{"id":11148,"date":"2013-11-24T22:46:23","date_gmt":"2013-11-24T21:46:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=11148"},"modified":"2013-11-25T10:50:32","modified_gmt":"2013-11-25T09:50:32","slug":"utan-att-bli-hes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=11148","title":{"rendered":"Utan att bli hes."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/tomtenisse.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-11149\" alt=\"tomtenisse\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/tomtenisse.jpg?resize=580%2C589\" width=\"580\" height=\"589\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.tomtensdagbok.se\">www.tomtensdagbok.se<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Min tappra fru har st\u00e5tt n\u00e4stan sexton timmar framf\u00f6r mikrofon den h\u00e4r helgen. Utan att klaga och utan att bli m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rt hes, dessutom, m\u00e4rk v\u00e4l. Gjort det med den \u00e4ran.\u00a0 Sj\u00e4lv brukar jag klara tv\u00e5 timmar sen \u00e4r r\u00f6sten hes och trasig. Min h\u00f6gerarm v\u00e4rker och skakar efter att ha legat p\u00e5 mixerbordet hela dagen och nu vill jag bara h\u00f6ra musik, ja, jaga bort musikabstinensen, efter tv\u00e5 dagars koncentration framf\u00f6r ett mixerbord. Ja ni fattar vem som \u00e4r den tuffe i det h\u00e4r huset. Inte \u00e4r det jag.<\/p>\n<p>Femton timmar skall nu bli fyra timmar ljudbok. Mitt jobb. Just ljudbok l\u00e5ter pretenti\u00f6st men det \u00e4r v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 det, det \u00e4r. Man kan inte komma ifr\u00e5n den detaljen. T\u00e4nker man sig att den h\u00e4r ljudboken &#8211; som mitt \u00f6vriga material &#8211; f\u00e5r sis\u00e5d\u00e4r fem lyssnare, s\u00e5 har vi allts\u00e5 lagt n\u00e5gra timmars jobb p\u00e5 varje lyssnare den h\u00e4r helgen. Det utan tanke p\u00e5 en enda krona i inkomster eller appl\u00e5der, priser eller ovationer. F\u00f6r somliga \u00e4r det ju inte p\u00e5 riktigt d\u00e5 men f\u00f6r mig \u00e4r det precis tv\u00e4rt om. Jag skiter i just det d\u00e4r. Det h\u00e4r kommer fr\u00e5n mitt hj\u00e4rta och numer ocks\u00e5 min frus hj\u00e4rta och finns d\u00e4r fritt tillg\u00e4ngligt utan tanke \u00e5t n\u00e5got som helst spekulativt. Det borde vara den b\u00e4sta formen av konst men v\u00e4rlden \u00e4r blind. Det f\u00e5r man leva med. Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r jag n\u00f6jd med att vara en av de levandes som kan g\u00f6ra det d\u00e4r. Som f\u00e5tt den ynnesten.<\/p>\n<p>Men arbetsveckan v\u00e4ntar. Skall bara backa upp det vi gjort nu i helgen och lunka upp f\u00f6r trapporna upp till en bok och en varm s\u00e4ng. Ute har vintern tagit det l\u00e5sande greppet om h\u00f6sten nu. Det finns ingen \u00e5terv\u00e4ndo. Det \u00e4r bara mer sn\u00f6 och mer kyla som v\u00e4ntar under en l\u00e5ng tid. Jag borde vara i Kalifornien eller Provence. Borde, men \u00e4r inte. Ibland f\u00e5r dr\u00f6mmarna r\u00e4cka. Jag har inga problem med det. Jag kan flytta bubblan jag lever i till valfri plats p\u00e5 jorden n\u00e4r jag vill. Att ha f\u00f6r mycket fantasi \u00e4r en ynnest just d\u00e4r. Jag har f\u00e5tt verktygen f\u00f6r att orka \u00f6verleva. Tacksam f\u00f6r det. Tacksam ocks\u00e5 f\u00f6r de goda m\u00e4nniskor jag k\u00e4nner. Utan dem hade jag gett upp hoppet f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan.<\/p>\n<p>Med den tanken kan jag g\u00e5 till vila denna s\u00f6ndag.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>www.tomtensdagbok.se Min tappra fru har st\u00e5tt n\u00e4stan sexton timmar framf\u00f6r mikrofon den h\u00e4r helgen. Utan att klaga och utan att bli m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rt hes, dessutom, m\u00e4rk v\u00e4l. Gjort det med den \u00e4ran.\u00a0 Sj\u00e4lv brukar jag klara tv\u00e5 timmar sen \u00e4r r\u00f6sten hes och trasig. Min h\u00f6gerarm v\u00e4rker och skakar efter att ha legat p\u00e5 mixerbordet hela [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11148","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":35201,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35201","url_meta":{"origin":11148,"position":0},"title":"Bit f\u00f6r bit","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2020-06-08","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r dag n\u00e4r man g\u00e5r och g\u00e5r men inte riktigt kommer fram till d\u00f6rren. 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