Sitter h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret men borde g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig f\u00f6r jag skall upp tidigt imorgon, men orkar inte. St\u00e4dtr\u00f6tt efter en dag med dammsugare och mopp. Det \u00e4r bara bra musik i \u00f6ronen som r\u00e4ddar en fr\u00e5n en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r dag. Imorgon skall jag ta en fight med alla andra som skall handla den d\u00e4r \u00f6verfulla kundvagnen till jul. Jag kan iof fuska och b\u00f6rja lite tidigare p\u00e5 dan men VILL INTE befinna mig i vansinnet – som tilltar som en orkan i stryka \u00f6ver dan mot kv\u00e4llen – f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge. Galenskapen \u00e4r \u00f6ver oss. Kontokorten g\u00e5r varma. Julklappsmaskinerna spottar ut presenter i massor och direkt\u00f6rerna sitter flinande och r\u00e4knar f\u00f6rs\u00e4ljningspris – omkostnader – ink\u00f6pspris och f\u00e5r som resultat sina julg\u00e5vor innan jul.<\/p>\n
Jag skall g\u00f6ra det jag skall. Sen hem igen. S\u00e5 snabbt det bara g\u00e5r. F\u00f6lja Voxnan ner mot Edsbyn som vanligt. L\u00e4mna en blomma, h\u00e4mta en son i Bolln\u00e4s, k\u00f6pa en present till, handla, \u00e4ta en vegetarisk burgare, dra hem\u00e5t, men f\u00f6rst stanna och t\u00e4nda ljus p\u00e5 morsans och farsans grav. Ett som brinner till julafton f\u00f6r fler \u00e4n dem, f\u00f6r hela min lista.<\/p>\n
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