\u00e4cker b\u00e5da p\u00e5 oss med all kraft vi kan uppb\u00e5da upp mot solen och g\u00f6r det i en slags tillbedjan, en b\u00f6n om att den varje dag skall pressa sig en […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11699","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17906,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17906","url_meta":{"origin":11699,"position":0},"title":"Dan efter sjuttonde maj","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-05-18","format":false,"excerpt":"Solen g\u00e5r upp 3:57 h\u00e4r idag. \u00c4nnu en timme inh\u00e4mtad f\u00f6r ljuset. 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